Anxiety, OCD, Intrusive thoughts

Just wondering if anyone here suffers from any of these or all three all together?

I'm not diagnosed but I think I have OCD and intrusive thoughts, I thought I had tourettes at first because I swear a lot but I have recently learnt that I may have OCD...

I get at least 6 intrusive thoughts a day if its a good day. I'll be sitting there minding my own business and suddenly a thought will pop into my head that feels like scratching a blackboard (its not literally what it feels) but the thought makes me cringe and writhe because its either embarrassing, scary or gross and its always random and I can't stop it.

So every time I get an intrusive thought my initial reaction is to yell "nigga nigga nigga" or "monkeys" and it makes the thought go away..(I'm not joking) According to the youtube veidoes Ive been watching its and OCD thing because I get relief in that ritual..... its embarrassing because it happens all the time and I haven't learnt to control it. I have self taught myself repression therapy but after watching an interesting youtube video it said that it doesn't work and I find it really interesting because something inside me knew that it only temporarily works and I knew that if I face the thoughts head on it makes me feel more on top of it..

My friends and family all know I do this and they always ask me why I do it and I haven't been able to give them a good enough answer until now and it feels great because my mum thinks I'm making it up and my friends keep reprimanding me saying "you can't say nigga all the time" and I'm like "you fucking think I like saying it when I'm sitting at a bus stop surrounded by Sudanese people"!? When I'm alone I can be as loud as I want but sometimes I can say it under my breath, before I said "monkeys" or "Nigga" it used to be explosive gibberish, like I would speak tounges really quickly like Donnie Thornberry from The wild Thornberrys to stop me from thinking shit.

I know it came from taking too much drugs when I was younger lol....Its bad whenever I'm stoned but its way worse when I'm hungover the next day after a big night of drinking.

is there anyone else who has this? please share

Ok I'm a Taurus with Aquarius moon and Cancer rising, and Lilith in Scorpio Oh boy...I can get anxious, addicted, nervousness, ocdish, depression, and I am adhd.

.I talk to myself always in my brain. Constantly thinking about life, love, work, am I stable enough for myself yeah......

I chose not to do any of it.. drinking, drugs is a no no for me.. I do drink with dinner twice a week occasionally, its weak stuff though and sometimes the liquor vodka or rum with something mixed..

My mom smokes weed and drinks straight liquors, ocd, bipolar on this shit. Really a debby downer.. fucks up my shit and I'm sober always around her. This also has to do with not becoming addicted to this type of things. Family is a big issue.. in my background.. and peer pressure sometimes..

I started smoking cigarettes thats all I can handle.. I started meth when I was younger, that stuck around and I found peers doing that so I entered that world..fun times..

well still smoking cigarettes and for 13 years..quit meth but think about it.. sober for 8 years with that shit. And that shit is for the bird. Don't do it. Not cool as I thought younger age..nothing happened seriously on it.. I have all my teeth and brain cells lucky.

Just been having the smokers wheezing cough really bad lately. I'm 34 years old..can get addicted to stuff. So I separate myself from that behavior around me.. it's alot of spacing out I do. I stay home, smoke cigarettes, and relax..

I need to quit smoking cigarettes though. Lol so stay home and chill..

Haha fly over, you are a germaphobe?

Me too in away. My mom germaphobe and many patients I have taking care of.. dang man.

Why on your face?.....I'm a bit of a germphobe, i remember I tried signing up for a gym membership and they showed me the men's change rooms and I couldn't stay in there for long...

Why do you use sanitiser on your face??......I admit Id be scared to get a rash from using equipment after someone else...Id be spraying Glen 20 everywhere

Yes. I think it's either my Mercury 12th house or Moon 8th.

or Gemini moon prob

Posted by FirstDecanTaurianWomen0428
I need to quit smoking cigarettes though. Lol so stay home and chill..

Hahah yeh I've had intrusive thoughts since I was young but I had a bad run in with meth in my early 20s and has a psychotic episode and never went to the doctors about it, I just moved to the country so id never touch the shit again and got off it cold turkey, if I ever watched an ice bust on the news my palms would be sweating like crazy! But yeh I think developed my OCD habit from the meth it ruined my 20s Its been a long time since I touched that shit and I'm just starting to get back to normal I want to get all my shit cleared so I can freely enjoy my 30s anxiety free..

I notice its not really pot that sets my anxiety off but more has to do with the way I take it, I punch cones and its an instant hit which isnt really good.....If I eat hash cookies or smoke joints or even from a vaporizer its more mellow and gives me a nice body high....I love exercising and dancing when I'm high

But yeh I can handle my alcahol like a pro but not the negative thoughts the day after, seriously its like looming dread for me.