my foolish areis heart burned yet again..... :-(

i haven't post on here in a while but as some of you know ive been trying to date this gemini girl....everything was fine, we enjoyed eachoters company and we liked eachother a lot.....to make a long story short most of the time we talked a lot and txt a lot but didnt have the time to spend a lot of time with eachother. I finally got a little brake from work and was home all last week and this week as well and i took advantage of that and spend a lot of time with her last week and everything was going great.....slow but great and i didnt mind of how slow things were progressing because i was enjoying the getting to know time and just spending time together and finally on sunday night i took a leap forward and gave her a kiss on the way home, i felt good and she gave into it....but 2 days later i receive a txt from her that im the coolest guy she knows but feels that its moving to fast and she is not ready to get involved and she feels like crap because she doesnt know what she wants...she says she havent felt this bad in a long time which is weird because usually she doesnt give a crap....she also blames not being ready to get involved because she broke up with a guy 4 months ago ( they were together only 8 months and he is a total psycho) she still wants me to go to the wedding with her next week and she even bought a dress to match my extravagant green shirt and a tie
she also asked if i can give her some time because she has got some shit in her life right now...( but i know what that means....she is letting me down easy...im no fool) she also says she doesnt want me to loose completely but im not sure if she means is

so needless to say....my major crush has crumbled right before my eyes and its because I moved to quick....dejavu....i did the same thing with a cancer girl less than a year ago 😢 ....it seems that i have no problem drawing them to me but always ruin things by moving to quick....

im so disappointed and crushed......i really really did like her....we had so much in common, very similar sense of humor, taste of music, movies and tv shows....its hard to find a girl who loves simpsons and family guy as much as i do....
and she was.....well still is cute and funny and smart and did i say cute and down to earth.....
she says she will let me know once she makes her mind up on what she wants but im not getting my hopes up.......
😢

sorry for rambling on and with out a point ...just wanted to get it off my chest.....

I think you're right, CAA .. she's just letting you down easy by giving you that reason, for a single kiss, after all this time of being in eager and enthusiastic communication isn't fast at all .. that's slow.

Just a kiss?

She sounds really sweet, trying to be as nice as possible to not hurt you.

Don't give up hope, though .. maybe she'll have a change of heart next weekend .. girls love weddings and it touches their hearts .. maybe it will bring heart closer to yours 🙂

well she just posted a new song on her myspace acc after having the doors for long time this is what her song lyrics say

Shiny Toy Guns Le Disko Lyrics
V1
Hello little boys, little toys
We're the dreams you're believing
Crawling up the walls
Running down your face
Razor sharp, razor clean
Feel the weapon's sensation
On your back...
With loaded guns

B-section
Now hold onto me pretty baby
If you want to fly
I'm gonna melt the fever sugar
Rolling back your eyes

Chorus
We're gonna ride the race cars
We're gonna dance on fire
We're the girls Le Disko
Supersonic overdrive

V2
So what's it gonna take?
Silver shadow believer....
Spock rocker with your dirty eyes
It's a chance gonna move
Gonna fuck up your ego
Silly boy gonna make you cry

Bridge
If what they say is true...
You're a boy - and I'm a girl
I will never fall in love with you


i know its just a song but....... it doesn make me feel any better....

tomorrow ill post some of our corespondance we had today about that...but now im going out for drinks with a cancer girl that called me ou tof the blue....something tells me that word travels fast and i havent told anyone yet...btw this two are not friends.....but have mutual friends.....ohhh man....im gonna go but i dont want anything to happen

What she wants. hmmm keep the communication open, express what you wan't from her, ask her find out how she feels about it, don't beat around the bush - yourz and her interests between the two of you might just work out all right. The key word is 'ask.'

so i just got back from the drinks with the cancer girl that called me and aksed if i want to get few drinks.....entire time i felt like she wants to hook up ( this is the one that turned me down while back after i moved to quick) i even went as far as inviting her in for tea and a drink at my place since she picked me up..and SHE DID COME IN! damn i was hoping she would decline...so wee hung out for little bit talk some more and she was getting so close that all i had to do is make a move..she is ready.....one part of me wanted to for the physical reasons but my other part ...the stronger emotional part just could not go through with it since all this time i was thinking of the gemini girl...gwad...she sure pulled a number on me.....
i walked the cancer girl out to a car and she hugged me like i havent been huged in a long time and i KNOW she was waiting for me to kiss her but i didnt......im stuck on the gemini even though we didnt seal the deal....must be my scorpio moon

but going back to my gemini crush
after she told me that she thinks its moving to fast i tried to play it off cool and made a joke ans said:
"that i guess im staying home tonight? lol and that its cool i mean its not but im not my ex and i dont have false hopes"

to which she replied:
"give me some time. U think you can do that? i have some shit going on right now and i dont have to apologize for kissing because i havent done anything wrong...it actually felt nice"

i mean come on, when i was leaving and she came to give me a hug she stood with her feet on my feet ( she is much shorter than me)and gave me a tight hug...so how could i not kiss her? lol

