Ugh! Here cmes that WEIRDO again....RUN!

I feel so disconnected to people. Sometimes I feel like Im from somewhere else... far away--Well thats what my spiritual guide read for me once anyways.

I feel as though people think im so weird. I walk up to new women sometimes if im feeling brave and they look at me crazy I know they dont like me that very second and im not wrong. But its like Hmz... I havent even told u my name yet and ur looking at me up and down ...thats so EWWW to me. Were supposed to stick together. I go out my way to be nice... to have someone else say "Hey ... wow shes really sweet. She'd be an awesome friend".... but no one wants that...from me i guess. I just want amazing life memories with a group of friends others would die for and thats it. Just a secure thought that yea... THIS PERSON HAS MY BACK. iM OK. And I dont have that I mean damn! How many times can I pep myself up. How many times can I take myself to the movies. How many times can I say oh well she forgot we made plans for 1 Ill just go by myself. I feel im lacking a certain bond...and I crave it every single day. I never tell anyone cause they dont care ...my current friends barely call me or give a shit. I could HAVE DIED today and none of them would know. I aint get a call today....good luck with scraping me off the freeway pal. And its so sad cause I care so much for others. I wish I wasnt me sometimes. These thoughts just dont stop and they dont go away and when I dont ignore them they just make me sad cause Im blunt and reality is blah :\

From reading my chart can anyone help me with suggestions of what type of people (hopefully SENSITIVE as much as me) have some of the same understandings about life as I do. I dont know what my chart means at all....




Zodiac in degrees 0.00 Placidus Orb:0
Sun Scorpio 16.09 Ascendant Virgo 8.34
Moon Taurus 12.06 II Libra 4.06
Mercury Sagittarius 2.45 III Scorpio 3.48
Venus Sagittarius 23.14 IV Sagittarius 6.22
Mars Capricorn 24.31 V Capricorn 9.16
Jupiter Capricorn 10.07 VI Aquarius 10.20
Saturn Scorpio 18.44 VII Pisces 8.34
Uranus Sagittarius 12.10 VIII Aries 4.06
Neptune Sagittarius 29.36 IX Taurus 3.48
Pluto Scorpio 2.38 Midheaven Gemini 6.22
Lilith Aries 7.03 XI Cancer 9.16
Asc node Taurus

Im in beautiful southern ca in the valley! How about u girl =)

Thanks Beccy I did cut them out som years ago the really bad ones with the negative energy I pick up others energy...but Now Im running pretty low on the ones left. theyre ok.. i mean nothing crazy like stealing money but I feel a tad bit used only for certain things and only at certain times. I thought we were friends...like real ones.

I notcied too its always the ones who are the first to scream out loud "OMG youre my best friend" While Im sitting there like i just peed cause im like "....Huh, I dont even trust u yet ..." those motherfuckers are the ones bullshittin like a motha fucka... i swear.

I was talking to a cancer friend ... well shes a friend of a friend ...and that friend keeps ignoring us both sometimes ... so one day we hung out and she was telling me that we are similar because people in the world take people like me and her for granted. And I thought about it and then I asked her how so. She asked me if people leave my life and come back apologizing and begging for my friendship again. I smiled and nodded yes and she started laughing and said SEE! I understood that but Im about tired of giving people all these chances...I want new that turns into STABLE Loyalty. Its so easy for me. Is it really hard for other human beings to give a hoot. plus its getting a little too fun deading people off. My mouth is my weapon and ooohwee I go in on people. Provoke this lil scorpio and get urself questioning ur existence on this planet in the bathroom mirror for 3 hours.

