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I'm a pisces woman that can't get a break. It's been almost 10 years since i had a real relationship and can't seem to find anyone I can call my own or s/o I'm 25 & my impatience combined with their need to just have sex with me is never ending. I know it's up to me not to have any type of sex with these ppl but I'm a woman with needs. To sum it all up I've been hit again... This time by a Scorpio who lead me on...every man says I'm everything a guy could want but they are never ready for a relationship..and yeah maybe it's the guys you choose but damn if every man isn't the same then why this? I haven't had suicidal thoughts in a long time but they have plagued me again tonight as I cry on my pillow just lost hurt and confused. The Scorpio messed my head up with the "awakening" talk and made me feel like someone told me Santa wasn't real and I've only depended upon God and have even my own experiences that has strengthen my faith over time now that I'm hurt alone again I can't help but think of the guys words of God never coming back and why is he allowing all of these bad things to happen and yet everything is going in shambles with me and I still believe in God but so angry with him bcuz I believe in him but get so hurt and alone with no one to call on since I'm a loner boy or girl my relationships always ends in bcuz I give my all to each one so naive and gullible lil fishy... I can't seem to shake this piscean ordeal. I wanna die so bad bcuz without luv I'm nothing. I love and love and love until there is nothing left I feel that's the only thing I'm actually good at & yet still so angry at God because I need someone now and feel so empty and alone he said he would never leave me nor forsake me but I feel forsaken..it's nothin like having a shoulder to cry on and a hug that heals all that no medicine can withstand.. Thought about takin numerous pills again but that never works and I never got a gun bcuz of my suicidal tendencies anyway someone please help me
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Posted by fugu2
Think back to the last 3 guys you've dated. What originally attracted you to them?
They were themselves and wasn't so nervous to talk to me... I don't ask for much even some of the guys I've dated ppl never understood how someone as "beautiful" as me could have been with some1 like that. I don't judge I just notice when they find out I'm a pisces they try to take advantage
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Posted by Freetobe007
@P3n3lop Maybe a good way to divert your need for sex would be to harness that energy into studying sex, the science of sex, the formula of intimacy, and erotic literature. Transfer the physical inclination to a mental inclination. I say this because it sounds like you become so passionate about sex that you share your body with the wrong men and it's a gateway to a deeper side of you that they have no long-term interest in exploring.


Yeah that's true it can't be everybody & it starts somewhere. I will try to do my best I was given another morning today and now trying to make the best of it...
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Posted by notsosure
This is your body and minds way of telling you, that you need to make some changes in your life.

You feeling bad like this, is a reaction to your life, and you need to make changes.

I know how you feel, I know where you´re coming from, I was there too.

I am not for giving up sex, if I want to have sex.

But you have to realize, that what you think is love, is not, and if you equal sex with love, then be responsible for your own life and don´t have sex, if this is how it makes you feel.

When you say, that you love love love, you really don´t. It´s not love. It´s something else.

Probably desperation for love, which it was in my case.

You think you "love" these guys, because you want them to love you back. When you really think about it though, do you really love them? Do you even really know them?

Your reaction to "loving" all these guys is so bad, that you almost feel like giving up on life, and that should tell you, that you need to change. You. Not the guys. You can´t control that part of life.

You and how you look at life and especially how you look at yourself needs to change. You give away your love so easily. What does that tell you? And what does it say about your love? And then you feel like shit for giving it away so easily. So don´t. Take responsibility for yourself, don´t just feel sorry for yourself. That´s okay for a while too, but it will not get you anywhere. Listen to your own mind and body, respect yourself.
Yeah I think I may have just wanted someone who I could have sex w/ on the regular & do things with since I'm an only child...when I first met the guy...I actually just wanted to have sex but he started wooing me, courting me, and my thoughts about him changed because I never knew someone who could satisfy me the way I liked to be satisfied.
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Posted by notsosure
Well if you feel bad after losing someone you thought you were gonna be with, that´s pretty natural.


I agree with this and there's a big temptation to talk down to you here for what you posted, because you're talking about feelings of needing someone else. That's one of the biggest triggers for astro people here, apparently.

I like what you wrote in your OP. I can't say I relate to it fully but just know 25 is a tough age. A lot of things change. Especially perception.
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It is!

25 was one of the worst years of my life.

So was the first half of 26.

And it took a minute but things started to

slowly improve.

@OP

Yeah it's easy to have faith when things are

going well-- but without the bitter, you won't

have the sweet.

Like tizi said... perception.





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Posted by tiziani
Posted by notsosure
Well if you feel bad after losing someone you thought you were gonna be with, that´s pretty natural.


I agree with this and there's a big temptation to talk down to you here for what you posted, because you're talking about feelings of needing someone else. That's one of the biggest triggers for astro people here, apparently.

I like what you wrote in your OP. I can't say I relate to it fully but just know 25 is a tough age. A lot of things change. Especially perception.
It is!

25 was one of the worst years of my life.

So was the first half of 26.

And it took a minute but things started to

slowly improve.

@OP

Yeah it's easy to have faith when things are

going well-- but without the bitter, you won't

have the sweet.

Like tizi said... perception.





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Really omg I never heard of that and it's crazy bcuz it seems like this year hit everybody
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I'm here, madam. Let's talk 🙂 what's up? lol.
I was having a problem with men & a recent Scorpio
Hmmm. I understand. Hope you feel better, and suicide wouldn't solve any of it. Best of luck to you, and try to stay strong.
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Yeah & Thanx it's a process God sent a few friends my way from here and a few ppl I talk to here and there back home to help pick me up a bit...I just hope I never have that feeling again it's like it comes and goes..I may need to c a doctor b4 it gets way out of hand even tho I don't want to.
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It's been almost 10 years since i had a real relationship and can't seem to find anyone I can call my own or s/o I'm 25
You had a real relationship at 15?! I was just barely getting boobs at 15.


Yeah around adults my whole life so I grew up fast
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The adults job is to make sure you don't grow up fast. Let you be a kid.
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I'm here, madam. Let's talk 🙂 what's up? lol.
I was having a problem with men & a recent Scorpio
Hmmm. I understand. Hope you feel better, and suicide wouldn't solve any of it. Best of luck to you, and try to stay strong.
Yeah & Thanx it's a process God sent a few friends my way from here and a few ppl I talk to here and there back home to help pick me up a bit...I just hope I never have that feeling again it's like it comes and goes..I may need to c a doctor b4 it gets way out of hand even tho I don't want to.


It's a testing period in your life.. Try to be strong, and you'll overcome this period in your life. While it's hard to understand God sometimes, but God does know best, even if it seems like our world is falling apart. Sometimes it will feel like that, but it will fall apart so something else falls into place, something better. Keep your head up, and suicide is just the devil planting seeds in your mind. Pray about it, when you have those evil thoughts. While the only love you'll ever need from anybody in this world, is the love you should be giving yourself. Try to love yourself the way you love others, and you'll be perfectly alright.

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You're right and I say I luv myself all the time but those r words & I will try my best to luv myself the way I luv others...never thought of it that way...just had a hard time living with the decisions I've made and having a hard time trying to overcome them & my flaws