gonna miss my shell

only the lure of good money can get me to leave home, but two months is a long time to be away from all my security blankets. whats a homebody to do? and im gonna miss reading every ones posts. gotta get a laptop. sorry , im just feeling anxiety over leaving and maybe if i express it, it will subside.

Bye cj7. and are you coming back? Yes, stay in touch!

well ive got a week before i go which means ill be thinking about it all week. i traveled for work for a year and a half and im good at it but its hard on me. i still dont want to travel anymore, but they dangled a really big job in front of me and of course there is alot of money to be made. even though my heart isnt in it, i feel that to pass this opportunity up would be doing a great injustice to my goals and financial security.

If you don't mind me asking, what kind of work do you do? Sounds interesting, but traveling can be hard I would imagine!! You can always find something else to do and stay home where you are happiest, can't you? Be safe and c u when we c u!

Take care!

Hi ci7!
That would be challenging for anyone, I would think...
to be away from home (and away from security blankets! LOL) for that long! But, at the same time...it does sound exciting! I suppose that wears off though...

Most people think Aquarians prefer to be on the go...but, I really prefer hanging with my friends and/or family at home...however, I can be ready to 'go' at a moments notice!

Wish you well!

Love and Light,
Star

well, im starting to feel better about this trip. i guess it wont be so bad. i bought a laptop, so ill kinda still feel connected. ive got two helpers going also, who both happen to be aquarians. they seem happy where ever they are, so that will keep me positive. and yes, i do find it exciting to travel and see new things, its just a lot of work that goes along with it. im sure nobody cares, but for wb, im a flooring contractor(ceramic tile). theres palm trees outside my window now but by monday ill be looking at the rocky mountains. thanks star and wb for caring enough to respond, thats why i like coming here.

cj7, did you crawl back into your shell, or did I frighten you with my fascination with the subject of nipple piercings? lol, just wondering how you're doing 🙂

rubber baby buggy bumpers

(sorry just bumping the thread)

well the good news is that i got to go home early, the bad news is that its because i fractured two of my ribs and it hurts to bad to work. other than that im doing fine. its a long short story. i see youve been digging on the cancers lately whats going on wit u. ur in a frenzy

cj7, gosh I am so sorry to hear about your injury...get well soon. If it makes you feel any better I just had a "sympathy pain" for you when I read that (lol). At least you're home, it seemed to me you never were all that thrilled that you had to leave in the first place.

Yes, I am in a slight frenzy (hehe). I've always liked Cancers, and it was funny when you said that your best relationships were with Scorpios because now that I think of it, the best relationships I had were with Cancers. It's sort of like that Joni Mitchell song (funny enough she's a scorp) "You Don't Know What You've Got Til It's Gone" or whatever the title is. Except I'm not talking about the industrialization of America. LOL. You know what I mean.

Well, you poor thing, I hope you feel better...

Errr, I think the *actual* title of that song is "Big Yellow Taxi". LOL. I have Cancers on the brain and obviously it is affecting my intelligence... 😛

P.S. "it's a long short story" - LOL. Care to share?

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(my crude attempt at giving you get-well flowers, cj7)