Wow, Sun Opposite Moon is a difficult placement.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/sunoppositionmoon.html<BR>
http://www.strangehouse.com/natal-aspects/sun-opposition-moon.html

I hear you QueenCali. People all too often take kindness or friendliness for weakness. When that happen and people want to take advantage, I let out the b!tch in me, and people say I'm mean O_o. I don't like clicks, and I will be there for anyone if they needed me. I find myself going out of my way to be nice to people for nothing, because everyone is out for themselves. I used to want to make close girlfriends, but as time passed, and as I met more and more females, the more annoyed I would get. I have low tolerance for people, especially women. I want nothing more than to have those close non-catty girl friends, but unfortunately we are a catty bunch. I'm not the type to like gossip or drama, and that is what I find with girls. So I'm always torn. I want a close relationship with other females, and when I have it I end up not being able to be around them much because they annoy me.

Posted by exoskeleton
"Provoke this lil scorpio and get urself questioning ur existence on this planet in the bathroom mirror for 3 hours."

hahah. 🙂 love this.

i think how you feel about yourself shows people how they can treat you. if you're feeling unworthy, someone will take advantage of it. if you love yourself you'll attract those who will fully accept and love you for you. they won't let you down.

Good advice thank you =)

Posted by Nefer
Wow, Sun Opposite Moon is a difficult placement.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/sunoppositionmoon.html<BR>
http://www.strangehouse.com/natal-aspects/sun-opposition-moon.html

Tell me about it. Moon in Taurus here too.

Posted by aNEWday
I hear you QueenCali. People all too often take kindness or friendliness for weakness. When that happen and people want to take advantage, I let out the b!tch in me, and people say I'm mean O_o. I don't like clicks, and I will be there for anyone if they needed me. I find myself going out of my way to be nice to people for nothing, because everyone is out for themselves. I used to want to make close girlfriends, but as time passed, and as I met more and more females, the more annoyed I would get. I have low tolerance for people, especially women. I want nothing more than to have those close non-catty girl friends, but unfortunately we are a catty bunch. I'm not the type to like gossip or drama, and that is what I find with girls. So I'm always torn. I want a close relationship with other females, and when I have it I end up not being able to be around them much because they annoy me.

Its so funny you say that ...I have met 3 and said goodbye to those same 3 new girls In less than 6 months in total. And now that Im learning its easier for me to see my red flags and then act upon them subtly. So... Its cool. Im starting to realize the same as you... that maybe its better to just let it be. Im an only child and I dont have any close realtives my age. So its a little boring at times sometimes its like omg did i just say something to myselff— wow. LOl. And people are busy... i understand im busy too but it just baffles me. I know with all these people on the planet theres gotta be ppl who ...u know. are ok.

lol, I know. Those people are hiding under rocks, or hiding their real selves under a tough exterior, IMO. I have learned that no company is better than bad company

Posted by Nefer
Wow, Sun Opposite Moon is a difficult placement.

http://www.cafeastrology.com/natal/sunoppositionmoon.html<BR>
http://www.strangehouse.com/natal-aspects/sun-opposition-moon.html

Wow I read both pages. That about sums it up. Im always questioning things .."but what if this happens instead..." Always the empty glass... I try not to think that way I swear I do. But sometimes the goggles wear off

Posted by ellybd

I'm learning to be able to give still, but not invest so much affection so deeply. I think I'll always be that super sensitive softie to a degree though. If I wasn't at least on the inside I think this world and the way it works would turn me bitter, cynical and dark. And I'd rather be a bit sensitive that any of that.

Aww im sorry about those people. Thats really messed up. I hate when people group up. Thats so weak. WEAK SAUCE! Yea I learned I cant do those things for people anymore either. It sucks cause its so ... normal and Its not thought about. Its like going to the store and remembering something a friend said and getting them something so much as a certain type of lighter or their favorite cookies--cause that bitch loves to eat. Just little things for no reason. Did I miss the 'nice repelant' spray down—? HAHA 😛

This thread gets a thumbs up.

I'm sorry you have friends like that.

I notice sometimes scorps aren't the best at picking friends.


I love my friends to death and I tell them, I love them everyday. I would walk thru fire for each of them and they will have my loyalty till the end. I'm always only a text or a phone call away for anything.


My family and boyfriends. I'm not gonna lie. I sing a different tune with them.