Getting to know one's self better

I am on a mission the past couple of months to really explore my self. Has anyone been on this journey? I have noticed i have always based myself worth and decisions in life on a man!! it has always been about the man im with rather than what i want. My current partner encourages me to be me and do things for me. I am independent career wise and always have been and do very well at my office i am a dominant personality i take action and get the job done. In my personal life i find im passive im easy going and "just whatever you want dear" over the past year or two i have grown as a person and I am very proud of who i have become. Currently I am struggling with past experiences getting into my head causing some low self-esteem and need for reassurance in my current relationship.... I let my imagination run away with me and this can cause me to fixate on a point that comes out of nowhere! i believe this is my Neptune in 1st house. Does anyone as a Sag experience this same type of behavior and has anyone overcome this?

Its because your dating a Leo to be quite honest. With my ex Leo, its ALL about him. it has to be. Same with other Fixed Sign men. To some extent Cardinals.

But with the lovely mutables of the zodiac, NO ISSUES. So i just spend more time with mutables and less with cardinals and fixed signs.

it could be the leo thing... but i have always been like this... that is why i am putting that all aside and concentrating on ME! I would like to be at a point with myself where I know im ok.. where i know that if this relationship falls apart ya sure there will be hurt but as an individual im strong and ok alone.. I have jumped from relationship to relationship... the strong me at work i want that person in everyday life.... i have worked on the outer me this past year i have lost 40lbs joined a gym feeling great looking great.. now i want to work on the inner me.... i want to tackle the feelings of insecurity i want to control when my mind runs away with stupid non-issue things... I know i have it in me i just don't know how to tackle this one.

Posted by shorty1978
it could be the leo thing... but i have always been like this... that is why i am putting that all aside and concentrating on ME! I would like to be at a point with myself where I know im ok.. where i know that if this relationship falls apart ya sure there will be hurt but as an individual im strong and ok alone.. I have jumped from relationship to relationship... the strong me at work i want that person in everyday life.... i have worked on the outer me this past year i have lost 40lbs joined a gym feeling great looking great.. now i want to work on the inner me.... i want to tackle the feelings of insecurity i want to control when my mind runs away with stupid non-issue things... I know i have it in me i just don't know how to tackle this one.

this only happens in your personal life right? not in your professional one right? Like what are you feeling insecure about?

I think as a mutable sign, were always making adjustment for other people. We should be more like Aries and have a me first mentality at times.

I have been cheated on a lot in the past.. so i have trust issues... i often feel insecure about that.. like ill be cheated on again or that im not good enough for my partner or that he still wants his ex... i run wild in my mind with it.... if i sit down and think about it there is no indication from him that he would do any of these things however it gets in my head... maybe if i were better looking yadda yadda stupid stuff like that.... I also fear losing him to the point where i push him away... i dont want to be this insecure person anymore its night and day with my confidence levels at home and work.... i dont think its my leo i believe im haunted by my past.

This is something outside of him.. something i want to change for me... im thinking going forward if th is relationship fails i want to be good on my own as well as with someone else... i want to be strong and confident in all aspects of my life not to make this relationship work but to make life work to be proud of me!

being single for a long time is a great way forsure... i am currently happy in my relationship we live together kids are involved so its not a option for my self discovery. I just want to feel confident in me and also acknowledge that my partner commpliments my life but isnt my entire life!! I finally do see that my insecurities today are because of my past so i guess that is the first step to recovering from those things.