About to explode...

Had to leave work early today due to this feeling. It's not fatigue, its anger. I feel like just heading up to canada to live in a cabin and forget about everything and everyone. I see the cars passing by and I get even more angry at how everything is just so indifferent. As I was walking around this random guy said he didnt have enough money to head home and i gave him all my change. What the fuck? Here I am feeling like im about to go on a killing spree just to see blood running and people in panic and I give away all my change? I fucken hate how fake I can be, I even smiled. IM SO FUCKEN ANGRY. Tried talking to my friend, didnt help, tried meditating and im too agitated to calm down. What the fuck!! Is this a capricorn thing? My libra rising? I fucken hate everyone right now, myself included. Tips, recommended over the counter drugs ANYTHING help.....

Yeah!
We are!
It's ours!

Then. OK.
What's going on?
Maybe be try to talk there?

I'm the most complicated relationship I??ve ever been in. Im isolated from all my famaly (they live in another continent) I feel like my friend is giving me cliche advise and isnt listening to how deeply im fucken hurting. I'm tired of people and their bullshit but when im by myself i wish i had company and that contradiction makes me more angry. I feel like everyone is so selfish and that no one truelly cares about anyone and only pretend to in order to meet their own needs. I'm working 3 times as hard as anyone at the office in order to help out with all the work load and i still get treated just like everyone else. I havent seen my 6 year old daughter in 5 years. and.... and ... im tired of caring about everything, being so fucken sensitive. And the worst thing is i know this will go away... just like i know it will come back when i least expect it... it can never just leave what the fuck...

Posted by ellessque
its the Taurus and Scorpio in your chart.

How do i get rid of it

Posted by ellessque
its the Taurus and Scorpio in your chart.

I'm not into moons.

Posted by Lucriu

Posted by ellessque
its the Taurus and Scorpio in your chart.

How do i get rid of it

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You don't like fireworks? 🙂

Posted by Serginho

Posted by Lucriu

Posted by ellessque
its the Taurus and Scorpio in your chart.

How do i get rid of it

You don't like fireworks? 🙂

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Nice try... but you just joked at the wrong time

Posted by Lucriu
I'm the most complicated relationship I??ve ever been in. Im isolated from all my famaly (they live in another continent) I feel like my friend is giving me cliche advise and isnt listening to how deeply im fucken hurting. I'm tired of people and their bullshit but when im by myself i wish i had company and that contradiction makes me more angry. I feel like everyone is so selfish and that no one truelly cares about anyone and only pretend to in order to meet their own needs. I'm working 3 times as hard as anyone at the office in order to help out with all the work load and i still get treated just like everyone else. I havent seen my 6 year old daughter in 5 years. and.... and ... im tired of caring about everything, being so fucken sensitive. And the worst thing is i know this will go away... just like i know it will come back when i least expect it... it can never just leave what the fuck...

I don't want to be your hero

Posted by Lucriu
i wish i had company

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biz? 🙂

Posted by Lucriu

Posted by Serginho

Posted by Lucriu

Posted by ellessque
its the Taurus and Scorpio in your chart.

How do i get rid of it

You don't like fireworks? 🙂

Nice try... but you just joked at the wrong time

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haha, do you know my copyrighted "I'm your mr/mr average. Come in 2 my world"?

Posted by ellessque
its the Taurus and Scorpio in your chart.

It sounds like a scorpio moon, the "I don't know what to do with myself" kind of feeling.

Pluto in Scorpio?

You're not the only one who's stormed off. I did it at least five times in my second job because I really didn't want to be there and my supposed coworkers were aggravating. Removing myself from the equation was the only way for things to resolve themselves. Unless you can do something about your circumstances but haven't, then don't be hard on yourself.

Posted by 2N3R
You're not the only one who's stormed off. I did it at least five times in my second job because I really didn't want to be there and my supposed coworkers were aggravating. Removing myself from the equation was the only way for things to resolve themselves. Unless you can do something about your circumstances but haven't, then don't be hard on yourself.

love this

It's an alarm to go upstairs.

Im back at work. I was going to pay the hours on saturday but didn't want to be alone. It was silly of me to seek refuge in a forum, I tried an older friend and he told me everything that I needed to hear...atleast i felt like he understood... What ever the placements are for what ??this?? is god is one twisted son of a bitch...

Unfortunately that feeling goes away and then comes back. Best bet is to practice how to control it when you recognize the signs.

Thanks = ) ill give it a try next time.