Pisces risings...is life hard for you?

I'm a Pisces Rising.. but I'm also a Pisces Sun. So no conflict there - what you see is what you get.. well, in as much as you CAN see with a Pisces.. the chameleon of the Zodiac, the Everywoman/man... bits and pieces of everything that came before, all continuously incorporated into the new and ever-changing present that is Pisces.

However, I'm not one of the so-called "lost, addicted, helpless downstream" Fishes.. maybe it's my Taurus Moon/Mars that grounds me. However, I KNOW that I have an addictive personality.. I recognized it by the time I was 13, 14.. didn't know the name for it at the time.. just knew that I could far too easily immerse myself in things and lose myself completely. So I am constantly vigilant, exerting my iron will and considerable self control to not allow myself to lose myself like that. I rarely touch alcohol, and don't do drugs of any kind, just never really have. That doesn't make me any better or worse than anyone else, and I am a firm believer in live and let live and letting others make their own choices. I just personally am horrified at the thought of losing control -- over myself. But it still happens in small ways.. addicted to fun, new sites (like DXP haha).. or a new game.. or a new author.. or a new topic.. I have to guard against burning myself out on things, because when something sharply catches my interest, I wallow in it. Until I realize I'm wallowing and bordering developing an addiction.. then I nip it in the bud real quick.

Now, finally learning how to not wallow or get addicted in bad relationships.. different story altogether. haha