Birthday

so now that my birthday is past I feel like I can say without jinxing myself that it was a fairly fantastic one! Normally some off the wall, weird shit happens so I appreciate this year.

There was only one odd downside, which really doesn't affect me that much anyways. I had so much fun that this is minor but still on my mind. It seems as though the one person who I wanted to notice me and give me attention on my birthday didn't. Even my ex said happy birthday smh. However this person did say happy birthday the day before and asked if we could do homework together. My birthday was a Monday, and obviously I'm not going out on a Monday so I just said no I wanna go out because its Sunday. Well ever since then he's been pretty like "meh". Maybe he took it as rejection. He's kind of a quiet person emotionally, but loud physically. I like that though. The shy emotions make my Virgo moon in the 11th house happy. I have a sound mind, and I'm not too emotional myself. However my Venus conjunct my Jupiter just wants love. It's weird though because at the same time I feel pretty flighty. It's almost like a big confound in itself, but he really intrigues me. I don't even know what I would do if he actually asked me out. It kinds of scares me to think about it, but at the same time all I really want is him. Sometimes he ardently shows me the same thing, but other times he is just as aloof as me. I don't even know who is more standoffish...me or him. We go to the same university, and his class is before mine and I'm not even joking I dread heading to that class in case he's leaving as I come in. I even avoid the entire hallway until I know he's already left.

On another note, three guys told me their interest in me. All at work too. It's hilarious because my solar return chart said that love interests would appear this year and they were more than likely going to be work-related or someone who I work with. Hilarious lol. They all work in my department too. I'm not interested in them, but they're really nice. I think they're just going through a phase. We don't have many females working at the job, so I guess me being one of the two females in our department makes me stand out. I rarely even do my makeup for Christs sake. I look like a hot mess most of the time, so I have no idea what's happening. I do wear makeup sometimes, but it makes me nervous because it clogs your pores and also makes you more prone to acne. Then you have to work to cover up the new acne that forms and look like that meme of the popsicle or whatever it is that covers all those bumps. You know which one I mean.

Anyways, this sums up my birthday. November is going fab for me. I'm a fan. This Scorpio season is on point. I've had so much fun already. Life is going in the right direction, and I'm loving it. Gonna get my MBA next year. Gonna get my undergrad diploma this summer. I'm ready!! Then I wanna go to NYC, California, Colorado, or Chicago. Depends. I've been in the Chicagoland area forever though, so I kind of want to find somewhere new to reside. My friends wanna move to Florida in 2017, so that may be a future option...but I don't know how keen I am about moving to Florida. Life is such an adventure. Lovin it.

That was the 12:34 am personal Novembercast diary entry with degenerate ingenue. I'll be here all week.

Posted by flowingwater
*cut off

breathe. I use olive oil & olive oil soap for my face/body. Great stuff!

I should start using that! This is totally off-topic...and kind of weird...lol but I have been dying to figure out what good oils I could use because I get occasional bumps on my legs from ingrown hairs. Drives me completely mad. I use extremely hydrating lotion made with aloe but it still doesn't work. Sigh. Maybe one day. I am always down to try something new.

And this guy has a Venus in Aries!

There was an Aries who asked me on a date that I mentioned on here to someone who posted about Scorpios getting along with Aries but nothing ever happened with that. Everyone at work told me to give him a chance so I did but nada. He had a pretty strong approach too that I thought was brave. But what happened was he wanted to go out that Sunday (the night before my birthday), but my friends wanted to go out too... so ultimately I wanted to be with my friends. I invited him to join but he went 2 hours early...so he just left and hasn't asked me out again since. I feel really bad and guilty, but at the same time...the guy with the Aries Venus is the one who I feel like a magnet to. But he's slow to move and nothing is anywhere close to being set in stone. Sometimes I think it's partially my fault because I give off the wrong impression. Regardless we will always be friends, but I can't help but admire him on the inside. I think even years from now I will look back and still admire him.

Posted by Reincarnation

Posted by degenerate_ingenue
Anyways, this sums up my birthday. November is going fab for me. I'm a fan. This Scorpio season is on point. I've had so much fun already. Life is going in the right direction, and I'm loving it. Gonna get my MBA next year. Gonna get my undergrad diploma this summer. I'm ready!! Then I wanna go to NYC, California, Colorado, or Chicago. Depends. I've been in the Chicagoland area forever though, so I kind of want to find somewhere new to reside. My friends wanna move to Florida in 2017, so that may be a future option...but I don't know how keen I am about moving to Florida. Life is such an adventure. Lovin it.

That was the 12:34 am personal Novembercast diary entry with degenerate ingenue. I'll be here all week.

MBA is a useless degree.

Get some work experience.

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How so? Honestly I was talked into it last week. She made it seem really helpful, but granted she was in the MBA admin so of course she's gonna make it sound good.

Right now I am currently a Psych and Comm double major. But I've had a lot of business work experience, so I thought adding something business-relevant to my schooling would be helpful. I originally wanted to add a third major and do Business Analytics, but they talked me into an MBA instead. What are your thoughts? My parents didn't go through college. Well my mom did, but they are unsure of the new workforce and new job titles so I am just wandering aimlessly with only my research and advisers to help. And let's face it...advisers are never helpful.

Posted by flowingwater
shouldn't get out of your comfort zone when you're not ready. There's nothing worse then liking someone so much and they feel that you don't. It happens to me a lot, I just don't go crazy showing it too quickly but secretly inside I'm screaming joy lol

😄

Yes! That sounds awesome. Definitely going to add that to my list 😄 thanks for the help! Anything to save the skin and keep it healthy!

And yes...actually I would pretty much describe him that way in general lol. That is what worries me. I sometimes feel like I won't be able to hold his interest in that way, but he will randomly show deep interest....impulsively and aggressively but then he will pull back just as fast as he approached. I think my part comes in with the standoffishness when I respond in a level-headed manner or rationally. He is more spontaneous and impulsive, and though I love being spontaneous I try to keep things rational. Then he also intimidates me with how forward he can be sometimes, but I really like his playfulness and personality which attracts me the most. But I will become closed off and distant and not speak to him as often when I feel like I am venturing too close...and avoid him. lmao I'm a mess but he does take it hard when he notices my change in behavior. He will even lash out at me sometimes...kind of like a defensiveness to rejection. I remember one time he started an argument with me, and I could feel the tension of him in some way being rejected or "slighted" by me. It was an argument over food...but he blew it up into something it didn't need to be because he had taken my avoidance as some form of dislike/attack. It doesn't help that he had issues with his mother growing up and still does. I think that largely has to do with some of the issues he has in that regards. I probably don't help the issue that much, but I don't do it maliciously.

It is almost like a hot/cold game. I pull back when I feel unsafe, and he pulls back sometimes too to where we are typically at odds even though the interest is there. For those who know us...it's probably an interesting process to witness.

Posted by Reincarnation
Don't be a fool. Do some research online on the thousands of disgruntled MBA graduates.

Unless you can get into a top b-school such as INSEAD or an American Ivy b-school, you are really wasting your time and money.

And MBA administrators get bonuses for recruiting students to their shitty MBA programs.

An MBA program is just a glorified networking event. Make no mistake about it.

You'll take a bit of psychology and economics. Maybe some accounting. But you won't learn that much. You won't become a "master."

Sigh. Well medical school or law school were always on my main list. Maybe I'll just add a business minor or something. Business Analytics would take me another 2 years. Not a fan. The masters program was accelerated, so that grabbed my interest lol. I go to a private university known for their law school, but honestly I don't feel like I wanna fork out more money to them for another 3 years so I'd probably go elsewhere. That university may be pretty accredited but it's highway robbery. I'm a senior and don't know what I want to do period. I want to do everything. I like journalism, psychology, law, business, music. The reason I'm not interested in psychology as much anymore is because I work in retail. Listening to people bitch and whine about their life in that line of work made me realize I don't want to listen to people's sob stories all day. Journalism is cut-throat and doesn't pay well UNLESS you're cut-throat...which I'm not at all...lol. And law is so serious, and I feel like lawyers can be grumpy and miserable sometimes. Music is where my heart is, but that can be cut-throat too. I like office work which is what I do now..but I get bored out of my mind and stir-crazy in my room or cubicle. Plus a set schedule bores me.

Basically the summary of this is: I'm about to graduate and I am screwed, because I don't know what I want to do with my life. The only thing I do know is Best Buy better give me a raise so I can start making those dreadful loan payments. *cries*

Posted by tiziani
Always thought you were Swiss, for some reason.

Thanks for the birthday wishes Tiz 😄

I am late to reply. I almost forgot you had responded on my thread and I didn't get to respond since I was on my phone. It's frustrating typing on there lol.

Interesting assumption. My mom is part Swedish but not native. 🙂