PLEASE HELP!!

Iam a Pisces woman..in over her head with a Scorpio man. This all started almost 3 yrs ago-yes 3 yrs ago. He showed interest-I was with someone else. My relationship was disolving before hand. The worst part was his Gemini xwife worked with us..I had known her before him. I was captivated from the moment I met him-and the same in reverse. He made the decision because of the failed marriage( she was a Gemini and they had been together for 10 yrs) and the fact that he didnt want to run the risk of anything happening again-that we not date. The flirting and endless conversation never stopped. I knew that my realationship was over and he was now leaving me.Not because of this-it was a mutual parting-no drama. My Scorpio had suddenly then began to date-a Sagittarius-across the other side of the building. It seemed safer I think in his mind. In the mean time-nothing changed between us and I always tried to show I cared for him. I wanted him to see that true love could prevail. Then, last year, I was laid off. Ironic that the 1 thing that was our demise-was now gone. He seemed happy with her-yet longing for me. We kept in touch, but then the communication stopped. I let it go. Very sad, but knowing that he would be faithful to her. Now it is over a year later. I went back to the place I worked. For the 1st few months..we would look at each other across rooms. Never approaching each other. He was still with her. I respected that and kept my distance. I did want to talk to him. The schock of seeing me again and I him almost seemed out of body. I thought after 9 mths the feelings would just have faded, bu they seemed stronger than ever. He would consistenly make his way into the area I worked in. Despite the fact that it was nowhere near where he worked. Over and over I would see him. Just trying to "let it happen". Finally I tried to reach out to him, just to talk. He looked confused, blushing, I could feel his confusion all over him. Then suddenly he was never with his gf at work...they had broken up. I then thought-well there is no reason to not at least talk now. We had worked together..and its only right to try to find out how he's been. After not being successful with that approach. I thought maybe to just email him outside-to keep it out of work. Well I was lambasted with accusations that suddenly I had not been a topic for months and now I was. I never betrayed him and people will always talk. I have cut myself off from everyone and anyone...upon his request

in an effort to not only leave myself free from accusation but to show him that I have done nothing wrong. Im heartbroken because I felt we had more to create between one another. Most of all I know how infamous Scorpios are about testing people and trust. The people that I no longer associate with, by the way and little did I know-have a passion to gossip. So there in lies the issues...how do I go about earning back his trust? At the very least to know what the hell is he thinking?

Sorry..it is hard for me to follow too!! He accused me or said that people began to "talk" about me when I came back. People had seen things-heard things-from before. He had been noticed staring at me and not approaching me since I had came back. They immediatly went back to "the past"..all I had ever said was, no I havent spoken to him and yes it seems odd. He went on to say, after I pleaded with him to say whatever it is that is the problem, what exactly is it that he has heard or was said. He then said this was all crap and wasnt going to waste his time coming to me about it. He equates whatever it is to me. So if this is truly crap-why hold it against me? Doesnt that just add to the problems? Some think that since he has recently broken apart from this other person-since I have been back-and lost a promotion-that he is just taking everything out on me. But I am crushed..I have tried so hard to be honest and open.

Yes..thank you. His x, who had deducted much of this, had said that he isnt ready to be with someone for him-only if he can save them. It seems that this most recent x gf has left him and he's not taking it too well. I just feel embarassed the way he emailed me. Like I was the sole one to blame. I simply was tryoing to be the "bigger"person and understand what was wrong-since all anyone really should have focused on was we were 2 folks who had worked closely together for sometime. Instead I feel like the damaged goods that betrayed him somehow.

Thank u..2xs! I guess in my heart I held out hope that at the very least I would have his support inside work the way I used to. That with the feelings that we had expressed, he had a heart. So part of me has really had to find the things to be hurt about enough to be able to tell myself that apparently it wasnt worth thinking about at all. Just makes me doubt my judgement too I guess..how could I have held on that long,believing something that he has tarnished..thanks.

Seriously don't worry about it. If you had it in you I'd tell him to shove it and deal. He's being a baby. In the work place people LOVE to talk. Honestly Scorps hate gossiper especially if the focus on them so he's paranoid, pissed, and wanting to take it out on someone. If it wasn't you tell him it wasn't and don't worry about it from there. The rest is his problem.

If you try to "fix" it it's going to look like you are guilty of creating the problem in the first place.... or that's how I would see it. Or I'd see it as you trying to get back in my "good graces". Either way it's a power trip to him that you are scrambling. Don't give him the validation or the satisfaction.

Yes..thank you everyone! This had started so long ago-the mutual thing that is. When I stopped working there it was a yr ago this Oct..we had spoke a few times but then it stopped. Mostly I believe because it was his chance to finally be with this other person without feeling-his words-confused about me. So nine months went by until I came back-then three months of his constant walking around wherever I worked, staring at me. Looking at me in the lunchroom-while with his gf..never a word was spoke-but its nuts-i could "feel" everything he was thinking. So because I wanted to be "right" with him, I did try to just want to talk to him..let it be normal since everyone did know we had worked with each other..i truly wanted nothing more than to feel comfortable at least. He had been a support to me and I had come back in a lesser position..so support was something I really needed. I was willing to put anything else aside. I wasnt expecting what I got back-and he never said he didnt want to talk to me or not "be freinds" eventhough I did ask in the emails for a yes or no. I dont believe in daming someone based on rumor or innuendo-especially if I know that this person cared for me. I ask myself-why the hell would I have ever done anything to damage any relationship ith anyone, everyone makes mistakes-I even explained that I was aware of people who had betrayed me to certain extents-and I have cleansed my life of them..I just dont know what he expects...but I really thank you all so much.

Also-just to summarize..days after the emails-after I isolated myself in the house and cried endlessly, he was right behind me in the stairwell and proceeded to say-hey-as if I had not been so cruelly hurt by his words and demands. I have just laid low..not being visible to be seen talking to or having any chance to run into him. But just yesterday-he was in the hallway and as I wentto speak to someone else-I could feel him staring at me again...life is too short to hurt people is all I think I can get from this-I never said anything to anyone to hurt him-I adored him-so I just still-dont get it.

Just to add to the list of things-again-today-im walking down the stairwell and he's coming up-we froze on the steps-looked right at each other-btw-i had saw him b4 because of how the stairs r positioned and couldnt run back up to avoid the confrontation w/out looking like an ass-he was checking me out b4 he saw it was me-then said-hey-and i did so back but couldnt barely get it out of my mouth..and then he parked right next to me-btw i come in waay b4 he does-this is not accidental-but im so afraid he is in a vengeful position right now-i wish things could go back to a "comfort" level again.

Thank u..U know I really am mad as hell..and tremendously hurt...and I can see that with him breaking off with this Sagitarrius-who it seems like is as flippant as I thought she would be to him 2 yrs ago..that me coming back and showing real emotion for him has short circuited him. But, I guess I was used to having fall outs and make ups fairly fast. Either one or both of us breaking down and meeting in the middle to solve it.I know in my heart I didnt deserve this-I know my heart and my intentions. So in a way-being aloof is not in me. At the same time-I feel like-well if this is how you want it-see if you like it then. It was your creation buddy... for every strong moment, pathetic but true-I have more times that I just break down and cry..Im a sad fish!