Sorrowful Lioness with a Sulking Scorpio

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Calyx
@Calyx
11 Years

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Now, the heading is just for a laugh or two but I'm really coming here for advice...or some insight rather.

Been broken up with my Scorp for 1 month now (we were trying to do the entire long-distance relationship thing) we were together a year and a half before the split. Up until my move, he occasionally expressed doubts about us 'working out' and implying that I was 'leaving him'. His general disposition over the ordeal was..pessimistic to say the least. Not to say he wasn't happy for me, he really was.
..It's just over time I felt forgotten. Out of sight out of mind.
Now, granted I was starting over in a new city (No job or schooling) and it gave me a lot of free time..and I'd come to him for familiarity and a shoulder to lean on. I know that I'm a handful, and I asked him to be patient with me because quite honestly I needed his attentiveness and compassion.
But the fighting just got worse, and not being there for someone physically is harsh. Coupling that with his moments of..frigidness I started to feel so alone.

Eventually I decided on a 'break' to give myself some breathing room. I didn't like being a burden to him in any fashion. After a week or so of us carrying on like that, he requested that we separate completely and we didn't speak for two weeks. Now he's back but sporadically..and I'm trying my best to be cordial and hide my anguish, sadness, and disappointment but it's hard.

I know this is verbose, but I guess I wanted to vent more than anything. I don't think I ought to rely on a specific day of the year to see if I'm compatible..but I feel drained and sad.