Cancer wants to be friends?

I'm still in love with her. I tried to work it out after then. She would talk to me and seemed like things were getting back on track then she would ignore me for days and sometimes a week. She would just blame it on me even though everything was going fine. I found out she was seeing someone. This happened twice. She would tell me that she loved me still and that we should fly to see each other then two days later she said she decided to be with the person that she just denied that she was seeing. I blew up in anger but quickly realized that was a mistake and that I was going to fight for her. I??ve been fighting for her ever since. I send her emails every month declaring my love and admitting to all of my faults. She said I didn't before. She responded to my Happy Thanksgiving text. I told her I was sorry for everything and she apologized. I asked her a week later if we could be friends ever even though she told me she never wanted to talk to me ever again, after the last fight. She said she wanted to be friends only if I was comfortable with the fact that she was now in a relationship with that same person. I told her it would be really hard for me but being friends was better than nothing. She said she still cares about me and I still mean the world to her but she is going to do things right this time and that she has to show her new love the text messages and make sure that her new love is ok with us being friends. She said it hurts her heart that I hurt but she does want me in her life. She said she never saw the emails. I just want to know if there was any possibility of us ever getting back together or if she is really done with me. I love her more than I have ever loved anyone. She is the love of my life. I understand her so much better now and I understand myself. I get that I was being standoffish and that she just needed more reassurance. I'm such a better person now and I feel like her relationship now is just a rebound from when we broke up. I would do anything to be back with her and show her that I??ve changed and that we can work it out. She said she feels she is more compatible with this new person but they have only been together for 4 months. Sorry so long but I needed you guys to know most of the story.

The story.I'm a Gemini who fell in love with a Cancer. We met online and found out that we actually lived across the country from each other, about 3000 miles apart. Initially, I was going to stop contact with her because of this but she kept the conversation going. I was drawn to her quickly and she expressed she was drawn to me also. We talked about everything. We fell for each other before we even met. We talked about family and having a life together and our interest. I was crazy about her and told her. We both expressed all the time how much we meant to each other. I told her that I didn't want to put an official title on us because of the distance but that I was definitely going to move closer after I finished school, in 6 months. I told her that I already told everyone that she was my girlfriend and that I definitely wasn't talking to anyone else except her. We skyped each other every day and talked on the phone every day. Right before it was time for me to fly to see her, 3 months into it, she started getting really emotional and question —us??. She had a habit of overthinking and I would always reassure her. This time though, she was extremely emotional and lashed out at me. I told her that wasn't ok and tried to talk to her about it. Our fight was big because she had like 5 excuses in one argument. She would say that she was just being insecure then would go to blaming being drunk (which she really wasn't) then she would blame me. It was too many emotions for me to deal with in one argument. I broke things off with her and I decided to not come to see her. I couldn't help but be drawn to her but now I was questioning if she was the right one because of the emotional instability, which I wasn't used to. I ended up going to see her and as soon as I got off of the plane and saw her. I knew I would love her forever. I just forgot the fight and went to immediately loving her. We had such a good time together and I was smitten all over again. After I came home, things were great but she started being emotional and questioning us again and I tried to reassure her but frankly I was getting upset of her not trusting that everything was ok. My last time of flying to go see her, I noticed she was openly flirting with people on social media and I she was being really sneaky with her phone. I found out she was texting someone else in a way that was very disrespectful. We had a huge fight.

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She blamed me and said that I never wanted to commit to her. I was heart broken because I would never be disrespectful like that to her. I loved her so much. I guess I should mention that after one of our fights, I told her that I wasn't in love but loved her deeply. That was a mistake. I only wanted to slow things down because I couldn't handle all of the emotions. I didn't realize the affect it would have. I regret telling her that because I was in love. She used that as an excuse to do what she did also. She just blamed the entire thing on me. I was so hurt. I said some mean things to her because that's how I handled pain then. Well anyway, the point is. That was back in March and I'm still in love with her.

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so you cant see my long story?