ME: " sure i have time and i never expected anything and im sorry that i kissed you so soon but sometimes the risk pays off and sometimes it doesnt"

HER: " cool i like that and im sorry but i really dont want to lose you completely"

ME: " dont worry you wont but hope u understand that i have to back off now...i dont want to i really dont but.....oh well its not the first time"

HER: " K 😢 everything in my life is f'n wrong timing"
ME: " u think so? I think n o matter how bad it is there is no better time than present because in reality thats the only time we as people have so i try to make as best as i can"

we left off at that for the night but i could not sleep and i was so devastated i drank about half a bottle of scotch lol....not to many things in life make me liek that maybe one drink but not half a bottle, hehehe

so the next morning i wrote her an email and in short version i said:
that i want to apologize for that evening that i put her in uncomfortable situation and i had no business giving her a kiss that i was reading into it too much and that i was seeing things that werent there and that it wont happen again...blah blah

to which she replied
that with that email i didnt make her feel any better and that she feels like crap because she doesnt know what she wants but the truth is that she does not want to get involved maybe because she recently split up with her ex

to which i said that i guess the difference between us is that i know what i want and i always go after it and my motto is " if you dont risk anything you risk everything" maybe thats why i get burn and fail so many times....

than she reminds me the wedding date and that she will let me know when she decides what she wants for sure! (im skeptical )

so what you all think? plz dont tell me im reading into this too much because im not but this is some of our correspondence right after she told me that that she think its moving to fast so its crucial....
im awaiting some input
thx


oh yeah GFOX her ex was a psycho...after she broke up with him he was sending all kinds of threatening msgs that he can fuck her up and she needs to be careful cauze he knows where she sleeps and that he dares her to start some shit because he was in army and he can fuck her up

geeezzz, when i saw the msgs i got MAD on the inside and i know if i ever meet him I WILL start shit with him just for talking like that to a girl....
i almost send him a txt to watch out because i know who he is and he dont know who i am so he can be unpleasantly surprised one of this days when i confront him cauze im not a shrimp

all not fast enough for me. I would been married by now with her. lol
If i m not mistaken geminis like fast, romantic and energetic people to begin with. Your moves are like pantomime for me.

"she also asked if i can give her some time because she has got some butter in her life right now...( but i know what that means....she is letting me down easy...im no fool)"

Okay Im just going to give you my feeling on this because I can understand and have been in that position before as the female.

Thats how I felt when I met the man of my dreams I felt like I wasnt good enough because of the garbage I was still dealing with from a previous long term relationship. I didnt feel it was fair for him to have to deal with the shit I was carrying around in me because of someone else. It wasnt because I didnt like him it was because I liked him very very much and felt he deserved better. Well with his positive understanding attitude and him thinking I am a special wonderful person it got me through and we have been still going strong and will be married by the end of the year.
So my advice....Be her friend, Be there for her, tell her all the wonderful things you see in her as a person. And I dont mean words like oh baby your hot or you know you got great boobs. Tell her what you like about the inner her and then maybe add that its all rolled into one beautiful package. If shes coming from a place where I was this will help her regain the self esteem she has lost.

thanks Sirene

all this time we've been talking i never said stupid things like oh baby or your so hot or you got great boobs....that is just blahhh im better than that....when i talk to her i always play around with words ( we both are bilingual) and it comes very easy to me...i come up with new words all the time on the drop of a hat and that always made her smile...some comments that i would say would make her bust out laughing and the txt i always send her were creative and cute....yeah some of them were from the internet but i do have bunch of my own that i came up with....
i always tired to appeal to her intellect because thats what made me so interested in her
just because a girl is hot it does not mean that i will like her if she is empty but her was the perfect balance and she doesnt knowhow hot she is in my eyes so that is another major plus......
i do hope you girls are right about her wanting to clear her head......i miss her cutest laugh 😢

all not fast enough for me. I would been married by now with her. lol
If i m not mistaken geminis like fast, romantic and energetic people to begin with. Your moves are like pantomime for me.

