Giving up on you for the first time

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Posted by goldencrab
advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
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advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
Yes text book cancer :p
Noone lied, noone led me on like i said its not events
im kinda out of it idk just think of the moment you started to understand santa claus wasn't real i guess
im really depressed right now. not suicidal or anything though.
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Have you been doing drugs in the last 12 hours?
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Posted by goldencrab
advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
Yes text book cancer :p
Noone lied, noone led me on like i said its not events
im kinda out of it idk just think of the moment you started to understand santa claus wasn't real i guess
im really depressed right now. not suicidal or anything though.
Have you been doing drugs in the last 12 hours?
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Santa claus is a metaphor for the love lol... don't act like you've never gone numb out of depression. This site is starting to look like a troll site where my feelings are legit.
Noone understands me in the real world...signing off to tend to mundane laundry cheers and thanks for the input despite
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goldencrab
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9 Years

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Posted by incandescentcancer
Posted by goldencrab
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Posted by goldencrab
advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
Yes text book cancer :p
Noone lied, noone led me on like i said its not events
im kinda out of it idk just think of the moment you started to understand santa claus wasn't real i guess
im really depressed right now. not suicidal or anything though.
Have you been doing drugs in the last 12 hours?
Santa claus is a metaphor for the love lol... don't act like you've never gone numb out of depression. This site is starting to look like a troll site where my feelings are legit.
Noone understands me in the real world...signing off to tend to mundane laundry cheers and thanks for the input despite
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not signing off, there's some rich stuff on here not only trolls. aside from whatever what do you think about that have u dealt with fools gold?? &when is your birthday?
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Posted by goldencrab
advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
When you were with someone for a long time. For me my first love. First IN Love. And you gave everything. And they besotted you. You truly fell. You pictured your life together threw your lot in with theirs. And then it changed. They changed. Not that they stopped wanting you. It could be cheating or abuse or whatever.

The end of a long term relationship that was hell.

And you don't get to have nice memories of your first love. Well some ..but they just make it even worse. They make you feel guilty ...

Then one day someone or something reminds you of the best of him.... and you try and make sense....


This reminds me of him.
OP it will be fine.

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I can't watch that at the moment but thank you the break up was a while ago so
idk im learning how to love for the right person i have so much to offer now
its also disappointing when people only stick around for the good stuff idk fools gold.
if i could love the wrong person that much i wonder what hoops i would jump through for the right person, have u heard that one?
idk i get out of depression with faking it til u make it. I hate playing victim but i wish people could feel my feelings and thoughts sometimes words arent enough
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Posted by DonnaElvira77
Posted by incandescentcancer
Posted by goldencrab
advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
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When you were with someone for a long time. For me my first love. First IN Love. And you gave everything. And they besotted you. You truly fell. You pictured your life together threw your lot in with theirs. And then it changed. They changed. Not that they stopped wanting you. It could be cheating or abuse or whatever.

The end of a long term relationship that was hell.

And you don't get to have nice memories of your first love. Well some ..but they just make it even worse. They make you feel guilty ...

Then one day someone or something reminds you of

have you dealt with two cancers together?
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Posted by goldencrab
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Posted by goldencrab
Posted by incandescentcancer
Posted by goldencrab
advice for facing falsehood, total rant haha but it was my first one so hush & fancy seeing you again so soon "unfiltered poison cancer"
basically just looking for support i've never seen so much of people going through the same thing &i could use anyone who can relate i feel rough
So someone lied to you or led you on? Is that what happened?

Are you a Cancer? If not, what sign are you?
Yes text book cancer :p
Noone lied, noone led me on like i said its not events
im kinda out of it idk just think of the moment you started to understand santa claus wasn't real i guess
im really depressed right now. not suicidal or anything though.
Have you been doing drugs in the last 12 hours?
Santa claus is a metaphor for the love lol... don't act like you've never gone numb out of depression. This site is starting to look like a troll site where my feelings are legit.
Noone understands me in the real world...signing off to tend to mundane laundry cheers and thanks for the input despite
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I am sorry I am not more helpful. I actually don't know what answers you're looking for.
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Posted by DonnaElvira77
My mother found it cleaning for christmass ..and asked if i wanted to throw it out....I said no..then i looked for the ring he gave me...the only thing he did give me....i don't want to throw that out ...i haven't worn it though..i guess it's like the ring ..you have to find a way of being with this stuff that is ok ..or throw it...

It's a nice ring...

It might be better looking back to throw that whole dysfunctional thing out...
I'm feeling better & i don't think it was dysfunctional i feel like we were just kids and knew something was there but didn't know what love was
There's so much about me i never told him just like who i was but we were too busy being kids i never understood it u know what i mean if u get love.
You lterally just dont know what it is until its gone
Then u start to learn its such a journey. I'm sure u get what i mean. My ex got rid of the most special thing kinda like a ring but i put it upside down next to the garbage so i deserved it. I was just hurt. Did you push your ex away miz cancer?