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*giving up now* lol

What happened, cj7? * Willing to listen to long short story *

See? You're missed 🙂

thanks for the sort of flowers phoenix. its the effort that counts. well as for the injury, that happened at work. trying to put flooring down on a commercial jobsite can be very difficult sometimes. there could be up to 75 people running around a jobsite trying to do thier job and none of them care about your work. u can block rooms off with caution tape or two by fours, go to lunch and by the time u get back someone has moved your barriacades or tape and walked on a tile floor that has finished setting yet. i get very aggressive in these situations because they show a total disregard for my work, which being a perfectionist, i take very seriously. anyways, we had quarry tile going in the consession and kitchen areas and the electricans had rolled a lift in to the kitchen. (which is a mobile platform that wieghs five thousand pounds easy) once tile goes on the floor these are not allowed to be operated because of the damage they can do to the floor. so one of my guys came and got me and upon seeing what they were doing i proceded to sort of politely tell them to get it the hell out of there. which in return they told me to f-off. now im not a person to look for a arguement but i will not back down when one comes to me.(mars in aries kinda thing) there was five of them so in turn i was argueing with five people at once which i guess wasnt very smart being that im 5'6" and 155. i think it was a group collective energy which manifested though the one of them with the quickest temper and basically he slammed me into a wall that had copper pipes sticking out of it for plumbing. it happened pretty quick and i wasnt expecting it so it was pretty hard to defend it. he landed on top of me so i grabbed his hands so he couldnt sucker punch me. then the rest of the electricans grabbed him and me to back us off. i filed a police report but the electricans stuck together and said that i hit him first and are covering there asses. i stuck around for a couple days to see if i could deal with the pain but it was impossible, which sucks because we were about to start the front lobby, which was worth about twenty grand. well thats the long short version. i would have responded earlier but i got these pain killers and they work very well.(hehe)

cj7, that is like something out of a movie. I can't believe those guys had the nerve to do that! Especially since they were in the wrong in the first place. And you had every right to put your foot down (and even went out of your way to be polite about it, which you didn't need to do). Unfortunately they had a mob mentality thing going on with the whole situation, and now none of them are men enough to tell the real story. Good for you on filing a police report. At least now they have that sort of thing out there so if they pull that crap again the cops will know they've had problems in the past. I also can't believe people would be that rude to just disregard barricades, jeez. Now, what is your exact job title? I'm getting the idea that you do flooring and things like that but are you the head guy or are you part of a team of some sort?

Hope you're feeling better (would that be Vicodan that you're taking for painkillers? Careful with that stuff; it can be very addictive from what I've seen with other people taking it) 🙂

You're welcome for the "sort of flowers" LOL.

TTYL/get some rest.

hey phoenix, yep the whole situation kinda sucks. luckly ive got some time to get over it mentally and physically. i dont take failure very well, and even though this isnt my fault, i still feel like i failed.
my title hmm... iam a independant tile contractor. i install ceramic tile and marble. im setup as a small business corp. which gives me the freedom to work for who ever i want to. at home i do work for residential customers, builders, and contractors. the company that i go out of town for is in maryland. if i wanted he would keep me busy all the time but the traveling thing gets real old. its not the life style that i want to live. it had been about a year since i stopped traveling that he called to see if i wanted to do this job. it sounded good enough. he'll show up at the beginning of the job to make sure everything is ready and all the materials are there but when he is gone(90% of the time) im in charge to see the job to completion and deal with the day to day problems.
traveling sucks but the guy is a millionaire, and i like working for someone who has thier butter together, and knows how to get the big jobs and make the big money.
well enough about me, damn. every one else is like blah,blah,blah,blah. i checked out your website, nice job, im impressed. i liked the first picture with the trees and rain(i think it was rain). i should have signed your guestbook, but i was just taking a peek.

dont worry about the painkillers, i only take them before i goto sleep. thats the worst part, trying to find a comfortable way to lay, then hold it and goto sleep. which sounds like a good idea right now. P

hey, yes I can understand that feeling of failure because usually when people get hurt or sick they take things hard and have a tendency to get depressed easily and have that general feeling of being defeated, especially when they feel they are not being productive, but I am glad you realize it's absolutely not your fault. Don't worry about not signing my guestbook, you can do that later 🙂 {just the fact that you took the time to visit is nice, after all, that's why I made it, so that people would come around and visit} 🙂

Your job sounds awesome for the most part (wow, your boss is a millionaire!!), but I definitely understand not wanting to travel all the time. That's not something I ever want to do constantly either. Ocassional trips are good, but not too many where you feel like you're running around all the time (especially work related would bother me I think). At least you have a good boss (or so it seems to me). Thank you very much for the compliments on my website by the way! Encouragement rocks.

