Could really use some suggestion here

So I am back to having one of those few days when I feel really low about my ex but try to remain my sane self.
In gist.We were together for a year.It was beautiful but i unintentionally screwed up by betraying his trust (not cheating or anything of that sort but a lie).This happened last year in April.It was still all great and he was again so much into me in June.The emotional connection was back until he suddenly disappeared(he told me about it) after failing his degree finals the 6th consecutive time in mid July. He would check up on me once in 10 days or so and then text every two three days after he got a temporary work contract project. I would at times question him about why is he being so emotionally closed and why dont we really talk anymore as before.He would say he's in a very different state of mind and feels love,relationships are bullshit.He would get wayy too fumed and annoyed each time i tried talking about me,us,love,emotions,feelings etc. He said it was the work pressure too.Then I was going through a very low point in life in november and he was again emotionally invested in me with his care and loving behavior and words. He even ended up saying I love you too" once.But then things got better for me again and he again got emotionally distant although he would text me everyday or every alternate day asking how am i doing. I used to feel as if i am hanging in the air so i would again at times ask him what do i mean to you?" "why dont we talk as much anymore?" and again he would lash out.Last weekend,he texted asking how was i doing and i told him that its feeling too superficial with these small talks and that we should get back to talking normal like before.He wrote a hugeeeeeee blop of text saying how i need to stop these "theatrics" and "rhetorics" and how I have fooled him using these (basically now he thinks even my entire low point in life situation in november was faked inorder to get him emotionally close to me again).He added "its high time you find a new piece of entertainment".LIKE WTH!!! NEW PIECE OF ENTERTAINMENT— I just wished him best in life and left.He reciprocated the same.2 days later he texted saying "although i meant what i said but the wordings could have been smoother so sorry if i sounded too aggressive and bringing all these issues again and again annoys me to the core and I run out of patience.Hope you had a great day.Take care". I didnt reply.He knows I read it though. I would have replied had he acknowledged what he said was disrespectful and just in the fit of anger and not something he really meant. Then we didnt speak for a week at all.This was the 1st weekend in 2 yrs that he didnt text me. We have a festival today so i wished him.A very casual wish with no smiley or anything.He only replied "Thanks!!Same to you". I was expecting him to wish first but he didnt.I was also expecting him to ask me "how are you" and stuff which he always asks but he asked none of that for the 1st time.That was it

I still love this moron. Is there absolutely nothing I can do?
He used to absolutely adore me,respect me and look up to me so much but now he portrays me as a liar,betrayer,a person who has no better job than betraying and fooling him with theatrics and rhetorics,who treats him like a piece of entertainment.
I dont mean to boast but he knows I am doing so well on the academic and career front but he makes me feel like a shitty person.
How can i change this horrible image he has about me?

Honestly the best way to move on is focus on your life. At this point you don't matter to him and why would you want to??

Posted by GoldCluster
Honestly the best way to move on is focus on your life. At this point you don't matter to him and why would you want to??

Thanks for the reply GoldCuster!!
I am moving on fine with my life with my books,friends and family. So it's all fine that way.
It's just that I have always wished for us to reconcile at least SOME day if not now.
And are you really sure I dont matter to him?
I mean,yeah from the way he is behaving at present,yes.
But what baffles me is the thought how is it that he was all into me and suddenly he reappears as a completely different person after his degree results got out.How he got so emotionally detached (okay,i understand this part as to why). But then he gets emotionally invested in me again when he gets to know about my unhappy situation in life (I can bet a blank cheque his emotions were genuine). He gets emotional towards me to such an extent that he even ends up saying i love you to me.And as things get better for me,again emotionally detached.And then he feels i faked the entire scenario just to manipulate him to be emotionally invested in me again. And then this aggressive cut off behavior. Is there absolutely no way to restore things? I am sorry if i sound like a desperate maniac @_@

Posted by DonnaElvira77

Posted by gia
I still love this moron.

Desensitize yourself to him . Then forget him.

Take care of yourself. Do you. Feed you.

Take care. xx

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Thanks for the reply Donna!! Wish it was easier done than said : Especially considering how things have been so great between us otherwise.
But i am still trying #_#

Is it possible to restore a lost connection with a cancerian male after some time of no contact?
Also, how do you change a horribly negative image he has about you ?
I would just love to be me but how can he see the person he fell in love with if we don't talk anymore??

I'll shamelessly bump this again because i need advice so *BUMP*

Wait for him to come 2 you.

Dont sweat him.

So I texted him of my own yesterday. Just a casual "hi.We dont have to talk but just wanted to know how have you been and how are you doing"
he almost instantly responded saying "I've been good.How are you?" and then few minutes later he texted again saying "I have no issues talking though"
Seems like we both were holding on to our ego. He was expecting me to initiate the talk but I didn't (LIKE,WHY WOULD I AFTER THAT DISRESPECTFUL TEXT HE SENT?!?!?!) .It's surprising he still feels I should have texted him despite the horrible thing he texted me.
Anywho,so he dragged the conversation further inquiring about my studies and what am i upto these days.And i asked him about his work. So we texted for an hour. It was a normal talk which was bit on a formal note and not too friendly. Even I tried my best to not appear too friendly but rather just cordial.

I know this really isn't an update update but still.Something better than nothing at all I guess?