It was 6 years back when he started expressing his feelings, earlier flirtatious way and as time passed they became little refined but mostly through messages and bit sexually provoking pictures, well yes no phone calls or long talks or need to get emotionally intimate. he did seek to meet have food and chat only about us and so.. I love him, he is one gem of person the way I see him. He had cold feet for marriage just few days but I didnot support him for I wasnt sure myself of him. anyways I had decided that day we will remain in touch but never walk on our feelings. He wa sso sure I dont know how all these years. anyways after marriage too he was sending his feelings through phone and sexual pictures and treated me very respectfully. I had a death defying experience in loss of love 7 years back and have been alone since then. All these years I didnto find a guy I am looking for and suddenly last few months this thought stuck to me about him for his love might be one, for regularly his love was refining and growing stronger n correct. three months back he told he a story which actually turned me upside down and made me realise he has pious love towards me, here is the twist he made me believe in one aspect of that story but later few days after when mention came up of that story he denied that aspect and made me believe I was wrong in myself to believe that aspect and ts the other way around. His convincing didnot stop. I had accepted his love may be the one I didnot mentioned earlier 6 years back when second time we met I felt this divine vibe connection coming from him entering my body making me convinced he is one special but I didnot move ahead because couple of days later he was getting married...........so back to story,I decided to go ahead and live my life and not be shackled by fact he is married perhaps we might be made for each other for his feelings never ended or lessened and my fondness for him is growing, so we kissed. It was bful. But after that he didnot show up, I kept texting and calling him he primised he wold come he didnot, he prefeered his work over me all the time, been two months he hardly called up or came to meet although he has been saying to meet up and I was like we cant meet at our homes and outside hotels fr I am not comfortable we talked few times over phone , i called up he hanged and didnot even leave text he will return my calls, but he kept sending messages and sexually pictures and romantic songs and yea that part i dont doubt. but the fact he doesnot feel need to talk call and disconnnects my calls and doesnot meet he just wants to meet for when he is sure we will get into bed and get cozy else not...so despite I called it fake love, conforonted number of times he mentioned as its slap on his face to hear that he is only inetrested for sex...yetserday I had firs time real talk asking him furture he says we will meet often go on to which I deniedcame out now he says feeling is dead. what is it
