I've been putting qute a bit of thought into why I originally came here to this site, and I've found out upon recollection it was to learn about the nature that was as symbolically apart of me as it was with all the worlds Virgoans. This theme of 'purity' seemed most intriguing to me, becuase purity means fullness, and completion in a sense: it means something is ENTIRELY filled with to the brim of it's being with a certain quality....taking it more practically/litterally one would tend to interpret this quality as physcial cleanliness, but I think it goes deeper than that, so allow me a chance to elaborate:
This purity came from a belief (for me) that I was somehow lacking where I THOUGHT others gained; I always sacrificed for others believing it was "honorable" thing to do; to "restrain" myself, and never show an ounce of "uncleanly" or rather, "unruly" behavior, yet I'm pretty damned willful, just less inclined to need to "show" this for the sake of attention, or confirmation of others; I am what I am, and bringing it to the "other" person, or parties attention doesn't make it any more incontrovertible, because if it did, than I suppose that it wouldn't be incontrovertible! lol.
As a Virgo, I turn inward for my strength and answers, and not to others; this search for purity, for COMPLETION, and triumph over inner limitations/restrictions, forced an deep withdrwal into myself, and I found that I was searching for a way to overcome what I thought was imposed on me, family expectations and titles, having to be the 'Perfect Saint' in my family, and (in a sense) re-write the wrongdoings of my family members and somehow seek 'redemption' and 'clear' myself in my own mi: the "light/purity" I was looking for was a means to COMPLETELY destroy/kill off the expectations/shadow I had somehow found myself involved in by being born into these family ties.
My question is, if Virgo is defined most prevalently as seeking "Purity" or "Honorability" what are we frightened of becoming "tainted" or "soiled" by? If we seek this "Light" what is in it, and why does it often obscure our vision of ourselves? Every sign has a struggle, and a "Lesson" to empart with it's passing, and I'm wondering, what our "Purpose" is? our "Lesson" is to empart what? Thoughts? and Opinions?
Thanks for reading and emparting your knowledge!! Much appreciated!!
A man was looking for happiness, so he told his father that he is going to leave to find himself happiness in the city. His father loved him too much and forbade him, but the man was determined and convinced his father to allow him the freedom he needed to find happiness. The man met an endless amounts of people as he journeyed through the city. He started poor, but he became wealthy. He met a woman who promised to teach him the ability to love, so he learned from her, but he could not find happiness with her nor the riches of the city. He grew older, and he lost his purpose to find happiness, so he left the city and became a ferryman. He spent years listening to men, women, children, buddhist, teachers, doctors, killers, prostitutes, and the river itself. He began to notice that they were all blinded by their goals, and he was jealous because he was not happy like everyone else.
One day, he began rowing his ferryboat, and a woman and child got on board, the woman was older, but she retained beauty that was withering away. She was the woman that taught him love, and the child was his son. She knew he was near, and wanted to see him one last time before her death. She was dying, and she wanted their son to know his father and learn from his father. She died, and the man did not cry because she had given him his son. He took care of him, but his son did not love him because he wanted to return to the city. His son escaped from his father, and the man became heart broken. He had fallen madly in-love with his son, and he didn\'t want his child to leave him alone. He spent hours, days, weeks, months, and years waiting for him to return, but his son never came back to him. He cried because he knew his son will never return to him, but he realized that his father had cried for him on the same river as how he is crying for his son, and how his son is going to cry for his child. He became one with himself, and he was finally happy...
He realized that his search for happiness was only within himself. He is the happiness, the sadness, the madness, the greatness, the father, the son, the brother, the lover, the cheater, the thug! He loved all and hated all... He was finally at om.
As far as purpose, I believe we are natural born helpers. Give of yourself, all of yourself, true to yourself, yet selflessly. I struggle with expectation of reward or reciprocation, that giving is earning, may it be a reward on this earth or in the heavens. Haven't quite been able to block that out and perform any act of service completely selflessly.
As far as life lessons go I feel we Virgos struggle learning to let go of logical thinking and make room for those "unnecessary" emotions. We make strict parental figures, always teaching that there is no room in this household for emotional outbursts and Lord help you if you pull this crap out in public child. We are harder on ourselves in this dept than we even demand on others. I feel I was granted a "free pass" to get through the struggle of the addition of emotional thinking to our mindsets. When my best friend's little sister, whom I had seen grow up for almost 14 years right along my little sister, was fataly shot while 8 months pregnant I asked one thing of her at her funeral; I asked her to help me cry again. And cry I did. Not only did I cry for her, she granted me a sense of peace in my previous unrest; a calm flow of emotion where was once a bottled-up inner-stirring. Now I even get choked up at some of the randomest things especially when dealing with the loss of a child (I am a father to a beautiful well-mannered 4?_ year old boy) and I thank her every day.
This purity came from a belief (for me) that I was somehow lacking where I THOUGHT others gained; I always sacrificed for others believing it was "honorable" thing to do; to "restrain" myself, and never show an ounce of "uncleanly" or rather, "unruly" behavior, yet I'm pretty damned willful, just less inclined to need to "show" this for the sake of attention, or confirmation of others; I am what I am, and bringing it to the "other" person, or parties attention doesn't make it any more incontrovertible, because if it did, than I suppose that it wouldn't be incontrovertible! lol.
As a Virgo, I turn inward for my strength and answers, and not to others; this search for purity, for COMPLETION, and triumph over inner limitations/restrictions, forced an deep withdrwal into myself, and I found that I was searching for a way to overcome what I thought was imposed on me, family expectations and titles, having to be the 'Perfect Saint' in my family, and (in a sense) re-write the wrongdoings of my family members and somehow seek 'redemption' and 'clear' myself in my own mi: the "light/purity" I was looking for was a means to COMPLETELY destroy/kill off the expectations/shadow I had somehow found myself involved in by being born into these family ties.
My question is, if Virgo is defined most prevalently as seeking "Purity" or "Honorability" what are we frightened of becoming "tainted" or "soiled" by? If we seek this "Light" what is in it, and why does it often obscure our vision of ourselves? Every sign has a struggle, and a "Lesson" to empart with it's passing, and I'm wondering, what our "Purpose" is? our "Lesson" is to empart what? Thoughts? and Opinions?
Thanks for reading and emparting your knowledge!! Much appreciated!!