Am I a Weak Person—

I wonder sometimes because for instance, the guy that just got caught for all the sniper murders. I was so glad that they caught him and angry at what he did, but now that they caught him I feel so bad for him and his step-son. I cant believe how their souls must be tourtured to do what they did. How they too must be suffering and maybe the more.

Same thing with Susan Smith and others. She did some pretty terrible things and yet my heart is with her and feeling sorry for her. I dont share this with others because they think I am sick but I did talk to a guy at work who is a Christian and he told me that what I was feeling is normal. That I am human and this is a 'human' reaction.

I think that I am somewhat an enabler though and this is why I have gotten myself taken advantage of/. am I just weak and gulliable—

its okay, i can relate to you on that. cus im evil myself. no. lol ok yeah cus im a SINNER!! dun dun dun... anyway, what you feel is normal, most ppl just cant relate cus they only see from side of view *the person who was victimized* but you see it from the person who caused the issue also, and thats great,nothing weak, it just means you have a lot of compassion and sympathy for ppl. Which means that you are a kind caring person! Uh~Duh?! LOL no. You are not weak, you just have a big heart, that has nothing to do with being 'weak'

one side of view* okay that still made NO sense, ok more like only from one point of view.

you can still have compassion for ppl but you should know when to do something "Right" or "Correct" but you can still have that love for ppl. I think thast what most judges do. Who knows. Must be tough being a judge..but who knows what is correct anyway?

know when to do/and know* wutever..GAWD, i always SAY things and then i get all indecisive cus i know that i didnt fully state everything i wished to say...

I don't know why you would equate weakness with humanity. What you are feeling is compassion...and without that homosapiens are no more intellegent than the four legged variety. No, you are not weak for feeling this way. It shows you are compassioante and intellegent to realise life just isn't cut and dry. Who knows the circumstances the accused /s had experienced through their lives. This doesn't excuse what they have done, but rather places a human perspective on it.

On the other hand, ppl try to somehow make justification for the bad deeds of others, thinking that there must be something terribly mentally wrong with them in the first place. Sometimes it is hard to accept that there just are bad ppl out there. In this instance, and at this stage, I don't think a conclusion can be reached.

In any case, your outlook here is not a sign of weakness. The weakness comes from those who have no compassion whatsoever. PPl like that are much lower on the evolutionary scale and have much to learn.

I think I saw Mom at the party last night and she was hittin the sauce pretty hard. She ended up finding someone to tie down and as I was leaving I could hear them yelling NO NO please NO more! lol just kidding! I wish I knew mom better because she really likes her life and herself and just enjoys it. I would like to be more like that. Im gonna get there soon. To damn bad it takes so long until we get any sense!

Back to LawGoddess point of view, I wouldnt call people 'lower on the evolutionary scale', but I do think they want to throw everyone into categories. I have learned in working in the criminal justice system that you have to handle everyone you meet as an individual! Nobodies story is the same. They are all different lives with different circumstance. Cant put people into groups.

Hey MOM!
I agree that you are a most compassionate, intelligent person. I do not think you are weak. As far as being gullible and an enabler...I am guilty of those qualities in my past..
I continue to try to learn and also analyze myself...but, there is a fine line don't you think...some who are not considered 'enablers' see things in black and white and can be quite cold, and lacking in compassion.
I do try not to be taken advantage of...but, I have a generous nature...so, sometimes I am taken advantage of, but, it is with my full knowledge and consent! LOL!
That is part of the difference, don't you agree? It is sad when someone is always taken advantage of and doesn't seem to have any control over it...