Your shadow

Ive recently discovered my shadow from watching the Babadook lol but before I knew it as my shadow I identified it as my scorpio moon when I first knew something was going on, if I did anything embarrassing I would be like "oh there goes my crazy scorpio moon"....My moon is in scorpio and anytime I felt jealousy , resentment, hate, lust I wouldn't associate it with my "self" which is aquarian I would say its scorpio moon and the more I denied that my scorpio moon was a part of me the more my shadow breaks away from my psyche and starts acting on its own which is what its doing now.....I have dreams where I'm faced with with my jealousy and its such a nightmare to wake up from and experience grief, humiliation, jealousy etc my brother slept next to me one night and he said I screamed out "stop laughing at me"! but I don't remember.......I also have started drinking and did some things that I'm not ready to face just yet.....If you haven't seen the Babadook yet then you should watch it if you have experienced anything like this, I cried because its something we all need to acknowledge in ourselves but I don't know why I deny it but it is something I am coming to terms with now and I do need to manage my emotions more responsibly and deal with my guilt and demons...

heres a wikipedia page if you're interested

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shadow_(psychology)

Hahahah I loved that little shit! he was such a good actor........Well it could be seen as schizophrenia but the Babadook is like a part of Emilias psyche because she's dealing with grief, post natal depression etc......and at the end when he comes for her husband she's so reluctant to give him up but thats what the Babadook needs as her shadow grief and all the anxiety is supposed to be taken by the shadow instead of our consciousness holding onto it which is unhealthy.

When I do feel jealousy or when I have one of my tantrums I don't associate it with myself and I can see that if I don't deal with it properly and keep doing it then I have my own Babadook that takes over and its like a DR jekyl and hyde situation......I do things that are incredibly mean and I think think of things that are really bad and evil but I don't want to associate them with myself, I don't want it to be a part of me but the more I don't accept it the more it becomes its own thing and the more I think of it the more it gets into my head......I cried when she was going off at her son when he said that he only wanted her to be happy and she couldn't give a fuck, I can see where she's coming from where you are just incredibly mean for no reason, if I did that to a kid I would hate myself......The end scene when shes going off "if you lay a hand on my son I will fucking kill you"!!! so good.

Also I love it when the kid speaks his mind at the end because I get really angry and frustrated with people who speak their mind all the time.....Ive noticed that my closest friends are always ones that speak their minds and it shits me to tears and I always ask myself why I'm friends with these people.

Weird.

But interesting.



Reminds me of bugs bunny's Dr Jekyll-Mr Hyde.