Changed my name finally..Hurt-heart is gone !!!

Finally changed my name..had to create a new email to do it...Went to sign!. on this morning and like some of you told me before the name needed to go...

It,s my 36th birthday today and I think some changes are in order..Starting with the name..I have spent all most a year being sad and going back and forth with this Libra..Chatz is right we always focus an the good instaed of the bad and there was more bad then good...Yet my mind always stray to the goodtimes, as few as they were..So I hope everybody will bear with me As I write down the bad, so I can once and for all put this away..

-told me he was going to marry me in a year and that he could see spending his life with me

-when we did have sex he told me he felt guilty because he was still married, so I said we should wait until he was divorced..But of course he kept coming back and I kept letting him..

--kicked me out of his house at 6 am on a sunday morning and told me he wasn't comfortable with me in his home when he wasn't there, even though I spent the whole weekend before in his home..Talk about a bootie call !!

-came to my work told me he wanted to be with me that he was just scared because he was having all these thought of me moving in ect..Changed his tune the next day...

-I told him I loved him and he pretty much laughed at me and questioned me about it, trying to diminsh my feelings..Even though he has whispered it a few times to me..

-wanted to see me I went down to his house and spent the night, in the middle of sex he asks me if I would have a baby with him and be his family...Quick way to kill the mood..

-didn't acknowledge it and when he finally did said he was caught up in the moment...So was I until he fucking wrecked it !! I thought this was pretty cruel considering he knew how much I cared for him..Never slept with him again..There was at this point someone else showing interest in me..

-cut contact at this point

-starting dating someone else but he called and was being so nice..

-eventually had a break up with other guy and went to have dinner with Libra..He asked me if I had slept with the other person and As I am honest I said yes..He asked me how soon I did, I told him after month and a half..He got pissy..We went out to dinner he stared at a girl the whole time, could barely have a converation with him, so I got pissy..
Went back to his house to watch a movie (I was sleeping in sons room) and he proceeds to tell me that his house is haunted,

I start to get the feeling that I am being manu=ipulated, so I said I was leaving, Then he tells me it isn't haunted and I said I am still leaving..I think he was trying to scare me so I would want to sleep with him and then we would probably have sex but it wouldn't be his fault, beacuse I wanted to sleep in his bed.. So i did leave..

Talked to him once more after and he said we should take a break, realized somewhat what he had being doing, manipulating and interfering in my new realtionship even though he says he wants me to move on..

There I feel so much more lighthearted now...Don't even care if anybody reads it, felt good to get it out!!!

And when I read back, I have to wonder is this the kind of man I want in my life?? So damaged from cheating wife...and the answer is no and the more time he stays away the more I am realizing this..I will always care for him as a friend and I miss his freindship
my heart is definately on the mend..

I'm glad you are starting over 🙂 Some people are afraid of change, you have put all that behind you, way a go girl! 🙂

lol... makes people feel a lot positive. 😉 congrats!!!

"Dont Waste Your Time On People Who Wont Waste Theirs On You"

Good On Ya :-)
Now Get Out There And "Really" Start Living

lighthearted-leo ,glad to hear that.And hope you had a good birthday.
My birthday was also yesterday.

Great move, and happy birthday!

Bs

Although at times I have felt like being cruel towards him, I have always risen above it..
This is his loss and eventually I am positive that he will see it that way as well..
When he is mature enough to handle his emotions and anaylze his own behaviour..

That's my girl! Happy B-day... Good luck, there is someone special for you who will treat you as you deserve to be treated.

Yay!

Yes dear Leo friend...be strong 🙂 Happy B/day to all my fellow Leos on the Libra board hehehe

NOW that you did the name change, how's it going?

Everything is going well..My daughter is haapy and getting ready for school..I just got a 2nd job which will help me pay down some bills...In general have a very positive attitude and I am happy..