Hi this is my first time on a site like this so go easy.In high school I talked to a lot of girls and had a few good relationships. Nothing serious. But there was always this one girl who always caught my attention. I know there is no perfect girl but I was attracted to every little thing about her. Her eyes,lips, hair,size, everything. But i could never bring myself to talk to her.After months of secretly admiring her from a distance I became friends with one of her friends and I finally got to meet this girl. Possibly one of the best moments of my life. She was the first to speak and I was so surprised she would even talk to me.I would have pursued her but..idk i guess i just didn't. I changed schools and just continued with my life. I added her on fb but nothing else happened after that.But i ended up hurt after a bad breakup and I havent considered another relationship after that for the longest time. After a long recovery and doing a lot of bad, i messaged her. And i was surprised that she had responded. So for a little bit we chatted on fb. I told her that i always thought she was cute and stuff like that. I asked her a lot of questions because I genuinely wanted to know more and more about her. I asked her i ever bugged her and she said i didn't. I wrote her poems every now and then and she would say "aww" or "thats sweet" . So she knew i liked and admired her. But i didnt hit her up all the time because of two reason. One because i know cancers like space,two because i'm still piecing up myself from my last break up. Sometimes she wouldn't reply or she would take her time. I was just very patient. Because this is something i don't want to fuck up. One time i wrote her a poem that really expressed what i felt. And i didn't get a reply. And i thought i fucked up so i kind of freaked out. And so i let her know that i went through a bad break up and about how my life was in a really bad spot(crimes,drugs, turning a new leaf.) She said i didn't mess up. She liked all my poems but she was just going through something at the time that needed all her attention. So the rate of me messaging really dropped. Maybe once a week a good night or how was your day. But after having dreams of her i decided to deactivate my fb to prevent myself from getting hurt again. She knows im going to be a marine very soon for four years. In one of my poems i said when i return i would love to see her. Am i just setting myself for another heartbreak?? I feel like shes the one..
