Balance

Me thinks its about balance after much thought on the subject.

I have found the houses and aspects are what makes the person, they are born that way and must balance themselves to the centre somehow.

Theres positive and negative aspects and when you feel too much like either one it sends you off balance if you dont keep it in balance. I have been trying to focus and do this previous in my life and now have to focus and do this again to put myself back in balance.

I have been off centre ever since myex's and now I am going back to being the balancer of myself again so that I can live a happy, productive and harmonious life like I did way back when.

Ahh the thought of it relaxes me and I know I am right so goodbye to you all and have a joyful Christmas and delightful new year.

Goes off to the balancing act again.

Wish me luck and to not break a leg?

Ok you know whats is unwelcome and hurtful is that when you get married to someone you love and then find out it was all lies to begin with that they didnt like you at all and they did it for some reason, why i dont know, then not only that they dont even contact you and tell you about it or be honest about it what because i liked the guy and wanted to be with him and then it was all a set up? Thats hurtful and thats why I will not be with anyone unless its love and real and all that. Despite this I have the ability to not be a person who will take it out on him but yes fuckin oath i am damn straight majorly angry at the situation, not only has it hurt me but its made me realise I am right yet again about marriage and etc. Its getting very boring to be right again, sometimes I just want to be wrong ya know..

Also the ex previous to myex (the one I was married to) that one was the one I should not have been with at all but was with him for 2/3 years and it was something that although it didnt work out I am happy I got to be with him. Again was probably a set up like the marriage one. Not sure about that.

So to those things out there who are setting me up with everyone, get fucked stop putting others involved to my life and mind ya own business you have no right to do this at all! and stay out of my life fucking life will ya's.

Oh yes that one upset my balance and was never the same since so I gotta get back to where it all began or so to speak.

So not only that when I was getting over myex I had some psycho bastard stalking thru the internet pretending to 'love' me and 'miss' me and be my friend when all he wanted was to hurt me and I thought no way mate I am going thru a rough fuckin time here getting over my fkn ex and all you think you to do is waltz in and pretend to me so I fall at your feet and then once I do you go and run and then blame me for doing what you wanted in the first place. FUCK YOU!!! AND GET FUCKED!!!

I care nt about you games that you play. At least now I know what you are like and can live my life without you in it. Stop stalking me too and stop pretending to be different people via internet av's to get to me and most of all stop pretending you like me I knw you dont and never have. So go and leave me alone coz that the way it goes. Like I said to you once before out with the old and in with the new. You dont know me and you will never know me coz i said and also you have no right to hurt me like that coz I was looking

You dont know me and you will never know me coz i said and also you have no right to hurt me like that coz I was looking for a friend to help me over a break up and all you did was think I wanted to be with you but I didnt in that way you think. i do love you and miss you and want to be with you but it will not work like I keep telling you over and over again, you do not listen to me. I will help you if I can and when I can but thats about it as far as anything else goes I dont want a relationship with you never have, never will but I will be a friend and do that thing.

I need to balance myself now and you are the type of person who seems to want me be unbalanced for some reason, I dont know, so I really would to just go and be balanced like I was before.

and thanks feby16aqua for posting

A lot of people have been dicked over-- you aren't alone.

And balance is good.

Just keep in mind that it's about progress; not perfection.