Cancerous Obsession T_T

I know I have some sort of influence over the Cancer man's behaviour.

2 years ago, I started noticing him & observing him for a few weeks before I initiated contact with him. Hence, during my observation period, I have added his mobile phone number (that I got from his Facebook profile) into my address book that I could see his WhatsApp profile photo. When we got to talking over Facebook Messenger, we exchanged our mobile numbers formally & he changed his WhatsApp profile photo then, which he still used to date. I know it could probably just meant he hadn't bothered to change since then. No big deal.

Another example: 2 months ago, during 1 of my emotional undertakings, I deleted him from my Facebook friend list. Ever since, I've apologised for this & tried twice to add him but he had not approved & now I didn't even have the button to request this from him anymore (which I'm not sure if he himself is aware he has revoked such option from me). I have obsessively visited his Facebook page daily anyway & there are still some information I could view. 1 of it is his friend list. I notice how the number of his friends has not grown since I deleted him, contrary to when I was still on his friends list even 2 months ago, his number of friends would actively increase almost on a weekly basis. In fact, his number of friends has dwindled by about 10 now in 2 months. It's as if after I deleted him, he didn't bother keeping up on his Facebook anymore.

Well, of course if I were to think alternatively, he probably could be active on Facebook hooking my interest then, & since we are not on talking terms now, he might have moved onto a different platform hooking up some other interests.

Sorry, these are just ramblings I guess I need to get off my mind.