And the saga comes to an end....

Hi guys, just wanting to get this off my chest, hoping I'll feel better afterwards. You all remember my story about my drug addict bf. Remeber he had moved out. I did a lot of research on addiction and it really has helped and explained a lot. My plan (since he obviously didnt want to get any help) was to just stick it out and see what happens. So after a few weeks apart, we ran into eachother and made a dinner date.

We went and had a blast, he took me over to his place after and ever since then we've been hanging out. It's been great, we love eachothers company, we good off, laugh, watch movies, talk you name it....Tuesday nights hes been making me dinner, he talles me how much he loves me and how happy he is that I'm his gf, that hes so glad I never gave up and I stuck around. Figured that being apart isnt working for us.

I saw a house advertised, super cheap and with room for horses, out here in the boonies. i mentioned it to him and he was all about going to check it out. He said he would love to live out there with me and the horses blabla. We found another place, closer to town, cheaper and that place just felt right. We clicked with the owner right away. On the way home he couldnt stop talking about it, making plans etc. He was so excited. Then that night, I got up to get some water. When I got back to bed, he asked where I had been. He is convinced I snuck out and met someone else!!!! Ever since, things have gone down the drain. Now he is convinced he cant trust me anymore, doesnt want to live with me, but he loves me so much and needs me so much and its killing him. I spent the night at his place yesterday, he was excited when I told him I would be moving to that place we looked at. Made plans on helping me to get a new car, said hed visit me all the time and help me fix things up etc.And then later he told me he feels like I'm just playing him, hes just a piece in my puzzle, that I dont really care for him at all, and that hurts. Said he wants to be with me for good, loves me, but he cant afford it......

So today on the phone he was short and I asked him if he didnt want to talk to me anymore, he said no, that I was a pain in the ass and he tries to be nice but I just dont get it. hes done with this shit etc. So thats that. He still has my house key, I dont know why he didnt leave it here when he dropped off my dog.

Anyways, yeah I feel better bitching about it....thanks all

And yes, I know he is still on meth. Meanwhile hes also lost his job and his family has been sending him money. I just don't think hes happy with himself at this point. Just kills me how fast he changed because of some stupid nightmare. It makes me mad because I have never done anything to hurt him, never went behind his back. He thinks I'm always changing, I'm manipulating and playing with him.....its not fair. I have done nothing wrong, damn it!!!

how could you possibly try to make any sense out of someone on meth? you should run in the opposite direction and not look back.

ditto^


wow...you really dont need that in your life...its an unhealthy addiction for the both of you. I know you want the best for him, but he seems like the type to drag you down before he can get back up (if he can even stay up for that matter).

Please, think of yourself first.

Wow, texbean .. that really sucks.

You put a lot into trying to make this work, you've been more than patient and caring .. you really don't have any other option except to walk away.

It's obvious from all your previous posts that you love him a lot and I'm sure it's tearing your heart having to make this final break .. but, it doesn't look like he gives any other choice .. in the end, you have to do what you have to do to keep your dignity.

So sorry he did you like this ((hugs))

Thanks for all your responses :-)

Dreamer, wow, 15 years is a long time. And I know what you mean, I feel that I tried and tried but no matter what, it didn't make a difference. I know hes broke since he hasn't worked in a while. My guess is, hes coming off drugs and has no $ $ to buy more. I can see that he is stressed about that and down at the same time.

Its hard giving up on someone you love. I know he tried to keep it together for a while, but I think in the end, drugs have a better hold on him than me. Hopefully one day he'll figure it out and get some help.