A Ghost Attacked Me Again...

but enough about that

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This actually happened by the way lol Except I don't know if it really is something like a ghost? I don't want to believe it is and I dunno, maybe it was a dream. But it's happened so many times and it's nothing like the scientific explanation for it. It's happened so often that I almost expect it sometimes. This last time was so draining. I have even slept with my lamp on sometimes.

The worst part is that the other day I actually got a panic attack. I had never known what that was. Me and my bf were watching a scary video days after this happened to me. I was trying not to think about it although I thought the movie was an exaggerated version of what had happened to me. I finally couldn't take it and told him to change the channel.

Well, he lives in the outskirts of the city where it's VERY DARK. There is no light but the one from his house and my car was in the pitch black! There is a vast, huge, empty field infront... nothing but eerie looking trees! I had a knot in my chest as he walked me to my car... I didn't say anything but my mind was running like crazy... my heart had started to beat fast (and that rarely happens! not even when I've lost control of the car at high speeds have I felt so panicked! And my heart never races!)... the thoughts of the weird things that have happened to me just kept coming back to mind...

We get to my car and I just can't take it anymore. I wanted to run back to his house! I wanted to scream! I wanted to grab onto him and close my eyes. So I turned to him and told him I was feeling scared and I think he may have noticed that I was a little panicked. I just stood there trying to get a grip of myself but I didn't wanna freak him out. I just keep looking into my car as if something was in there. I was just feeling something so weird, as if I was being looked at, as if something was lurking, it was a panic attack! But I just told him to open the door for me and to sit with me inside for a little bit. He asked me what was wrong and I didn't know what to say. I almost started crying! My heart was beating so fast! I couldn't believe it. I'm still in disbelief. I... had... a... panic... attack!

*deep breath*










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