HEEELLLLP!!!! I GETTING CONFUSED TO THIS VIRGO GUY

hi guys, i will really try to make this short and in details.. i am seeing this man for almost a year now..at the beginning we really dont talk about relationship or something serious about us,just plain seeing each other..talking generaly about life and all sort of topics that comes to mind,we are having sex,we are both un attached and not seeing anybody,but one thing is clear..that both of us is not into a relationship.,at first i really dont mind and i really dont care what he thinks of me,he will call me when ever he want to see me and if i want i will see him and if i dont i will tell him i cant.but i bever call him. that was in the beggining,then suddenly we became like friends he was asking me what's going on in my life and my opinion on certain topics,we always have good conversation..but still i stay casual,maybe because from the start i know that there will be nothing more for us..we are just like that,for me we became good friends with benefits..but as a person i really appriciate him..he's a good man..and a good arrogant and sarcastic man too..i love that way about him..and i did'nt even know that he is a virgo lol!!
5 months ago he want us to have a relationship,,i said okay..the following week he does'nt want any relationship.,i said okay..but from that day on i know he has a special feeling for me..i always get confused i just laugh about it and take it as a joke..one day he will tell me he wants more of me and the other day he just want something from me..in all this i said okay..what ever he wants..i dont care ..im just here.. that im with him because i also like being with him..recently he was tellng me "i love you" and i replied "i dont believe you".. 1 day i confronted him like i am teasing him that he said he loves me.. he told me."i always love you really",but not love to marry you.. i said that that kind of love is good for nothing love that its better he dont love me at all and we stay like waht we are before..he said if that is what i want its okay..but in his actions i know that he cant go on a week without me..when he asked me if i love him i said..i said i have a feelings for him.but i dont know,,all i know that what we have is not going anywhere but i still stay and im just here..he said that his love for me is his problem and its letting him to suffer but his love for me is his feelings and i dont need to make it my problem lol!! sometimes i am thinking does this man really loves me..

BTW i am a cancer.. 🙂