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LS,

You remembered me? I'm touched. Thank you very much. Well, that Virgo guy is still lurking around. My cell phone rang at 4.37 on Saturday morning. I had it on vibrate so I didn't expect to hear it actually ring while I was loading it up. It actually rang. I've checked to see if the vibrate was broken which it isn't. I have no idea why the phone would actually ring while I have it on vibrate and loading it up. Anyway, I was sleeping. Just like last month, my cell phone rang at 4.27 on the 9th. That time and this time it says "Private" in my display. This is Virgo guy I'm positive of. I say this because other times when I've been annoyed with him, he'll ring from another phone or whatever just so I'd have to pick up to see who it was and it was him. None of my other friends would be so rude to call in the middle of the night. I didn't pick up a month ago, and nor did I on Saturday morning. I genuinely feel he shouldn't be drunk when he calls me, especially after he's been ignoring me for absolutely no reason. It would be great to find out why he shut me out. However, I don't want to be talking to him in the middle of the night. I just don't get what he's trying to do. I haven't spoken to him since the ending of July either. Why he's popping up now, I don't know. The last time I tried to reach him was by text message on September 17th. He didn't answer me. I figured no more, that's it and I'm tired of this cat and mouse game of his. He hasn't heard from me since which I thinks makes him wonder what happened to me. I don't understand him anymore. This push and pull thing makes no sense to me.

Other news is I have one week left of my internship at the hospital. I'm in the children's department and have been having a blast. What a place to be in. On Monday, I was where there are premature babies. Oh my God, the babies were so tiny and adorable. It's amazing they were alive as they looked like little dolls. A great experience to have been there. Children are a true blessing.

By the way, how are you? Getting over your hang-over?
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Chocolate,

Hi. I'm still around. Been very busy with my internship. In just a week and half I'll be moving to my next internship. Can't wait. Children are so cute. I love the way they have at looking at the world.

LS,
Yes, I do think the Virgo guy does suffer from boy syndrome. He knows I won't be mean to him no matter what. Even though he's hurt me very much, I don't have it in me to be just as mean to him. I truly do think he's also confused with his feelings regarding me. He and I are so different. I have my life on a positive note, and his is, well, into partying non-stop. He wants me to be jealous of how popular he is, which I'm not. I don't think he wants to completely let me go as he knows I'm a great catch. He knows I deserve better than him. If he tries to call me again at a normal hour, I won't really know what to do. It will probably be according to what mood I'm in. I am so much happier having had a break from him. Not having him bring down has been a blessing. I just wish he wouldn't have shut me out. It's his loss. I wonder if he'll ever realize what he let get away.
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Oh, yeah, I got really tangled and messed up. It's embarrassing to think of now because I never should have let his behavior affect me. I just so want to show him there is more to life than partying. No, he wasn't good for me at all. I truly do like him because there is a lot of good in him. He probably doesn't think he's good for anybody. Right now, he isn't, but, hopefully, one day he will be. He's helped me open up which I'll always be thankful to him for. I knew I always had it in me, but he brought it out which made me a happier person. I hope, one day, I'll be able to tell him because he's helped me more than he'll ever know. You know in life, if you have one person (besides your family) believe in you, it can make all the difference. Well, he believed me (before the partying started getting out of hand and I don't even party at all) which helped me see the light. I would love to be given the chance to give back to him what he gave me, but can't.
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Very true, Chocolate, what you are saying. He likes the fast girls who will jump into bed with him but, he's told me he doesn't have respect for a girl who does. I'm not that type of girl to just jump into bed with any guy. He's never known a girl like me because I'm so different (in a good way). He knows I'm a great catch. However, with him being in my life, has moved me into a positive direction. He just doesn't know that yet. I truly do hope I'll be able to tell him. He won't believe me though. I've indirectly told him he's a good person which he didn't believe. He thought I was lying to him which I wasn't. I've never known a person like him nor do I ever think I ever will. I do hope he comes begging one day in the future. It would be worth all the heartache I've felt regarding him.
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Thank you so much, Chocolate. You are so right. He still holds on to me, even though I haven't spoken to him since the ending of July. I didn't want to let go of him whatsoever but realized I had to to keep my sanity. A girl can only take so much of being ignored before she finally gives up. I've probably told you this before, but the last time he and I talked, he told me there were a lot things sick about him. I told him he could always talk to me. He said he knew that. I asked him did he have any problems with me (I knew I wasn't a problem but wanted to hear how he felt) and he told me I wasn't a problem at all. He told me I'd hear from him maybe, when he's better. This really shocked me as I wasn't prepared for him to say such a thing. Therefore I still held on with not wanting to let go. I called him, sent text messages etc. Nothing worked. He was probably having a ball seeing how I was still around. I'd let two weeks go by and contact him which he, of course, ignored. This is why when I sent him a text on September 17th and he ignored it, I was finally through. Then he calls me 3 weeks later (I know it was him even though it said "Private") because it went past the 2 week period and I didn't attempt to contact him. If I could be his savior, I'd do it in a heartbeat. He still means a lot to me. However, he's going to have to realize himself he's going to have to act mature which he isn't ready to yet. No, he doesn't value himself whatsoever. He's even told me, he doesn't think highly of himself. However, if, one day, he needs to talk to me, I'll be there for him. He knows this. I genuinely think he's liked me hanging around with no clue of what was happening. Then when I give up, he starts again. This is why I know, for certain now, I achieved my goal regarding him. My goal has been and always will be a person he sees who will not judge him and let him be himself so he didn't have to put on any act. It just makes no sense to me that a guy can't see a good thing in front of them. I mean, some guys must be really blind. However, I have to look at it as I'm leaning towards bigger and better things. I will always be his friend that's for sure. Whether, he'll be around to continue that friendship, I don't know. I don't think he's in the right frame of mind either.