if it makes you happy

I've been long, a long way from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos,
And drank till I was thirsty again
We went searching through thrift store jungles
Found Geronimo's rifle, Marilyn's shampoo
And Benny Goodman's corset and pen

Well, o.k. I made this up
I promised you I'd never give up


If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

You get down, real low down
You listen to Coltrane, derail your own train
Well who hasn't been there before?
I come round, around the hard way
Bring you comics in bed, scrape the mold off the bread
And serve you french toast again

Well, o.k. I still get stoned
I'm not the kind of girl you'd take home

If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad


We've been far, far away from here
Put on a poncho, played for mosquitos
And everywhere in between
Well, o.k. we get along
So what if right now everything's wrong?

If it makes you happy
It can't be that bad
If it makes you happy
Then why the hell are you so sad

Sheryl Crow
The Globe Sessions (1998)
Crash And Burn

i watched the sun come up on portland
i waved goodbye to all my friends
i packed my car and headed to la
i gave away all my loose ends

somebody said you gotta get away
to wanna go back home again
i left my universe standing there
holding the hand of my best friend

and it's laughter that i feel when i think of you
it's one more dusty rose about to turn
i'll see you when i reach new mexico
if i'm in the mood to crash and burn

i wrote a letter that i never mailed
i rehearsed a dialogue in my head
in case you ever wanted to track me down
i'll take my cell phone to bed

and it's laughter that i hear when i close my eyes
and it's one more punchline i forgot to learn
i call you up when my bottle's dry
i'm on my way to crash and burn

antigone laid across the road
and let a mack truck leave her there for dead
just because her lover split the scene
well love might be great but why lose your head

well it's laughter that comes up when i cry for you
and my heart may break again before it learns
and i might be stupid enough to want to fall again
cause i've gotten use to the crash and burn
i say i've gotten use to the crash and burn

"Can't Stop" by Red Hot Chili Peppers

Can't stop addicted to the shin dig
cop top he says I'm gonna win big
choose not a life of immitation
Distant cousin to the reservation
defunkt the pistol that you pay for
this punk the feeling that you stay for
in time I want to be your best friend
eastside love is living on the westend
Knock out but boy you better come to
don't die you know the truth is some do
go write your message on the pavement
burining so bright I wonder what the wave meant
White heat is screaming in the jungle
Complete the motion if you stumble
go ask the dust for any answers
Come back strong with 50 belly dancers

The world I love
the tears I drop
to be part of
the wave can't stop
ever wonder if it's all for you
the world I love
the trains I hop
to be part of
the wave can't stop
come on tell me when it's time to

Kick star the golden generator
seet talk but don't intimidate her
can't stop the Gods from engineering
feel no need for any interfering
your image in the dictionary
this life is more than ordinary
can I get 2 maybe even 3 of these
come from space
80 teach you of the pliedes
can't stop the spirits when they need you
this life is more than just a read thru

Sweetheart is bleeding in the snowcone
so smart she's leading me to ozone
,usic the great communicator
use two sticks to make it in the nature
I'll get you into penetration
the gender of a generation
the birth of every other nation
worth your weight the gold of meditation
This chapter's going to be a close one
smoke rings I know you're going to blow one
all on a spaceship persevering
use my hands for everything but steering
Can't stop the spirits when they need you
,op tops are happy when they feed you
J. butterfly is in the treetop
birds that blow the meaning into bebop

i love that song

The Saga Begins
by Al Yankovic

Lyrics:

A long, long time ago
In a galaxy far away
Naboo was under an attack
And I thought me and Qui-Gon Jinn
Could talk the federation into
Maybe cutting them a little slack
But their response, it didn't thrill us
They locked the doors and tried to kill us
We escaped from that gas
Then met Jar Jar and Boss Nass
We took a bongo from the scene
And we went to Theed to see the Queen
We all wound up on Tatooine
That's where we found this boy...

Oh my my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"
"Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

Did you know this junkyard slave
Isn't even old enough to shave
And he can use the Force, they say
Ahh, do you see him hitting on the queen
Though he's just nine and she's fourteen
Yah, he's probably gonna marry her someday
Well, I knew he built C-3PO
And I've heard how fast his pod can go
And we were broke, it's true
So we made a wager or two
He was a prepubescent flyin' ace
And the minute Jabba started off that race
Well, I knew who would win first place
Oh yes, it was our boy

We started singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"
"Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

Now we finally got to Coruscant
The Jedi Council we knew would want
To see how good the boy could be
So we took him there and we told the tale
How his midi-chlorians were off the scale
And he might fulfill that prophecy
Oh, the Council was impressed, of course
Could he bring balance to the Force?
They interview the kid
Oh, training they forbid
Because Yoda sensed in him much fear
And Qui-Gon said "Now listen here"
"Just stick it in your pointy ear"
"I still will teach this boy"

He was singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"
"Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

