When I came out in June we had a GREAT time. It was celebrating 4 years sicne we met. he also gave me my late birthday present..an expensive beautiful, wallet. Then the second day I was there he said that we needed to talk. He said he wasn't where he wanted to be career wise and that he didn't want to be exclusive anymore. He mentioned that the incident in December kind of tripped him. Yes, we were intimate, but I felt pretty dirty. That day was really hot and humid and didn't help the mood. After I returned home, we talked pretty often. I went out there again a few weeks ago and we had a great time. I could see he hadn't slept much at this parents house. He told me I looked fantastic.After we got back to the hotel he was suffering from a migrain (he gets them a lot..poor thing) This time we weren't intimate..I could tell his body wanted to but, his mind got the best of him. After he told me it was best we didn't be intimate, he whispered to me that when we were together he never wanted for another woman and I was the only woman for him.He again said that he thought maybe our relationship had gone as far as it could and maybe we were on different wavelengths since I was still working on my education.He said that after being together as long as we have he doesn't feel like he thinks he should..you know marriage and stuff. The longest relationship he'd ever had was 3 months. I asked him if he'd ever told anyone he loved tham and he said, No".I said why don't be trying just distancing ourself and he said we tried that but I kept calling him. He told me not to wait for him and I asked him if we would ever be intimate again..he said when people break up they have to assume they won't but he said we would have to see what happens and that I need to have faith. We kissed and hugged by his car and I waved goodbye. I went back up to my hotel room and texted him to drive safely. Unfortunately, I had to call him to ask him something about the tv channels and I tried to get off the phone real quick and he said, "Wait, I want to tell you something". He told me You know I'll always be crazy about you." and he told me his parents really liked me (he never told me that before). When I got to the airport in Cali, he had called me and told me he had to take his dog to the vet. We ended up talking a few hours. Then that complete week, he was either calling me or texting me. He would always say it was about something political in the news. I would try to cut the conversation
