Run-away Dreamy.

Hey Ya'll,
I was browsing thru the Aquarius board, but none of their topics struck my fancy. I do, however had a run in with an Aquarius a few years ago. This was when I was in the Army in the summer of 2005. I was very close to the end of my contract, but at the same time there was the threat of a "Stop Loss" meaning that there was a chance that my contract would get extended and I'll have to go to Iraq for the 2nd time. I was under so much stress that I basically had anxiety attacks and migraines. (Ouch.) Anyway, strangely alot of soldiers were aware of the short amount of time that I had left. I say that it was strange because I never told anyone. I just started recieving way more attention than before. I felt like I was in the twilight zone. So, I moved out of the barracks and stayed with a friend off-base. Then things really started to get weird. At 1 a.m., I received a text message from my former room-mate whose an Aquarius. It thought it was kind weird because it said, "You there?" Something about it was just so sneaky. So I texted back, "You better have a good reason why you're texting me a 1 in the morning." My Aquarian room-mate has never texted me before, so for him to just now start as I'm about to get out of the Army, was strange. This is when the truth comes out. He started texting me about wanting me to participate in a three-some with him and his girlfriend, Kayla. I told him, "No, because I'm not into things like that." Here's where things get a bit more shocking on my end. He then said, "Then what about me?" I said, "What about you?" Then he said, " Let me put it like this, What would you say if I told you I wanted to come over and play?" I then said, " You better be talkin' about Playstation!" My Aquarian room-mate then got frustrated, then said, "Never mind!" But then I stopped him and said, " Okay, you know what! Its 1 in the mutherfucking morning! You woke me up so now you are going to tell me what the hell is going on by just spitting it out!" Then he responded with, "I just wanted to make sure you were just like me." After that, I just stopped texting because I shared a living space with this guy for a year and a half and I didn't have a clue that he was gay. I mean, he even had a girlfriend, but he's confessing that he wanted to fuck me before I got out of the Army. I then knew he was for real when I stepped out the next day to go to Walmart and then my friend called me to tell me that my Aquarian room-mate was . .

at the apartment waiting for me because he really wanted to talk to me. I told my friend to tell him to leave. I thought he was playing a cruel joke. My friend saw that I was upset and tried to kick him out but my Aquarian room-mate was a bit resistant. So I avoided the apartment for hours until he did leave. When my friend called me and told me that my Aquarian room-mate left, I came back packed my things and I got on the interstate to South Carolina. This all happened in the summer of 2005.

Mind you, that I never trusted nor liked my Aquarian room-mate, Brad. His friends were obnoxious as they made visits. They even made sexual comments to me during there visits. Maybe you guys think I'm foolish to runaway, but it was kinda scary for me to see that people would change right before your eyes. I never thought my room-mate Brad felt that way of me. He was young, reckless and had a few STD's. There's no way I was going to put myself at risk with that.

Well we do have the "Aquarian Dark Side" thread on the board right now, you couldve checked there...

I think your intuition is your best asset and if you felt this person had ill motives toward you, then what you did was best.

I agree; you listened to that piscean intuition and it paid off. You didn't overthink it, which was good, you just knew.. *You did the right thing avoiding him and running away. Who knows, maybe he wanted to apologize or maybe talk you into things further, but there's no way you could've been sure without an element of risk or further anxiety.. You were not foolish at all. You have to take care of yourself..

How many more men are there who have gotten the impression or signal that you might want them sexually? First this Aqua guy .. now Jesse.

Intuition is a wonderful thing .. it can certainly save you from embarrassing moments, or times when you feel it's in your best interest to back off, rather than face the issue.

What has to happen in a person's life for them to come to the awareness that it is by their own actions that draws upon themselves the relative attention?

Hey, pp .. how are you? I just have a little spare time, so, I thought I would pop in for a few minutes.

I've been thinking about you and your family .. have you heard from your cousin yet?

P-angel,
In my shoes, it's indeed crazy. The Aqua-guy, Brad was my room-mate back in my military career. I had no idea that he wanted me in that way or at all. To me, he was just someone whom I lived with. His mannerisms never really identified itself as male nor female. It was more asexual. He was always nice to me and helping me out, the way a room-mate should but I never thought he looked at me in such a manner. Now that I think of it, he did own more than 10 pairs of shoes and had a whole lot of clothes. (Way more than me.) The thing that made me mis-trustful of him was the time I caught him standing over me while i was asleep. I felt uncomfortable and I slightly woke up and he was standing over me. I delivered a swift kick to his neck. I managed to kick him in his neck because he was leaning over nearly onto me. I was still kind of asleep, but I was aware of what i was doing. My room-mate? He never really fessed up as to what he was doing, but that made me very mis-trustful of him. He just went around telling people of how I'm combative in my sleep and made a joke of it, when really I felt that there was more to it than what he was really letting on. Just when I decided to let it go, later on in 2005 I found out the truth. He was always sexually attracted to me. The way he came out to me was shocking, but he wanted me to give him an answer right on the spot. He wasn't giving me any time to process what was happening. He just wanted to get on with it all due to my short time left in the Army. Brad is nothing compared to Jesse. Jesse is my friend and I love him as my best friend. It's just that lately there's like a subtle vibe like as if it could be more, you know?

Even though there seems like a subtle vibe that there could be more, i'm not going to try to pry it out because it always comes out by itself. It always does.

DE .. it's probably your eyes. Pisces just have a way of looking into another's soul and half the time, we don't even realize we're doing it. From the other person's perception, it likely appears as though we are looking at them all googly-dreamy-eyed. Which you know, hence: your screen name. Most people don't know how to process that. I get lots of people who think I'm looking at them seductively, when in reality, I'm just conversing with their soul via my orbs. Don't worry about the running away .. we have to sometimes .. self preservation.

pp, I can't believe your Aunt did that. How could someone be so cold to their own flesh and blood? It's one thing to hold onto your principals .. but, this isn't just any random episode. this is a matter of trying to mend bridges before she passes. I don't even want to think about what happens to a soul when it has to leave with this kind of torment. I feel so bad for her .. it doesn't matter what she did to her mother in the past .. what matters is that she is able to find peace now and what kind of mother would deny her daughter of peace in the afterlife?

I don't get it .. is your Aunt a religious woman? Well, if she doesn't attempt to ease her daughter in her time of self-realization with her mortality, then there will certainly be hell to pay. Sorry, that was kind of harsh .. but, I just can't fathom how a mother could do that to her child .. her own child. 😢

We'll just have to send love and peace vibes to her .. I know I have been doing that during my meditation sessions since you told me about her. I'll keep remembering her for you, pp 🙂

P-Angel,
It's funny you say that. People think I'm making gestures at them when i'm not even trying. One time, at the BP I was working with Chrisie at the 2 registers up front. The radio was playing a song and the DJ was switching the language from English to Spanish. I had to listen really hard over my shoulder bc the radio was behind us. so, I'm tilting my head over my shoulder to hear the music more better, but then the guy at Chrisie's register started to blush and smile because he thought I was perhaps smiling at him, but I was smiling because I thought it was clever at how the DJ switched languages within the song. It sounded so subtle. Chrisie caught on to the guy and thought I was flirting with the guy until I then said, "Chrisie, listen to the song. The DJ switched it from English to Spanish and it sounded so good, but subtle. You really have to listen inorder to catch it." Then Chrisie laughed. I looked at her and wondered what was so funny. She explained to me what had happened, then I told her," Flirting? Heck no, I was listening to the music."