We caught a ride back to Naboo
'Cause Queen Amidala wanted to
I frankly would've liked to stay
We all fought in that epic war
And it wasn't long at all before
Little Hotshot flew his plane and saved the day
And in the end some Gunguns died
Some ships blew up and some pilots fried
A lot of folks were croakin'
The battle droids were broken
And the Jedi I admire most
Met up with Darth Maul and now he's toast
Well, I'm still here and he's a ghost
I guess I'll train this boy

And I was singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"
"Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

We were singin' ...
My my this here Anakin guy
May be Vader someday later - now he's just a small fry
And he left his home and kissed his mommy goodbye
Sayin' "Soon I'm gonna be a Jedi"

lol - I gotta download those

Tonic is perhaps the one band I would be so thrilled to see in concert, my panties that I don't even wear (lol - see underwear discussion on cancer boards) would be flying up on to that stage. lol. God, I love this band, plus they're helping me purge my rage right now 🙂

MEAN TO ME
Tonic

There's an empty place inside that is hurting me
A place that keeps my heart out on its own
A disconnected function of my wretchedness
That keeps me so hard pressed
It's a place where words are spoken you
will never hear
A broken bridge of lines that just won't come
An empty lung that won't give the wind
to speak at me
How far can it be from home

Why you gotta be so mean to me
Why you gotta drag me down just to make me see
You know I don't listen good and I'm always in need
So why you gotta be so mean to me

Do you think that it got up and left
for good this time
A crowd of faceless strangers moving on
A feeling that you left it all behind you now
That it doesn't hurt somehow
To know

Why you gotta be so mean to me
Why you gotta drag me down just to make me see
You know I don't listen good and I'm always in need
So why you gotta be so mean to me

So open up the book that you keep deep inside
Let the pages yellow in the sun
Show them that you're not afraid to let them see
How far you can be
From home

Why you gotta be so mean to me
Why you gotta drag me down just to make me see
You know I don't listen good and I'm always in need
So why you gotta be so fcking mean to me
Why you gotta be Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be Why you gotta be
Why you gotta be so mean to me

DRAG ME DOWN
Tonic

There's a reason why the words got
hard for me to bare
Because within them was the promise of
a life that just wasn't there
You're not my friend and I have no doubt
That I finally figured it out

You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down

Was it hate or was it hurt
That led you to be this way
Did you want it all for nothing
Did you think that would be OK

I did everything I could for you
Still you wanna run me through

You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down

I did everything I could for you
Still you wanna run me through

You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're trying to drag me down

You're gonna drag me down
You're trying to drag me down
You're gonna drag me down
You're trying to drag me down

Right Through You
Alanis Morrissette

Wait a minute man
You mispronounced my name
You didn't wait for all the information
Before you turned me away

Wait a minute sir
You kind of hurt my feelings
You see me as a sweet back-loaded puppet
And you've got a meal ticket taste

I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you

You took me for a joke
You took me for a child
You took a long hard look at my ass
And then played golf for a while

Your shake is like a fish
You pat me on the head
You took me out to wine dine sixty nine
But didn't hear a damn word I said

I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you

Hello Mr. Man
You didn't think that I'd come back
You didn't think I'd show up with my army
And this ammunition on my back

Now that I'm Miss Thing
Now that I'm a zillionaire
You scan the credits for your name
And wonder why it's not there

I see right through you
I know right through you
I feel right through you
I walk right through you, you

Not The Doctor
Alanis

I don't want to be the filler if the void is solely yours
I don't want to be your glass of single malt whiskey
Hidden in the bottom drawer
I don't want to be a bandage if the wound is not mine
Lend me some fresh air

I don't want to be adored for what I merely represent to you
I don't want to be your babysitter
You're a very big boy now
I don't want to be your mother
I didn't carry you in my womb for nine months
Show me the back door

Visiting hours are nine to five and if I show up at ten past six well I
Already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom you see it's
Too much to ask for and I am not the doctor ( and i'm not the )

I don't want to be the sweeper of the eggshells that you walk upon
I don't want to be your other half I believe that one and one make two
I don't want to be your food or the light from the fridge on your face at midnight
Hey what are you hungry for

I don't want to be the glue that holds your pieces together
I don't want to be your idol
See this pedestal is high and I'm afraid of heights
I don't want to be lived through a vicarious occasion
Please open the window

Visiting hours are nine to five and if I show up at ten past six well I
Already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom you see it's
Too much to ask for and I am not the doctor ( and i'm not the )

I don't want to live on someday when my motto is last week
I don't want to be responsible for your fractured heart and its wounded beat
I don't want to be a substitute for the smoke you've been inhaling
Well, what do you thank me
What do you thank me for

Visiting hours are nine to five and if I show up at ten past six well I
Already know that you'd find some way to sneak me in and oh
Mind the empty bottle with the holes along the bottom you see it's
Too much to ask for and I am not the doctor ( and i'm not the doctor)