HE'S BACK... Oh wait HE'S GONE AGAIN LOL

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So cancer of 8 months have sent me two messengers different times this past week days apart then says ok talk later really swiftly as if he's testing the water again... Like he wants to know if I'll run and cling or give him his space. Pity does he know that I'm different now... I'm letting it flow and doing me and having fun in the meantime. I guess me just being me is working. Is he back? No clue! The last message was like the arpeggio tattoo he has he asked me to look up the meaning and is why he feels so "psychic" something will Happen. So the Meaning is:

A broken chord than rise and fall for more than one octave which other chords can't do together it's either one or the other. Is this right?
He gave a thumbs up.

Then I realized he was trying to express his mood through music which is what he always did. He was trying to say his mood is like the arpeggio chord. At least that's what I get... He always said I got him. Well I'm planning on not being clingy... And he's gone again which I'm fine with this time.... Weird. Any take on this?
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I'm kinda going thru the same 🙂 cancer came back after months, talked on the phone for 2+ hours...after that prob 5 texts sent between us since that day.

I'm not chasing and pushing myself onto her at all, I can't..it stressed me out too much when I would be in my lost puppy dog mode with the sweet "Goodmorning, hope you have a good day texts." Or the "I hope your day is going good, I miss you." Type text In the past.

Honestly I think it's something you have to deal with and just let it not bother you, which you have been doing, and which I'm also doing.
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@pisces15 it's honestly sad, and it's all still so fresh to me that it hurts to even talk to her now. I'll be soon cutting ties with mine soon if this awkward texting goes on for another week.

@MisGemmi Omg, we might be the same person, that whole poems, text, etc... Part was me all the even when we weren't talking and things were going downhill. Agree agree a-fawking-greed on the "knwoing how to bring you back part". I'm a suck for "I miss you" pair that along with a long message and mine always pulled me back in, only for more awkward texts the next day.
I know my cancer also has hooks out at sea also no matter how much she tries to deny it ‚ this why my guard is so high up now and I'm taking full advantage of a trait from my sign which is being disconnectd and aloof. One thing I always let her know is that I'll always be there for her no matter how long we don't speak or whatever else happens.

Sometimes I feel that exact same way, you stopped talking to me, kicked me to the curb. Talked to other people and seemed happy, now it's like...where are you now. Sometimes that checkup serves an ego boost to see if you're still stuck on them.
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Posted by AquariusJan25
I'm kinda going thru the same 🙂 cancer came back after months, talked on the phone for 2+ hours...after that prob 5 texts sent between us since that day.

I'm not chasing and pushing myself onto her at all, I can't..it stressed me out too much when I would be in my lost puppy dog mode with the sweet "Goodmorning, hope you have a good day texts." Or the "I hope your day is going good, I miss you." Type text In the past.

Honestly I think it's something you have to deal with and just let it not bother you, which you have been doing, and which I'm also doing.
I agree just let them be and come around and do you in the meantime.
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Posted by MissGemmi
Above all this. If they have their eyes fixed on someone else. As I do believe what is said here. If they don't give the sweet attention to you. They are at the very moment giving it to someone else. So I know my cancer has multiple fish hooks out in the sea. Uptil today I will never know if this Cancer ever liked me romantically or had only used me for the empty hours and is know keeping me as a friend. I hate it when they(sorry) check up on you. It feels like they pity you. I rather be dumped and not looked back at, then having someone checking up on me because they feel sorry for me or be second prize a friend or someone they talk to every now and then, because you were a part of their life. And of course they can't be mean to you and really kick you to the curb, because you were so nice to them and they are not evil people.
He has said on his status that he's been a cheater and is working on it... I've caught him before in the past... Yet I still love him.. I'm just not Hung up on him anymore. But one thing I know he does that he doesn't with anyone else is... He opens up about deep dark stuff and I know no one else gets that. Nonetheless friends or lovers I'm open to either in done chasing though
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What's weird is.... He's only had sex with me twice.... Told me he's in love with me... His friends know about me... And he's admit to pushing people away cause he's scared of being hurt... So I'm backing off. Oh and he is a mommas boy though I haven't met mom yet, I've spoken to his sister and met his friends.... Haven't met his daughter or mom though he used to send videos of her and pics of them together .... Not sure what to make of it... Just living my life.
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Posted by M143
Shan,

He is throwing you a hint. He was busy with her daughter. If you don't confront him all the time he disappeared he will kept on doing that.

You can ask but don't demand. Stay cool.
I see... Makes sense. I will ask. Though he doesn't like questions and you're right when I'm subtle he responds well..When I demand or have a tone he dissapears. I'll try to be light and "fun" from now on.