Very heavy dream :-(

OK the other night I had a very heavy dream. The background to this is that my father died back in April just short of his 90th birthday. He had terminal-stage dementia. In this dream however he was back living again and did not have dementia and was standing in a room talking to some other guy and I was watching. I was kind of vaguely thinking "but you're dead" but at first did not say anything. Then I felt kind of annoyed about it and started shouting at him "But Dad! You're dead! You're dead!" over and over again. I say I was shouting but in fact I had difficulty in forming the words properly as though I was kind of suffocating or something. Anyway he kind of looked at me in an annoyed way as I kept shouting and then I woke up (calling out "You're dead! You're dead" as I awakened: I think the guy in the apartment below mine must have heard me shouting).

I think what this dream is about is trying to get my Dad out of my life in the sense that although he meant well when he was alive I think I let him have too much influence over my life and this was a way of trying to remove his residual limiting influence on me: although it was a disturbing dream I did feel "purged" afterwards (if somewhat shaken!)