Why I never fall in Love....cuz when it falls...

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namelesscancer
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19 YearsCancer

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....the pain...the unbearable, hear-ache, the constant memory of her, her smile, those deep brown eyes, when your thoughts are only about her . When every minute, every second you long to be with her....and you cant...share her dreams, bring her the joy you know you can...

When you know she is the perfect one for you....but the love is only one sided, and despite your sincere efforts to show her the real you - perfectly matched for her, you fail...

The burning agony...

Why is it that we feel so hurt? perhaps more than others. Is that why we always take so long to choose the right partner? Why I have only loved 3 women in 5 years?

I feel sad. I feel hurt. I feel angry. I feel....miserable. I hate myself for feeling this way.

Any one want to trade my measure of sensitivity, loyalty and love for a bit of bitter, cold guardedness?
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Storm
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Nameless,

Well sweetheart, we're in the same boat. I keep thinking time will heal it, but time only seems to make it worse. I feel jaded when it comes to love now, I've had my heart broken like it's a fun hobby. I keep thinking that if I make things more difficult for others to get close, then maybe I won't have to feel the ouch it brings anymore. The truth of the matter is, it's impossible. The gift of love makes you feel like you can fly, but anytime you fly you risk falling. After which you have to find a way to deal with the pain, pick yourself up, dust off, and try it again. Though it's simply put in words, it's freaken agony. Sometimes you find staying on the ground and not getting back up, is something you prefer to do, rather than going through it again. You can't do that though, otherwise you go through life empty, and life becomes going through the motions rather than living. So what do you do?

As crazy as it is, I still have faith, someone is out there. Someone who can handle my fiesty side for the sake of my loving devotion. And maybe, just maybe, I'll find someone who's worth it for life. I dunno if this will help you in any way, but keep the faith that someday, it'll happen for you too...
Take care, and keep faith!!!

Storm