Above all else they need a MENTAL connection, they admire and are attracted to a bright mind. So you may be all of the Above, BUT if you are mindless you will probally end up being just a fleeting piece of booty. 🙂

WELL MIND SURE BUT BEFORE WE LIKE TO DISCOVER WHAT HE OR SHE IS. I DONT' KNOW MAYBE YOU ARE NO LONGER INTERESTING ENOUGH. SOMETIMES WE LIKE FLIRTING FOREVER...UNTIL WE GET BORED AND MAKE SOME REAL COOL AND FAST STUFF 2 SO YOU CAN GET A HEART ATTACK "LIKE ASKING YOU TO MOVE IN OR MARRY YOU". YOU WILL NEVER KNOW WHAT WE HAVE IN OUR SLEEVE. BUT I JOIN REST OF THE FOLKS AND ASK FOR YOUR PATIENCE (BE COOL) WHILE YOU ARE WAITING MAKE A WORLD TOUR OR BUY YOUR SELF "aufblassbare puppe"...🙂

I thought you were some 16 teen year old you are a 30 year old like me. What do you have in your chart I'm curious. Some of the zodiac features in your chart would be similar with what I have in mine for example Moon in Cancer and Venus/Mars conjunction in Taurus.

FD, if you talking to me my chart has

Sun Aries
Moon Scorpio
Mercury Taurus
Venus Aries
Mars Pisces
Jupiter Gemini
Saturn Leo
Uranus Scorpio
Neptune Sagittarius
Pluto Libra
Lilith Taurus

and i think my rising is in cancer

Hey bud,

How my Gem and I came to be is totally different than what's going on with you and yours but there we're a few things that made me think ?That's pretty damn familiar?

Short Story:
VirgoHero was going along in his life, QUITE happy being a bachelor with no serious attachments. The Gem was working through some stuff being on the outs with a guy she had been with for some time. VirgoHero and the Gem knew of each other just through hanging out with some mutual friends but hadn't really engaged in any direct one on one time.

One fateful day, VirgoHero and the Gem just randomly ended up having to hang out together as friends. VirgoHero wasn't even trying to work his ?smooth?. He was just being his normal confident, charming, and very friendly self. The Gem was just being Gem and going with it but found herself completely at ease and totally comfortable with VirgoHero (Gem has a shy streak so this caught her off guard). Needless to say, everything clicked into place really fast and soon, VirgoHero and Gem found themselves inseparable.

The end.

Okay not quite 😛. Anyways, the point of all this.
There came a moment where she sat my ass down and had to tell me she was still working out a lot of stuff about ?the other guy? and the brutal truth was she may still have feelings for him. She wanted time and space to sort it out but didn't want to push me away in the process. Conversely, she didn't want me to end up hurt in all this, hence the blunt and honest approach.

My response was two fold.
First, I just threw it out there that I wasn't really planning on going anywhere and that she SHOULD take whatever time and space she needed to sort all this crap out. The fact that I was super cool with the space thing and that I didn't bolt was huge. Second, as a man, I pretty much told her ?Look, do what you need to do but unless he's put a ring on your finger, I'm going to chase you and make no apologies about it.? Perhaps cocky but I think she liked that too.

I think Sirene offered some insight that her dude being positive in attitude and deed was something huge for her as well.

(Cont. next post)

Another thing worth throwing out. Its kind of funny that when my Gem needs her space to do her thing and I encourage her about it, the quicker she's back to being inseparable with me.


Bottom Line:
You know yourself and the situation best. If you think she's worth it AND you're strong/secure enough to give her the space she needs, then roll with it. If not, then be done with it.

Anyways, I've rambled.

Yes Mr. Class there are some similarities. Ever pondered about your Scorpio moon?

How do you feel about your Scorpio moon?

well bit of everything. But love makes us a little weak because we start to think with the heart too and our mind starts working diffrently. I never made a mistake when i worked with my mind only. Geminifox with another date (Gemini at the age of 16) was not impressed really. I would not be jealous too. But it will help class to boost his ego and cool down a bit. After all he is a man.

i think shje is ignoring me, everytime i txt her she keeps her answers short and to a point not like before 😢 she will only respond twince and than stop and leave a question or commnet up in a air with out answring it.....its been like that whole week, ive been trying to txt her once a day just to be intouch and so she knows i didnt backed awaya completly but i dont think she apperciate it ......so i last time i txt her it was sunday night...she didnt make any attemtps to txt or contact me and we supposed to go to a wedding this coming sunday.....whats up with her? is she ignoring me on purpouse or is affraid to make contact?
im very confused 😢

I think the others are right, do something that makes you feel good and try to get your confidence back up, have fun trying to talk with or her just thinking about her but really try not to think of all the bad things that are happening. Not as easily done as said their are some sources out their that suggest your thoughts can attract what it is your thinking about, so just try to think about the good times when you do. Don't lose hope yet

IGNORE HER!...go get yourself another girl and flirt a lot with other girls...if you are with her check out other women,act like you dont want her until SHE tried to seduce YOU...dont let her take you for granted man...theres many more interesting girls out there...always is.

tries*