Okay, I hope you can find a comfy position--I would imagine that yes, doing that would be really difficult. Good night, sweet dreams, and feel better. 🙂

cj7's leaving? 😢 when will he be back?

im back already. i was in denver since the beginning of oct., but im broken now so i went home.

hey cj, I wrote you back in my guestbook. Thanks for signing 🙂

How are you feeling today?

hey phoenix, im doing alright, well it could be better but im dealing with it. you know, for a little man. haha

haha, yeah she's the coolest. I really question whether she's really a "former" addict; I've never dealt with anyone so psychotic in my entire life. I figured out how to make a flower: ----

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nice rose. i really liked your site. i thought i was doing good building my own computer, but i think that was easy in comparison.

i feel better already. ty

Wow, you're building your own computer? That's part of what my dad does for a living...it's pretty darn complicated from what I understand. But in the end, cheaper, so that's good.

Thank you so much, you are so sweet, it's such a nice contrast to some other "mountain folk" around here (haha, thought I would use that one at the first available opportunity, so funny the way you put that the other night)! lol 🙂

oh you're more than welcome for the rose btw 🙂

What is the weather like in Florida? I have a bunch of family who used to live there and they said it's like summer all the time, but that sounds almost too good to be true...lol

And how's your doggy?

lol, sorry about all the q's

awesome pic by the way...very serene 🙂

i built my first one two years ago, i just put another one together this summer. the first one was kinda a good learning lesson, but i knew exactly what i wanted to do the secound time. actually arkansas itself is kinda nice. last summer we did a fbi building in little rock. i was there for a month and a half. but they do have some rough ones though. even without all the razorback things he was wearing, he definitly looks like hes from arkansas

actually we have a frost warning for tonight, which probably sounds silly to someone from oregon. but its warmer than denver, so im still wearing shorts. did that pic post, when i go to my profile its still my dog there.

lol, yeah, i didn't even know who the razorbacks were so i asked him...i'm like, "obviously you're a huge fan...who are the razorbacks again?" LOL.

That's quite interesting, I can't believe you got to be involved with the building of an fbi building...lucky you!! oooh, i hope that info isn't "classified"...lol...

Is arkansas nice? Yeah, he's stationed there, and he lives there...i don't know...like I said, he seems nice, but like dxp was saying, is it possible to fall in love through email? And this soon? (like 2 or 3 weeks) What do you think?

Yes your pic posted, the new one...I like it 🙂

Haha, no we get frost warnings too...it's so freaking cold here i don't even want to go outside to smoke! lol

shorts...lucky you again. lol 😛

but it looks really cool outside right now, it's so thick with fog you can hardly see your own hand in front of your face...very mysterious. 🙂

brb, i'm stepping outside to smoke. LOL

I'm back if you're awake...lol

yeah the fbi building was pretty cool, they did backround checks, fingerprints, u had to check in everymorning with ur security pass, and cameras everywhere. yep tyler is doing fine, especially since im here all day chillin with him.

aww...good to hear that about your dog. Is he a golden retriever? He looks like my old goldie, Captain.

fallin in love over the internet, i cant even find someone here thats worthy of that. ive never thought of it as a possiblity. anything is possible i guess, but i think that it would take alot more than 2 or 3 weeks.

yeah I hear ya...the worst thing is when someone tells you that they love you before you feel the same...it's like, what do you say? lol...awful. It's happened to me in the reverse before, too, and that was also bad. I think that't why I try to be so sensitive to the other person's feelings when they say that to me before I'm really feeling it.

love is a serious word to me, not to be thrown around because it sounds good.

tyler is a golden retriever, hes a great dog, a little hyper when he gets excited, but hes still pretty young.

gosh he's a cutie...yeah I know all about Golden Retrievers getting excited, we've had 2 in my life and although they have a rep for being mellow, we had hyper ones...that was probably the only problem we've had with them. Other than that, they are great dogs. How old is Tyler?

Yes, love is serious. I notice that people throw it around far too easily, which is sad, because it is such a powerful thing, it should'nt be taken lightly.

btw, what is your picture of? or was it just a random picture?

hes a year and a half old. still a pup.

being a cancer with my moon in pisces, my emotions run pretty deep. i can definitly tell the difference between like and love.