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i hate men and their stupid ego's. i hate men who take their stupid ego's out on women. i hate it when i let it get to me...


how can anyone know anything at all when theyre just egotistical bastards in the end... how can anyone know anything if they think they know it all. i hate this world sometimes. when i meet someone, i usually think all the good of a person. but then i get dissapointed. because i only see a man with problems, a problem that cannot be justified. but then again, what problem can? i hate myself when i get mad because then i go all out. i have so much revenge in me it makes me sick. its sad when i see some people with good intentions but in the end, it was just another person who never tries. just falters.


anyway. i probably make no sense to some of you readers who dont know whats going on in my world. but like i care...

In the words of Sarah Maclachlan, one of my favorite singers (I feel sort of like "Mary Catherine Gallagher" right now, lol)..."believe me Adia, we are still innocent...we all falter, but does it matter?"

What you should do, in my opinion, is immediately when you meet someone, do not let yourself put them up on a pedestal. Do not see them as anything less or more than screwed up in their own way. Because everyone is screwed up in their own way, it's just a matter of time before their screwiness is revealed. People will always disappoint you when your expectations of them are too high to begin with. Not that you need to lower your *standards*, but you should lower your *expectations*. Realize that most people do stupid butter a lot of the time, and that it's lucky and rare to meet someone who makes you feel good most of the time.

why do i choose to associate myself with people like him? why do i feel that i want to HELP him? is it because i care? is it because i feel that he IS human after all? or is it because these days there is lack of compassion of caring at all?

the guy has his problems but dont we all?
the guy judged but dont we all?
the guy lashed out at a friend for all the wrong reasons but he had his own screwed up reasons right?
the guy commented on her intelligence and everyone elses standing back while scoffing that he knows it all. but he screws up, so its alright right?

the guy was lashing out at his friend and mine. and everyone else. while i was standing back as the third party observing it all. its not about how they make me feel good. it just pissed me off because of his actions. but yeah..as always... he had his "reasons"...sometimes i get the feeling that some people(this is not about anyone particular that i know personally) only listen to people who know words that sound right. for instance, someone has a problem and they cant get over it. 1 helper says "you have the choice to let it get to you or not." the person would say "i know. but i cant help it." now if 2 helper said "If you are distressed by anything external, the pain is not due to the thing itself but to your own estimate of it, and this you have the power to revoke at any moment" the person would say "ah yes. you are right."... funny how that is sometimes.

lol, yes it is funny. It's very important that people follow their own instincts, hopefully everyone does that around here, regardless or maybe in tandem with the advice given.

I don't think what you're friend did was right, and you aren't obligated to think that either. I always look at the motivation of a person...*why* did they say or do what they did? From there you can decide how forgiving you want to be.

i can relate. i always try and look at WHY they did it. thats why i wanted to help him by being by that persons side and hearing out their story. BUT-- in the end, i just get mixed up because to me theres always a thin line in deciding if his actions were "right" or it was just "okae" because everyone has their heat of the moment. He talks as if everyones stupid and hes not. I admire people who have strong beliefs because nobody really knows jack s**t right? so i admire people who even have beliefs. But it also ticks me off when people act like they know it and you dont. but i guess theres a vast difference between imposing their beliefs and having strong beliefs. I probably make no sense to you since you dont know the full story and because im a impulsive random idiot. sorry if it bothers you in any way.

life is so overwhelming at times.. its always ups and downs but thats how life is. and i am so unaware of things, i wish i had a definite answer to my questions but i dont. and i guess thats how its suppose to be. i try to look life in a different perspective like how if there was no bad..then there is no good..but what exactly is bad you know? damn i'm talking to myself again...later.

I know what you mean about people being 'disappointing' but Phoenix has a good point...

"Because everyone is screwed up in their own way, it's just a matter of time before their screwiness is revealed".

That is so true! Couldn't have said it better myself. And you're right (Phoenix) about not putting people on pedatools, God, i do this all the time. I meet someone and instantly see the 'good' in them and then get so disappointed when i see they are infact human.

I think, at the end of the day, people's abilities can be judged on whether or not they make the 'effort' to address their behaviour. Sure, we all make mistakes, but are we 'willing' to change? I admire someone who can make a mistake and then admit to it. No big deal.

Life is full of ups and downs but wouldn't you rather that than a flat-line of mediocre experiences? Those type of exps. rarely qualify as 'living'. Yep, here am i again, handing out the advice when i complain about the same things...lol.

Life is all about taking responsibilty for ourselves. It's just angering when some people don't do this. I know, 'people' as a species can suck sometimes...

Just a side note, i love that new song by Christina Agueleria... "Don't you bring me down". It just sums it up.

nah. its nice that you share your opinions libragirl. Its not bad to hand out advices that sometimes you cant follow because as you stated, we ARE human after all. And life is definitely exciting, except at times life can also be overwhelming with emotion and i'm pretty sure this throws people off at times. But that doesnt mean they cant get back up and handle it with confidence right?

"Life is all about taking responsibilty for ourselves. It's just angering when some people don't do this. I know, 'people' as a species can suck sometimes..."

this.

"Sure, we all make mistakes, but are we 'willing' to change?"

and that. sums up everything i felt the other day.