Please don't judge. I'm going to tell you a very bad story because i had no one to talk to about out. Here are the details. Been having an affair with Taurus boss, at first i didn't even want to but he kept pressuring me until i became weak and gave in. I wanted to kill myself because i never thought I'd get there. That office affair ended up being put out by a coworker who spread it out although with no valid evidence. Fast forward i kept telling him i wanted out and never wanted this so i did, got married and he raged on me......meaning he started treating soo badly because i did. Many nights i cried myself to sleep. Got heart broken by husband and ended up falling for his lies again thinking men are all the same and in my vulnerable state we once again had sex . Then i came back and i realized he was treating another co worker the same way and later found out he was still having contact with an ex who lives off country. The rage that i feel, the hate that i have for him....I just wish i could shoot myself, i'm dying inside. I tried to leave this job but he won't write me a reference to leave and he continues to treat me unfairly. I REGRET the day i met him. Please help me!
