Brushing Up On Connections.

Hey Ya'll,
Dreamy-Eyez here. I'm back from Libra land. I just had to take a trip there to try and get an understanding of my past Libra situation. He vanished and only left me a "You Are Never Alone Card". While dealing with his absence, I'm just connecting with friends, but even that brings me fear and nervousness due to the progress that I'm making. Recently, I met a Sagittarian female whose a lesbian. Her look is very adrogenous, yet when she first saw me we instantly became friends. My Scorpio co-worker and I gelled when I worked with her a few months back on the 3rd shift. My Aquarius co-worker and I gotten closer when the Gemini assistant manager tried to sabotage our friendship. That only drew us closer, and even though honest communication stings a bit, it makes you want to make up for it immediately with love. (You feel me?)My co-workers at Papa Johns? Well, I have a Libra co-worker who I'm good friends with. He's my little buddy whose 30 but looks like he's 18. (It's insane.) He showed me his date of birth on his drivers license. I was like, "It's fake! You're not 30!" I've noticed that he's warming up to me alot, yet I fear that my sexual identity will ruin the friendship. The same goes for another co-worker whose warming up to me. He's a Sagittarius. Somehow, we tune into eachothers style of humor and we get when the other is just playing around. He stares at me at work, and then when I finally noticed that I'm being stared at by him, he'll say "WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT!" That would get me all worked up, and then I'll be like, "ME?! YOU LOOKING AT ME SUCKA!!!" Then he'll start laughing because he got me all worked up. Then he'll ask how am I feeling today. (It's awesome.) Something that's good and refreshing from negativity seems to be threatened by my orientation. That's what worries me alot. My friendships with females aren't threatened, buy my friendships with males are. I want it to be just that, a friendship, not a romance or anything sexual. After work, I would just feel horrible after observing their interactions with me. I mean, when I pull up coming into work, My Sagittarian co-worker friend who plays that "What Are You Looking At" game with me? He runs to the door looking out into the parking lot just to see if I'm there yet. (I was like, "Wow") My Libra co-worker is subtle, but he now holds conversations with me more. I appreciate it all, because it keeps me distracted from the disappearance of my Libra admirer.

Hey Ya'll,
The 2500 word limit got me. Anyway, I've also been connecting with an exotic looking Leo lesbian girl. We've been hanging out and getting to know eachother. She's been trying to findout the spots where people of the same orientation as ourselves would be. She's more of an extrovert while I'm more "laid back" but intense feeling. I really don't know how we'll ever meet anyone because alot of gays are very discreet. You would be very surprised. I know I was. THe other day, I called this hotline to listen to these public ads that guys record for other guys to hear. Man, I swear these guys were manly sounding. They were going on talking about muscles and nipples. I was like, "WHAT THE H*LL!!!" My eyebrows raised higher than a space shuttle launch. They talked alot about being discreet, but what made me even more surprised was that it was mostly married guys and professional men who were on bussiness trips in the area. I'm looking for companionship, while all they wanted was a "Wham Bam Thank You Sam". That was not for me, so I left it alone. Who knows. . . love will probably come to me in a way I never expected. Take Care you all and Thank you for allowing me to share my stories. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

Archer,
This is Dreamy-Eyez. You said that I'm "an Enigma"? Wow, Thanks. That is the best compliment that I've ever recieved in my life. I've gotten many compliments on my physical appearance, and going on about my looks bores me. The compliment of being "an Enigma"? To me, that's at the top of my ranks because no one has ever told me that before. You have my humble thanks, Archer. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

PS: May I ask what it is that makes me an Enigma?

Wow I did the same. Archer is correct...you are an enigma.

Well,honestly from looking at them from friends mentioning them while they were looking for people online,etc.I think most of those types of hotlines,bars,sites,etc. are generally used for just "sexual" hook ups anyways,gay,bi or straight.Wouldn't advise them for someone whos actually looking for something more for more serious dating and relationships,even some of the dating sites can tip more towards that stuff.My gay and bi sexual friends and aunt found good relationships by running the risk mostly so sure nerve racking n stuff but its honestly better relationships than they found at places made to hook up with people,kinda falls under the whole finding it when not looking situations for them.You'll probably find yourself talking to a friend and it'll go from there is what normally happened for them.But otherwise even in bigger cities thats more open about being gay or bi sexual,most people are still only going to be interested in sex over relationships,almost a rule anymore in society for whatever sexual orientation the person is.Relationships aren't seriously sought after by most and if they are,its because the person notices they're getting old and ugly while getting more and more lonely usually.

Hey Ya'll,
I guess "an Enigma" suits me very well then. I like it, though. When people meet me for the first time, they often think they have me all summed up, but I wouldn't even try to throw them off, they just do. My Scorpio friend told me that if I were to be lucky and really find love, that the guy who does get me would be very lucky. She said that I'm a subtle blend of masculine and feminine qualities. She said that I'm manly, but not macho. I'm feminine, but not in a prissy girly sort've way. The blend is so subtle that both sexes find it very intriguing. It's insane due to the reactions I get. Hey Tiamat, I hope I don't get old and ugly before I find real love. Alright ya'll, Take Care. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

Hey DE! you're living in a beautiful city! you mentioned being artistic. if you can do carictures, maybe set up an easel somewhere.. like to run? find a nice park and jog. do you have a dog?, even better, you'll meet people who will say, "ohh, what a beautiful doggie!". and immidiatly both of you will make new friends. isn't there a university there? maybe enroll in an art class, and meet new folks that way. from what you wrote PJ's sounds too claustrophobic to me! get out and involved in activities you love because that is the best way to find like minded people. Can you see yourself sailing? how cool would that be to meet up with someone!! (BTY, i get the libra thing!)

