help. he is making me crazy in love. he hugged

hey guys. please i need your help.

BACKGROUND

(i am madly in love with this cancer guy. he knows it coz i told him. he want to go with the flow ( as if let it go slow and steady)
okay.. so i started sending him kisses and hugs over texting, telling him that i love him. he told me he don't like so much affection, i was upset but asked him why he don't like it when i do, where as he himself also send me kisses.
he asked to give him in real, as he don't like fake text message kisses. i said i won't give because i don't know what is my and his relation. we say we are friends, but friends aren't so possessive for each other
THE HUG
on over 6th meeting in 8 months, he took me to his home for the first time, i didn't met his family as i was shy. we talked and talk.. after some time he asked me to come and sit next to him on bed. i asked why ( my heart was beating fast) he patted the bed again. so i want and sat- nervously.in another 5 or so min he laid down and rested his head on my lap. i was nervous but i placed my hand in his hairs massaging his scalp . he asked me to massage freely without being nervous. his eyes was closed the whole time.i did see him taking his lower lip in his mouth. i asked him to open his eyes he said i will get more nervous, i insisted but i did get nervous so he closed again. after that he asked me to massage head , neck etc.. and i started to get frustrated that i am so nervous and he is asking me to massage him. when i couldn't take it any longer i got up and sat back on the chair... i felt him getting angry as if he knew this would happen. but after watching my nervousness i guess he softened. he asked me to hug. i said i can't hug. he said he knew i was fake and i only say stuff on texts. that upset me and i asked him " do you know what shyness is"
he did n heard me and i was on the verge to cry out. so i closed me eyes tightly and grabbed the novel twilight ( he bout it to read it) and started reading to stop my tears from falling. he asked me to leave the book. i nodded no. in a flash of light he got up took the book out of my hand and pulled me into him arms and hugged me tightly. i let out the shaky breath i was holding while my face was buried in his shoulders. he pulled me more closer and i automatic snuggled in his neck. our face touching. we should in this hug for almost 40 -50 min. in btw he kissed my forehead, without breaking the hug. asking me did anyone hugged me so lovingly. kissed my cheek, eyes.

i hugged him more tighter. he moved my hairs away from my face, tucking them over my ear, kissing my cheek again. in btw he was trying to move my hairs away from my neck but he was i guess controlling him self. but when i kissed his cheek and placed my lips near his neck, he shivered, i hugged him more tighter. just then he kissed my neck madly. more controlled him self.

i placed my hand on his face and hugged him more tighter and whispered that i love him. but he didnot replied back. just lovingly pinched my cheek. kiss my throat.

he even was about to kiss my lips but thank GOD we stopped. so i hugged him again.


what was all this about..— i love him madly. and after this event.. i am not even sure what really he want. i asked him why he hugged and kissed.. all he said was that, don't ask him this question or he won't hug ever again. i was upset but dropped the question. do cancers mostly do this? after 3 and half years i am the 1st girl he kissed and hugged.

help me plz 😢

haha yeah different culture. emm i guess you people won't be able to help me 🙂

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