Another 'dream'?

Yes I had yet another dream that I recall having had before this time its made me think that my biological mother is out for me and using me to either get to others because of her own shit she should take responsiblity for herself or because to even things with others either way she is using me which she should not be doing and because I look like her it and I have no idea what is it that is going on she can do this and is probably doing this via me having these 'thoughts, dreams and recollections'(tdr's).

Ok so shes been thru some shit so has everyone else but what I dont understand is why she hates everyone and is using me for her own gain and also it not only her but could very well be my biological father too that is in on this as well both I dont know who they are and really I dont care about them they are both idiots as far as i am concerned but what concerns me the most is why is this happening? Also it could very well be not them but someone else who I dont know who it would be.

It seems like everyone else knows who my biological mother and biological father is except me and as far as I know I only have my dad and that is all I ever need and want so really if they have put everyone else in the shit because of their own shit then thats not right at all and I dont like it one bit so I am sorry if I came across as pissed I didnt and still dont understand what it is that is actually going on only that it dont make sense to me why I am having these tdr's at all and can only think that it would have to have something to do with the biological fuckwits that are hijacking my life to hurt everyone else via me. So sorry about this.

I mean just coz the mother has been thru crap doesnt mean she should take it out on anybody and use others and manipulate others into giving to her what she wants which is fuck all shes just too much of a coward to do it herself and as for the father he bound by god only knows and thinks he the righteous one here and uses that to hurt others. This is wrong and I for one am sick to death of it who the fuck do they think they are eh?

By the way i will continue on piecing this puzzle together although it seems I am stuck in the middle i will get to the bottom of this once and for all and find out who is behind this all.

For all I know it could be a test to see how strong I am and if indeed I will mentally submit? Now who would be as so kind to put me thru this?

Yes I had yet another dream that I recall having had before this time its made me think that my biological mother is out for me and using me to either get to others because of her own shit she should take responsiblity for herself or because to even things with others either way she is using me which she should not be doing and because I look like her it and I have no idea what is it that is going on she can do this and is probably doing this via me having these 'thoughts, dreams and recollections'(tdr's).

Ok so shes been thru some shit so has everyone else but what I dont understand is why she hates everyone and is using me for her own gain and also it not only her but could very well be my biological father too that is in on this as well both I dont know who they are and really I dont care about them they are both idiots as far as i am concerned but what concerns me the most is why is this happening? Also it could very well be not them but someone else who I dont know who it would be.

It seems like everyone else knows who my biological mother and biological father is except me and as far as I know I only have my dad and that is all I ever need and want so really if they have put everyone else in the shit because of their own shit then thats not right at all and I dont like it one bit so I am sorry if I came across as pissed I didnt and still dont understand what it is that is actually going on only that it dont make sense to me why I am having these tdr's at all and can only think that it would have to have something to do with the biological fuckwits that are hijacking my life to hurt everyone else via me. So sorry about this.

I mean just coz the mother has been thru crap doesnt mean she should take it out on anybody and use others and manipulate others into giving to her what she wants which is fuck all shes just too much of a coward to do it herself and as for the father he bound by god only knows and thinks he the righteous one here and uses that to hurt others. This is wrong and I for one am sick to death of it who the fuck do they think they are eh?

By the way i will continue on piecing this puzzle together although it seems I am stuck in the middle i will get to the bottom of this once and for all and find out who is behind this all.

For all I know it could be a test to see how strong I am and if indeed I will mentally submit? Now who would be as so kind to put me thru this?

Yeh thats if i even have been through this crap in my dreams certainly feels like it though I highly doubt it.

Ones things for sure is that if i have been through what I have been dreaming, i have been through alot and noone aint got no right to tell me how I should be living my life and say I have no understanding or zero tolerance etcetc, wtf who the fuck do you think you are telling people how they be living life?

You need to back the fuck off and leave me alone coz I dont want to hear it. You seem like a nice person and really need to focus on other things besides telling people what they should or should not be doing.

Yeh i have been around people like you before and really CC you are very clingy and wish that you may cling to others and not be so like telling me how to live my life.

I do what I want when I want and thats just me obvious there are other people that dont understand that about me, maybe you should understand that about me and leave me alone so you are happier about life in general unless you have an ulterior motive to hurt me like everyone else you and all your so-called friends, if this is the case then Goodbye! I will not tolerate persons such as yourself trying to pretend to like me just so you can hurt me>Gah night mr dear goodluck with it all.

Yeh you are not my mother nor my father biologically so of any perceived concern you may pretend to have for me is nil.

I am an adult now so yo cant tell how to live my life coz I can do that myself there is no reason for you to be telling me such crap.

If you a friend you would understand and know that about me I do what I want always have and always will and would rather you not be telling me because you have no right to do that to me. It does not come across as help either so you cant find that angle and play that card.

The door is shut for a reason to you and everyone else who pretends to be a friend.

What I am trying to get you to understand is that I have a restless feeling to which i must abide by in order to be happy and this always hurts others because they deem my behaviour as lacking in understanding, having zero empathy etcetc.

Now i question you that if you could see alot and know right away what people were like and were forced to be nice to them despite them being nasty to you because this is what it is like to be me then what would you do?

Say you had enough of trying to be kind helpful to another when all they do is spit in your face and hit you and scream at you and be extremely unkind and ungrateful and you actually scream at them back and do exactly what they do to you, you then are hit with an unending wave of hurt and shit that comes out from nowhere and realise that it isnt the way you be acting. Has this ever happened to you?

It has to me and does all the time so I can do what I want when I want coz as long as I follow that restless part of me I know I am doing the right thing, now you being overly 'concerned' has me knowing you are not being that way and I feel its intrusive and hurtful and insulting towards me. So would like for you to really mind you own business and get out of my life for good. Otherwords leave me alone stop trying to control me and what I do.