Anti-Hope

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Lucriu
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You come flaunting your suitors and smiling at my disspair.
Have you forgotten that first kiss that you stole?
How about when you thought my hugs were a breath of fresh air?
Now in the prison of your insecurities I lay, our love is now a game of control.

No tears have been shed in the name of what was lost,
No laments for having fallen for such a weak soul,
No cries of anger to the wind will be tossed,
No weakness will be showed, for in the end I still gave my all.

With broken tools my heart I??ve began to rebuild,
And less sure now of what the future will yield,
I carry on with the memory of your beautifull eyes.
My skin carries the warmth felt that night as I gently caressed your thighs.

Instead of your heart I will carry your sweet rejection,
My anti-hope you have become,
The black rainbow shown to those whose heart will forever rejoice in infestation.
Sweet and bitter memories? No, there is no taste, all is now numb.

You took my dream, my only dream,
And as childish as this may seem,
I walk now with no purpose, no eyes for tommorrow,
for now all I am, all I can see , is my worlds sorrow.




**** You will never read this, you will never know how deep you cut me and how much you meant to me. I showed you with actions, but you were to blind to see and my only error was trusting in your words... I writte this remembering the pain you caused, and experiencing the joy of ridding myself of your toxic embrace, descansa Anna te deseo lo mejor *****
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Posted by Lucriu
You come flaunting your suitors and smiling at my disspair.
Have you forgotten that first kiss that you stole?
How about when you thought my hugs were a breath of fresh air?
Now in the prison of your insecurities I lay, our love is now a game of control.

No tears have been shed in the name of what was lost,
No laments for having fallen for such a weak soul,
No cries of anger to the wind will be tossed,
No weakness will be showed, for in the end I still gave my all.

With broken tools my heart I??ve began to rebuild,
And less sure now of what the future will yield,
I carry on with the memory of your beautifull eyes.
My skin carries the warmth felt that night as I gently caressed your thighs.

Instead of your heart I will carry your sweet rejection,
My anti-hope you have become,
The black rainbow shown to those whose heart will forever rejoice in infestation.
Sweet and bitter memories? No, there is no taste, all is now numb.

You took my dream, my only dream,
And as childish as this may seem,
I walk now with no purpose, no eyes for tommorrow,
for now all I am, all I can see , is my worlds sorrow.




**** You will never read this, you will never know how deep you cut me and how much you meant to me. I showed you with actions, but you were to blind to see and my only error was trusting in your words... I writte this remembering the pain you caused, and experiencing the joy of ridding myself of your toxic embrace, descansa Anna te deseo lo mejor *****





I soo can relate to that....

Beautiful yet Sad...

You'll get through the Pain..
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Lucriu
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Posted by StillWater
Posted by Lucriu
Posted by aquapiscescusp
Ok, I have to correct you right off the bat

It's

Despair

That made me stop reading...





=/ sorry , wrote it in 5 mins before heading out of work.



Why are you so apologetic?

Good poem, though. Karma will get Anna.
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Because not all value content. Some are fixated on the delivery so much that they don't see the point or wont. I forgot this and I should've spelled check instead of spilling emotion recklessly. Also I'm battered for the time being... oh so battered, confrontatuon or defending is last in my mind.... I just wish to fully heal what was broken, re-broken and then passed through the blender till all the pieces were unrecognizable from one another
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Lucriu
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Posted by aquapiscescusp
Posted by Lucriu
Posted by aquapiscescusp
Posted by Lucriu
Posted by aquapiscescusp
Ok, I have to correct you right off the bat

It's

Despair

That made me stop reading...





=/ sorry , wrote it in 5 mins before heading out of work.



🙂 it's good though




Lol Ur cute ^.^



nahh you're cuter 😉
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You have no idea how cute and tender I can be...
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Lucriu
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Posted by EISREGEN
Posted by Lucriu
You come flaunting your suitors and smiling at my disspair.
Have you forgotten that first kiss that you stole?
How about when you thought my hugs were a breath of fresh air?
Now in the prison of your insecurities I lay, our love is now a game of control.

No tears have been shed in the name of what was lost,
No laments for having fallen for such a weak soul,
No cries of anger to the wind will be tossed,
No weakness will be showed, for in the end I still gave my all.

With broken tools my heart I??ve began to rebuild,
And less sure now of what the future will yield,
I carry on with the memory of your beautifull eyes.
My skin carries the warmth felt that night as I gently caressed your thighs.

Instead of your heart I will carry your sweet rejection,
My anti-hope you have become,
The black rainbow shown to those whose heart will forever rejoice in infestation.
Sweet and bitter memories? No, there is no taste, all is now numb.

You took my dream, my only dream,
And as childish as this may seem,
I walk now with no purpose, no eyes for tommorrow,
for now all I am, all I can see , is my worlds sorrow.




**** You will never read this, you will never know how deep you cut me and how much you meant to me. I showed you with actions, but you were to blind to see and my only error was trusting in your words... I writte this remembering the pain you caused, and experiencing the joy of ridding myself of your toxic embrace, descansa Anna te deseo lo mejor *****





I soo can relate to that....

Beautiful yet Sad...

You'll get through the Pain..
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There is pain in this world that will never subside, pain that cuts so deep a million smiles cannot make it fade... The pain of endless rejection for what you trully are is such a pain. I'm a fool, that gives his heart out without restrain, with no thought, a fool that will never learn his lesson and keep searching for what can never be obtained, true love. A fool...
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You took a gamble, you should of thought like us and expect the shambles.
But instead, you thought backwards, followed your heart an not your head.

You next investment should be better investigated to the T.
Love lives then dies, then lives, then dies just like a tree.

So with all this said, today you feel dead.
Tomorrow who knows, but being a Cap is a life of sorrows.

Learn from it, go through it,
but most important, stop complaining about it,
and change it!!!


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Lucriu... you are not a fool... your just hurt right now, but don't ever let that hurt take away your hope for the future. Love always conquers I don't care what anyone says! No matter how many times you get hurt, remember your still alive and there are others who love you and the right one Will come along. May take a few tries, but she/he will! Once you lose hope in love you lose everything and become another cold and jaded soul, I refuse to let that happen(rlly have no control here on that one 😆)! Pls don't give up! KEEP SEARCHING!

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Posted by Carlikins
Lucriu... you are not a fool... your just hurt right now, but don't ever let that hurt take away your hope for the future. Love always conquers I don't care what anyone says! No matter how many times you get hurt, remember your still alive and there are others who love you and the right one Will come along. May take a few tries, but she/he will! Once you lose hope in love you lose everything and become another cold and jaded soul, I refuse to let that happen(rlly have no control here on that one 😆)! Pls don't give up! KEEP SEARCHING!






Maybe it's my turn to be jaded. Maybe just maybe it's my turn at indiference.
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Posted by SpiceNSugar
Nice poem. I always like your poems LU. They come from the heart and those are always the best.

APC, you're a meanie! 😉 (I noticed the error also LOL)



I was trying to help him. I've noticed he repeats this error with "despair" and I thought I should point it out only because he does write some nice stuff. Now is that so bad? 😉

"There are times when I lose myself within myself and it hurts to even say hi to people. I'ts in a way beautifull... Everyonce in a while I taste pure disspair and come out humbler and more sensitive to others... this last time though"