A shift in focus

This is probably my moon speaking and not so much my Lion sun..

Does anyone feel a shift in focus and wantings?

I find myself slipping into habits and into a less realistic state of mind, notably today.

And it's taking me forever to respond to people - days if not more.

I don't even know what I'm going on about anymore.

I'll end up deleting this from it's nonsensical nature.

no, do not delete it,
i know what you are talking about
dazed and irritable ?
looking forward to a fight but still not putting in much effort to win it ?
listless?

Yes. Those as well. I find myself trying to numb out because I'm not feeling much anymore. Since I'm not terribly strong right now, the methods to that state aren't quite nice.

I must sound batshit insane, oh my.

Posted by sheathedclaws
I must sound batshit insane, oh my.

no you do not sound batshit insane,
and if you are, then
you are sounding what i am actually being right now---

ah, ok
mine comes for being ill for too long, but yes this " teething problem " will go away, if not today than tomorrow,
and i never knew that accidents are "supposed to happen",i thought that's why they are called accidents because they were actually not supposed to happen,

Maybe I'm not being explicit enough with my statements.

wah-- nice picture Sheath, looking lovely

DXP bothers me - I wish I knew what dimensions the profile photos were scaled to - they always stretch my face 😢

Grrr, and some nights I wish I had brass knuckles again. Or something that gave way when I put force into it.


A tree or something. I'll freaking chop wood.

wylt2sgi53dh.

Or go to Acupuncture.

I imagine that helping destructive thoughts.

Posted by sheathedclaws
DXP bothers me - I wish I knew what dimensions the profile photos were scaled to - they always stretch my face 😢

oh really,
mine was squashed a bit, i did not like it. it made my face look round like a bun, where actually it's not and the picture i posted was all right , but here on dxp pages i was looking like a ball.

Sheathed
i am telling you try knife throwing, it's very cathartic
i always feel strangely calm, though if i have been too ferocious then my arm muscles ache for a while, but it feels so good afterwards.honestly, give it a try

A very beautiful bun ball.

Oh Shah, I'd probably end up killing somebody, really. I'm quite impulsive and my hands should never go near any weapons. 🙂

Heh.

The only weapon I'm undestructive around is a bo staff, and even then I almost hit a judge in competition 😉

Posted by sheathedclaws
Oh Shah, I'd probably end up killing somebody, really. I'm quite impulsive and my hands should never go near any weapons. 🙂

Heh.

ah tell me about it !

practice it in your own room,
i have hung different sized pine boards at various locations in my house--like my room, kitchenette ,sitting room, compund and main garden, but then i live alone, so it's not a problem and when i do practice my dog Rustam prefers not to accompany me and just hide under the bed, so all's safe for me.

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Posted by sheathedclaws
Oh Shah, I'd probably end up killing somebody, really. I'm quite impulsive and my hands should never go near any weapons. 🙂

Heh.

ah tell me about it !

practice it in your own room,
i have hung different sized pine boards at various locations in my house--like my room, kitchenette ,sitting room, compund and main garden, but then i live alone, so it's not a problem and when i do practice my dog Rustam prefers not to accompany me and just hide under the bed, so all's safe for me.

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This is why I need zombies.

I'd be able to have an all out war with contained zombies.

Oh my gosh that would lead to the best time of my life ever.

^^^^^^
that's why i need zombies ———
i am sorry i could not understand it

Posted by ShahBano
^^^^^^
that's why i need zombies ———
i am sorry i could not understand it

Whoops - sorry dear.

Zombies = target practice without actual legal ramifications 😉

Although tonight I really couldn't care too much.

It's very difficult staying sober when everything seems to be pushing in the opposite direction. It's just a catalyst of everything at this point. I don't know why I bothered with attempting to not today. Screw that.

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Posted by ShahBano
Sheathed
i am telling you try knife throwing, it's very cathartic
i always feel strangely calm, though if i have been too ferocious then my arm muscles ache for a while, but it feels so good afterwards.honestly, give it a try

I just got into that a couple months back.

Surprizing how much balance, muscle control, and breathing takes part in that activity. Very relaxing.

