Love struck with this aquadude _3

So this has been going on for awhile at first things have been shakey he had a gf ( after I confessed I liked him he told me) I lost his trust and regained it back.Now we are on good terms and friends.But I fell completely head over heels with him again.Now that we talk more then we did in the past.Way more,we talk about his passions.He's interested in what I do with my life.Hes always giving me up to date stuff on what's going on with his hobbies.As a sagi I love my independence and he respects that but sometimes he asks why I'm ignoring him or if I don't talk to him all day he will try to start a conversation.I just feel like I dont want to bug him.He makes me feel like a puppy sometimes and expects me to "follow him".Sometimes he will mess with me and say stop following me then laugh as he walks in the other direction and says come on.He has a weird sense of humor but we both are mean to each other in a joking way.He's very intimate when no ones around,he flirts majorly and loves it when I tease him.We have been doing this on and off chasing each other.Its kinda fun,he's very private from what I have learned and has definitely secluded me from the rest.He teases me way more than others and treats me like he hates me in a jokingly way ? Hard to explain but behind close doors very sweet,constantly in my space.Low toned voice,lets me hug him a lot.Get near him and spends a lot of time with me.Sometimes it gets kinda sexual. flirtatious but nothing to strong.Outside were just friends ,buddies.I dont know where its going but sometimes I feel like I'm a big fool and a puppy.Sometimes I feel its going somewhere ,what do you think?

I have two of the same topic because of my phone 😢

I mostly just go off and do my own thing or don't really talk to him right away ..If he even mentions to me about following him,I get mad and leave him alone for the rest of the day.I don't like being clingly at all I hate it especially when I get accused of it..Personally I think he says it to joke around because if he does want space ,he knows all he has to do is ask me and I will give it to him in a heartbeat..

I like puppies, I adore them.

Jokes aside, speaking from experience with saggies... god quite an awful lot of that with me...

I love their vibe, they make me feel completely at ease and I just want to tell them everything and anything. The catch I find is even if saggies love talking about all the deep and meaningful there's just this part of them that I can't put a handle on. They'll never EVER talk about their innermost feelings with anyone, not even the people they love the most.

It's almost like they can't... they'll (just like puppies) follow what others say or tell them like they can't make their mind up. Feels like they are not in control of who they are and at times volatile that you don't even know 'what' you are falling in love with. Even when it comes to their feelings, you know the stuff... that stuff, the mushy stuff. Feels like you just don't know where you stand with them at times because they can't verbalise how they feel. Like they are always looking to be lead.

Plus they get super grumpy when you call them out on this.

LOL you are so right,because the mintue he calls me out on stuff I get super pissed and he just smiles.I'm like "ARE YOU ENTERTAINED ?"

He even asks me why do you do everything I say sometimes?

I honestly dont know myself , I just think its in my nature just to do stuff to show affection, but I cant really tell him how I feel again,because I'm afraid of rejection so I just say I'm a good friend .

Its just sometimes I feel maybe I'm not as close as I want to be with him.As a Sagi we are know for being a flight risk when things don't work out.Many times I think ,maybe if I ignore him he will go away like the others.He never gets the idea or maybe he does and chooses not to.Because he finds some way to get my attention.

I tell you he's hard to forget ,he can easily tell when I'm angry or something is wrong.Others can't,its like he's proud to know that he knows a different side of me even if its apart.He brags to others about that..

But I'm just getting tired of the samething over and over.This very slow process and if I even mention about being more it sets him off .I dont want him to be uncomfortable and I dont want to lose whatever this is.I just want to know what is this?

And is it my fault or his thats making it confusing ..

-.- Stupid phone!!!!

Thanks for repling btw! (: