Life changes

Hello!
I am a female Pisces (03.20.78)
My horscopes tell me that this year things are going to be BIG for me! That my dreams are going to turn into reality and that a secret passions and desire will come true, if I stick with it. I definitely feel more confident. I feel almost like a snake shedding it's skin!
For a long time, all my life actually, I let people walk all over me. I was always unhappy and always felt side-tracked from being a happy effective person. I always felt raw and sensitive and people were hurting my feeling left right and centre.(Maybe this is just the 'martyrish' side of my pisces personality - I don't know!) The thing is I have a Leo father and a Leo sister, and growing up our relationships really did personify the worst aspects of a Leo/Pisces relationship. My father did a lot of shouting and raving and 'bullyish' behaviour. While my sister would totally ignore my existence! She always hurts my feelings too by putting me down and patronising me. It's like I am not competitive at all and just wanted to get on with each other! But she has always made sure that I get put down or ignored in front of everyone else. (then again if Iwasn't so passive and sesitive I wouldn't have expereiced that!) The thing is if you are a 'go with the flow' easygoing person, people think they can take advantage of you. I feel like my feelings have been abused a lot. As a cause of this I would retreat a lot into my imagination and solitude. But as a kid, I would spend a lot of the time outside the house with friends or at other people's house.I was funny and wild and always the one making everyone laugh! We would get up and do skits of our teachers in school! At home I felt that there was noone taking notice! My Mum is A Capricorn, and I love her a lot. She's an absolute sweetie. But growing up, she went through a brief period of 'being down', and as a Capricorn was quite reserved and quiet in showing her emotions. We get on really well now though. I have one brother also . He is a Scorpio. He is 7 years older than me so we didn't spend a wole lot of time together growing up, but we do get on great now. Anyway I just feel like I have just drifted along , and I haven't really made any attempts and becoming a writer, artist, or actress like I would love to, because I always had this feeling in my stomach that noone liked or appreciated me. But I feel like I have finally realised it and I have drawn a line under the negative patterns in those relationships, and will not take any more so to speak! I feel ready now to find my own path and break free from my Leo fathers 'controlling ways'.
Has anyone had an similar experiences? Like finding a way to express their talents a bit later on in life?
Any pisces out there who has realised a passion that they always wanted to do?
I guess I'm just looking for affirmations! But reading your messages there seems to be plenty to make me feel good about being a piscean! So thanks!

Hi!

I hang out on this board..but, I am not Pisces. I am Aquarius.
However, I can definitely relate to the family dynamics being different than how things were when you were with people who 'noticed' you...

I, too, was a quiet and easy going child...therefore often ignored. I was the middle child.
It took quite awhile for my family to adjust to the me that I am when I am with them today...because it is not the same quiet girl...still easy going, but I talk to them now (or should I say, they hear me talk to them now!! LOL)...make them laugh...
I enjoy the relationship I have with them now much more than I ever did! But, I am also thankful for the experience as it gave me a greater understanding of how NOT to treat others.

Take Care!
Star

hello there,
you pretty much explained how I felt growing up. Not that I'm an old man now. I just turned 24, but when I was younger I always felt like I wasn't appreciated. I was always the easy going, go with the flow type of guy and what I've learned is, being like that made me feel very insecure. As if I was not competitive. I definitely had a passion for art and music. Eventually I took up an instrument and got into art.
I've been playing music for a few years now and it's helped define what I'm about, what I want to do, and definitely made me feel more confident about myself. I know that sounds pretty cheesy. Just follow your dreams.

Hi!
Thanks for your word of wisdom! I think I have changeed from then, but it does feel good to get it out of my system, and here from people who have felt the same way.

All the best
Ellie

good luck on your journey!

-brobster-

Hey Girl!
I may have just wrote to you under "March 15..." post...you have the same DOB anyway...
If you want to know more...just ask me...I would need your time of birth and whether you were born north or south (U.S.) to figure out your rising sign...

Best to you!
Star

yep - my dob is 03/20/1978 @ 3.30 in the afternoon (GMT)
Was born in ireland though

hey there!

just had to say hello to you coz im irish too & your the first irish person whos posted a message that i've read!

well in reply to your msg - im also a pisces and was quite shy growing up anyways but like that i have just recently felt like my life is starting to change, for the better!
i have an interest in music & art etc.
i kinda gave up painting and drawing after my dad died - he more or less thought me how to paint and draw and helped me with my junior cert project - however he died before the exam and i didnt really get the result i thought i deserved - but life goes on!
not too sure if art is my true calling yet - but im sure i'll figure it out eventually!
anyways good luck on your spiritual journey - hope u find everything your looking for :-)

fishcalledwanda

Hey Wanda!
How are you girl? Hope all is going well for you.

And to both of you,

Go Irish!
Ok....so, I am only 1/4...but, it is the best 4th I got!! LOL!

Take Care!
May good things come to you!
Star

hiya star!

ur part irish too?
wahey!

thats really cool!
btw - thanks for your message on birthdays board!
it sounds v.accurate to me!
esp, the part about finding it hard to find love - sniff sniff sob 😢
there dont seem to be plenty more fish in the sea for me :-)

ah i'll bag myself a man soon, im sure!

l8r,
wanda!

Hey Wanda!

Yeah, have always been happiest with my Irish heritage...

You are entirely welcome for the brief insight I gave...

You are young...things will look up! I just know it!

Star

hi Star,

yeh your right - i guess im just feeling a bit stuck in a rut at the moment - im trying to get a new job and its not looking good at the mo!
im dying to travel - but things are holding me back - theres so much i want to do and although i know im still young - i keep gettting the feeling that lifes passing me by and im missing some great oppurtunities - thing is im not exactly sure i know what changes i need to make - and if i did would i have the confidence to go through with them - im a real neurotic i know :-)

btw - what star sign are you?

wanda!

Hey Wanda!

I am Aquarius.
What are you interested in? What type of job?
Where would you travel to if you could? (Just curious...wish I was a rich neurotic!!)
Are you in college?

Star

Hello Star; I am female pisces with twin brother. Boen Feb. 23, 1952. In eastern New Brunswick, Canada. I am going through some very difficult times and I see you are very well versed in astrology..We where born at 7:30 pm.I also made the mistake of falling madly in love with a pisces Born Feb. 22, 52. I haven't seen or heard of for several months now. AND I realize I must let go but have I seem not to be able to forget.HELPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!Thank you in anticipation.....Me.I love this msg. board, I have discoverd many things reading all the correspondance. We pisces are very much alike....