Simple Question

Hi Bob,

This is Katherine again. Thank you so much for your response and for taking my question seriously.

I can't call him. I have gone way over the top with trying to communicate and with leaving the door open. He is a strange bird, and he is very guarded and we would need real time together for him to open up and trust again. So a phone call wouldn't do it I'm afraid. I'd be lucky to even get him on the line. His phone always goes to a message service first and he is angry with me. I don't think he would call back. I honestly don't think I can do anything. I guess I just need to know if this deep connection I feel to him is as real as my gut has been telling me it is for years now. He must call me. That is the miracle I am looking for. When I pass him on the road, and we notice each other, later I always get a phone call with no message with "private name, private number" on the caller ID. It has to be him, just checking out my voice which he loves. It is a consistent coincidence. He is just too proud to go further and come clean and apologize for asking me to be tolerant a second time after waiting for him for two years. He knows that was the wrong thing to put me through and he knows it devastated me. I don't even know if he is still with this second woman. She may have long ago left the picture. I have no way to know. But I need an apology from him, from his heart, before I will try anything again. I can't hurt myself anymore. Do you think he will ever get real enough with himself to get real with me?

I'm sorry. I don't mean to burden you a second time with my questions, I just wanted you to know that I am not comfortable trying to call him. I don't think he would get the message. I think they are intercepted.

Thank you so much.

Katherine