Pondering

I'm feeling quite sentimental lately and have been doing a lot of thinking, reminiscing I guess, about people from my past.

I'm not referring to romantic relationships but people I've known and become attached to in some way and yet drifted apart from.

Looking back I realise it's me who often drifts (swims?) away and yet I find myself now wondering why.

Hmm.

Sometimes I feel like a complete weirdo.

And I can't sleep.

Grrr

Posted by MissPirate
I'm feeling quite sentimental lately and have been doing a lot of thinking, reminiscing I guess, about people from my past.

I'm not referring to romantic relationships but people I've known and become attached to in some way and yet drifted apart from.

Looking back I realise it's me who often drifts (swims?) away and yet I find myself now wondering why.

Hmm.

you are not alone....I've swam away so many times I lost count including family. I hate being attached to people maybe coz I've been hurt so many times;(

I have been having the same thinking lately.I rarely speak with my siblings or friends. Whenever anybody calls to check on me to know why they dont hear from me,i even dont know what to answer them.its one disturbing feeling

I definitely hold people at arms length.

The thing is I don't make friends (proper ones at least) very easily. It takes me a while before I'm comfortable enough with someone to feel like I can truly be myself.

There have been people in my past however with whom I have felt immediately comfortable and yet I've still held back.

I am really starting to think I'm a cold fish and that worries me.

i have good friends but dont really let people in to be best friends. self protection i guess. it makes me sad when i lose a good friend simply because we got to a point where our journeys lead us to different directions.