Hey Archer,
I believe that the feminine qualities overrule the masculine. I'm really passive, reserved, and more of an introvert. Females and males react to me alike. In earlier years within childhood, you could tell that I was very confused when on the playground you got girls and guys chasing after you. It's like you're wedged in the middle between both sexes. When I got into middle and highschool, that's when things gotten more confusing for me. Girls gave me a try in dating me, but it never got so far. Guys? I had the most popular guy in scool secretly in-love with me. He started off as my bully because I was the shy artistic type, while he was into sports (the jock). I took his bullying until I finally said "Enough!" and stood up to him. After that, he started being my friend, but I was resistant to friendship with him because it seemed weird of how he flipped the script on me. When I finally came around to accepting him as a friend he all of a sudden just gotten so intense with me. He would drop hints about love and try to hold me hand. That scared me because on the outside, he didn't look like what people would consider gay. After that happened, I kinda withdrew from everyone because I had alot to figure out about myself. I couldn't figure it out right a way, so I suppressed it until after I got out of the military. During that time of suppression, I've been hitted on by guys who were surprisingly straight-looking. What scared me was how they did it. One guy was a fellow medic who worked with me. He invited me to his barracks room to check out a video game on his X-box. He offered me a beer, but he took the initiative to open it for me. What I missed was that he drugged me very cleverly. I never saw it coming, but I resisted the drug's effect that was suppose to knock me out to where I was out of it. All of my emotions of pain and hurt surfaced to reduce in into tears right there in his room. He tried to comfort me but I wouldn't let him near me. His intentions weren't clear to me so I left his room and never hung with him again. Right now, I'm at a point to where I accept me as being gay. I'm just trying to become emotionally and mentally prepared for the negative reactions that'll eventually come with the good. Thanks for letting me share. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

Also, mind you that the guy that drugged me was indeed a Libra with a hidden agenda.

what's your sign?

lol,oh yeah,surry...that didn't help much right now huh lol?Been talking about societies views of relationship vs. casual sex alot lately here so was refering to the people in your post,the ones who just want sex yanno.You on the other hand will probably end up finding what you actually want while ending up truely happy since your serious about it now and firgurely it out🙂

Hey Archer,
You're calling me "Enigma" from now on, huh? (Laughs) That's really cool. But, yeah I consider myself as a homo. I'm at a point to where I'm letting my close friends be aware of this. Once I've done that, it was like with some people I've became so much closer to. I don't do the dress and make-up thing. I actually hate the drag queen thing. My Scorpio friend told me that I'm like a straight gay guy.( That's what she says.) Alot of the customers at the BP would always ask her about me, but she wouldn't tell them because she knows that I don't like for anyone to harrass me about it. Oh, and Wheels homie to answer your question, I'm a Pisces. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

thanks.

it's wheelhomies 😉.

Hey Ya'll,
It's Dreamy-Eyez (a.k.a "Enigma"). I just came out to one of my male friends yesterday. He's a Cancer and from reflecting back on my days in the military, he has always been there for me and when I told him, he said that he knew. He said that he definitely wants to speak to me today, so I'm just going to let him call me when he's good and ready. You want to know something that I've realized, alot of my friendships developed when I wasn't all that conscious of them, buy when I am conscious of the potential relationships and focus on them mentally and emotionally. . . it never works out. (Like with Mr. Libra.) Maybe I should just develop a light approach on things and not let my emotions get the best of me ever again. Who knows who I'll catch this way. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

Hey Archer,
Am I okay with the name "Enigma"? Oh yeah, most definitely. It fits me very well. I'm just going to not try so hard at making friends because as of yesterday, it backfired. My Libra co-worker at Papa Johns thought I was trying to come on to him and he left a cold message on my cell phone. I never thought of him as nothing other than a platonic friend, but he really disappointed me when he thought I was trying to date him. (H*ll no!)I began being nice to him because he's always respectful to me, then when I start being nice, I'm hitting on him? Oh please. You know, I give up. I'm just going to let freinds come to me because that's how I ended up with the good ones to begin with. I was never conscious of them, until later on. Yesterday, I met this Virgo guy who I'm starting to see more of as of late. He introduced himself to me and shook my hand, then had a warm genuine smile and said, "Nice to Meet you." His name is "Chris". He strikes me as the typical straight-arrow college guy with goals, a love for sports, and a steady girl. He was really freindly and smiled alot. After what happened to me yesterday with my Papa Johns co-worker, I'm just going to let this play out all by it's self and not consciously screw it all up. It takes a while for me to realize my real friends. They're around you but you never really open your eyes to them. They're the ones who supply you with the support you need, yet you pay them no attetion due to the ones you want who supplies you with un-necessary wants. Dreamy-Eyez, out.

shes your friend and she wears a strap on...a friend in deed!! i tried it with her - it rocks!!

soz know - she doesnt and that was a one off - she actually is givin you nice advice - soz archer - aj

Hey Archer,
It's funny how you thought it was easier for gays, because I thought it was easier for straight folks. As for my Libra co-worker, you know I always thought of him as "a robot". Not too many people interact with him all that much. It's usually "Hi" then "Bye", that's all. I thought we were friends because he always was the first person to greet me and call after me to say bye when I'm leaving. Yet, the moment when I start being friendly in return, I'm hitting on him? (Whatever.)I was in shock when I heard that message on my phone, but now I know better. Actually, I should've known from seeing how the other workers don't really interact with him a whole lot. If I went by that observation, I would've been spared the disappointment. Also Archer, you know I think being a friend to eachother was already in the works before ever consciously mentioning it. Dreamy-Eyez, out.