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do you have a special set of daggers ?
i have 4,
i have practicing since i was 7 yrs old
and yes i can't think of any other game which is as calming and cathartic as knife throwing.
i tried sword fighting, but i did not feel comfortable with it
i had this stupid idea that swords are meant for men, so i am happy with daggers

* been practicing *
the much coveted edit function

Eyes of Fire
leave her alone, she is already battling with much

Posted by DazedScorp
I also spin a fire staff. I'm working on contact staff. (Google it if you don't know what I mean). And I'm fixin' to get a set of magic sticks that I can light on fire.

ah,OK
i do not know what to say
Cool, i suppose
i never played any other game so, besides knife throwing, i am ignorant

Posted by EyesOfFire

Posted by DazedScorp
Ehh... I don't know.

Fire is relaxing to me. So says the water boy 🙂

I agree. Watching a bonfire to me is like watching your sorrows burn away.

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do not get too close,
fire is still fire

as long as you are the master,
otherwise it do tend to injure
keep on playing but keep the control in your hands.🙂

look who is talking !

Fire can't be controlled. Only extinguished.

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Posted by sheathedclaws
Fire can't be controlled. Only extinguished.

Depends, for instance, how much air you have in your chart. Air can have a moderating effect.

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Well, shit. 😛

Doesn't fire die without oxygen?

Posted by sheathedclaws
Doesn't fire die without oxygen?

ask that poor fire, which has to battle with too much air,

i am sorry, i would read it later, omelet is in frying pan, while having my break fast
but i stand firm with my statement that fire and air combination is a disaster for fire at least

i try to be as unemotional as i can be, and i do remain unemotional most of the time.
i met some of your countrymen yesterday

Seraph - this is said in a purely platonic nature - I love you 😛 You're always sending great insight links. In a couple days, I believe that I will start a 'project' with the possibility of open collaborative posts. A thread dedicated to every epic link you'd ever need.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm.

You met Canadians yesterday? How?

my husband runs some hospitals in the different areas of province. so a Canadian NGO wanted to collaborate with him to add maternity wings to the hospitals

awwwwwwww

i am sorry maybe i wasn't clear enough; by hospitals i did not mean he runs some M.A.S.H sort of high tech establishments. these are simple set up, mostly established in simple buildings,just to provide free of cost medical treatment to his tribesmen in different areas of province.
sorry if i gave you the impression that it was some sophisticated or state of the art set up. it wasn't my intention.

Posted by seraph
Shah and Sheathed:

I like how the two of you connect.



So have I experienced a shift in focus?

Yes. But mine is mostly work/career related. It's been happening for a while now,
and given my *planned* shift in focus, it's normal. So, really, any teething problems
I have now with the "newness" of the future come with the territory, mostly. It
all looks frightening and challenging at first, but I'm being drawn and directed
to where I need to go, almost naturally. So the knocks and bruises along the
way are also part of what *needs* to happen.

There are no accidents, except for the ones that are supposed to happen. 😉

Yes, me too. My career is rocketing and I'm getting attention from quarters that are unexpected, its not normal because my usual place is behind the scenes of the management and front and centre in the classroom, now experiencing some knocks from the outside attention but as you say, they are what need to happen as I am learning new things about my profession and for some reason seem to be seen as the leader in the current field - despite what I see as the bruises.

Posted by DazedScorp
I also spin a fire staff. I'm working on contact staff. (Google it if you don't know what I mean). And I'm fixin' to get a set of magic sticks that I can light on fire.

A few of my friends do this, its lovely to look at.

Posted by DazedScorp
Ehh... I don't know.

Fire is relaxing to me. So says the water boy 🙂

so is that what brings you to the leo board 🙂

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Posted by ShahBano
i am sorry, i would read it later, omelet is in frying pan, while having my break fast
but i stand firm with my statement that fire and air combination is a disaster for fire at least

It's quite the opposite, Shah.

What you'll want to avoid in your chart is an abundance of Fire and Water: high emotion + high intensity. That's a tough deal.

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Bleh, this is me, I have Fire and Water with only a smidgen of earth and no Air whatsoever - the emotion and intensity is difficult to live with. Maybe this is why this Libra keeps drawing me back and has this hold on me despite my yearing for my firey Aries, this Libra has mostly Air in his chart, am I craving Air.