Solar return

How influential is this?

For example, I've been having a lot of difficulty communicating and expressing myself, while having so many inventive thoughts.
And repressing emotions crazily.

Then I saw Aquarius mercury in retrograde + Scorpio moon this year.

I know astrology should be taken with a grain of salt, but am I just trying to find excuses for my state of being or could it be of influence?

mine is accurate. Uranus is in my second house for my solar return. this means there could be unexpected disruptions in jobs that don't involve technology. I lost my internship for communications. it did not have to do with technology. my solar return just started in November. houses 1-6 represent the first half of your year typically and houses 7-12 represent the last 6 months.

my ascendant is in Aquarius this year, so I will be opening up in very different ways versus before. I can sense it. my Pluto is in the 11th house so friendships will end and be intense this year...already I am annoyed with some of my friends. I can see it ending with my cutting them off entirely.

I'll have to go back to my notes to see everything else as I can't fully remember.

it seems like you may have to suffer in regards to communications if retrograde is not in your natal. your emotions will also probably be internally intense this year. what house are these in?

definitely take it with a grain of salt, but it could be an analysis astrologically of your communication issues.

I feel like your progressed chart is way more accurate with current events going on in your life and your developed personality.

The retrograde by itself tells the story but I would look a little more into the moon like aspects