i swear...

...using the many names in religion(christianity to be a lil' more specific) all the time. 😢 i have a bit of a sailors mouth sometimes, not all the time. but at anyrate, when i'm conscientious of it, i feel really bad when i do this. here's why...

im no longer religious. i was at one point in my life, but no longer believe for my own reasons and so now i find it incredibly frustrating that i cant seem to break this habit of using religious names to curse. why would i do that if i no longer believe. sure they are just words, but their meanings go far back into history, and even farther spiritually. using these names to swear almost admits to the names themselves having some sort of damning power and i think of myself as such a hypocrit when i swear.

this might seem over the top, but ahhhh! anyone else non-religious who does this and feels this way about it?

i need to create a list of other less harmful curse words 😛 can't stop cursing! i've already tried many times, so i wont bother trying that again. any suggestions on religiously (and politically for that matter) correct and yet satisfying curse words? lol things like 'fudge' aint gonna cut it.

yes... but now that im aware of that habit... i'd love to quit and its difficult!

one step at a time. i'll start with cursing with religious names. it means something to too many people, and because of that, it does matter to me. i haven't quite figured out religion yet. i may never... perhaps none of us. eventually i'll get the swearing to a minimum. though, i will say... it seems like certain people that i'm around, i become much more lax with my language. swearing all together does matter to me. though it may be better than many other habits out there. i know i'm better than it. hrmmmmm

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