My Pisces Crush

OK there is so much drama going on professionally right now, I shouldn't post. But besides all the interoffice drama (which could led to a big fat raise if I play my cards right), there is the pisces ex. So I want to talk to y'all and ask questions if that's ok. I already know for the next few weeks we're going to talk alot as the pattern is starting again and I know him. But he surprised me today at work. He's so sweet and I love being able to make him laugh. Like when I see him it's so easy to suddenly have us both grinning like canaries over nothing at all.

He kept me up talking on the phone last night. I did call him but the call could have lasted maybe 2-3 minutes, but instead he kept talking. He even talked to me when his friends came over to visit and had me saying hi to them all. I thought we were done talking when his friends came over to take him out, but a little over an hour later he called back to continue our conversation.

When he's cool and sweet like he is, then I can fall into this dream eyed fantasy. But I also know that he has major personality flaws that would require major changes on my end that I don't know if I can make. We're just beginning to even speak again after our break up, so I know that the fantasy is just a fantasy. But sigh... if y'all know how to keep control of stray thoughts and simply let things be... with this guy I need a reminder. I have a current boyfriend whose up and down with me all the time and I only started dating when the Pisces and I ended. I really did just assume that things were so bad that I settled into the next relationship which is definately always making me question myself. Both guys are controlling (so are all men in their way) but the Pisces wouldn't settle less than owning my soul and I wasn't sure he was worthy of having it.

Tonight I celebrate the political drama at work and then take a cold shower to end thoughts of romance. But sigh... how is it that a pisces can so easily make a girl forget everything?!? And how in the world do people dating pisces deal with that when you have drive and need the independance?

"How is it that a pisces can so easily make a girl forget everything?!?"

I'm not sure about the girls, but the guys, yeah. I dont know, but they(girl fish) DO have the ability to make you forget about the issues and troubles that upset you...even when they force it out of you with constant and annoying ass questions!!
Fish: Ahh..What's wrong w/ you?
You: ..Nothing.
Fish: Yes it is.
You: No it's not!
Fish:Okay, Why are you looking like that?
You: Looking like what!?
Fish: Like something wrong..tell me..tell me..tell me!!
Maybe it's all the physical/sexual attention that's portrayed from them..wait..yeah it is.
While their quote(and song!)is.."When you cry, I cry, we cry..together."..They CERTAINLY make you feel at ease.

"And how in the world do people dating pisces deal with that when you have drive and need the independance?"

Well, some of them ARE kinda work-aholics.(The ones I know that is.) But in all, they are REALLY supportive of what-ever you are, or planning on, doing. Rather if it's going for a degree, another job, or stripping, you will catch them cheering you on...rather you need it or not.

Part of our issues before was that I was too careless and never sensitive enough. (OK that's too funny to say because yesterday he proudly wore his right wing republican belt buckle and he always had this way of wanting to protect me from everything.) He never simply just let me be independant, but darn it all before I annoyed him and he annoyed me his attention to details was kind of nice.

Sigh right now I'm going to befriend the devil again and he can move it from there if he wants. If not then it's best to keep my crush as a crush. Be there but not be there. This strategy seems logical to me as I just don't know about him right now, other than his smile makes me forget. And I have to be a political animal at work these days and get my cards in order; hot men are a distraction from the higher cause of 'me.' (Cap is pulling a disappearing act right now and that works for me right now, except that this pisces guy keeps showing up in the thoughts and in conversation.)

The conversation you wrote a4 gemini... yeah that's kind of right. I have no idea how he knows some stuff. replace you the guy for me the female aqua and we're there. I prefer to simply be there to show my loyalty than spell it out as I don't always know the words in the game... but somehow he knew stuff was on my mind and could make alot of it seem silly.

Have you ever seen "A Long Hot Summer?" It's an old movie that sometimes played on HBO, but I have the dvd. The looks that Newman and Woodward shot at each other in that movie is the best visual for how I can feel around the guy... like I'm the prime rib that needs her cages rattled.

"... yeah that's kind of right. I have no idea how he knows some stuff. "
"... but somehow he knew stuff was on my mind and could make alot of it seem silly."

I know this because my wife and 1 of my sisters is Pisces, and yes, they DO talk like that...and, "Are you SERIOUS?!" When told/or asked something that is..of course...serious. No offence, but yes it is QUITE silly(in a 'Funny' type fashion). But I guess, fish is fish.*rolls eyes*

So this Pisces guy kept in touch with me over winter break and within 24 hours of returning, he not only surprised me but hung out for a long while. Then the next day called out of the blue to ask me for ice cream. I have to exercise like a demon for a week now to undue that sinfully delicious ice cream that was freshly made with no nonfat available. (It was yummy!) I don't want to get ahead of myself at all and nothing major happened. But it seems that he's making an effort to do the opposite of where things went wrong for us a year ago where he swore never to speak to me again and to leave him alone. He didn't speak to me for over a month and I swear he expected me to guilt him but I did the opposite. I never spoke to him, and starting meeting other men (Just as he started to speak to me again, I was starting a new relationship with a Cap who said the opposite of the pisces, like Cap "I want an independant woman" versus the pisces guy "I hate women like that and I hate women who are too independant." As a lawyer I had no idea why he was with me as I was about to be a lawyer. Anyhow Pisces men rock even as a friend, though in truth the world stops and in this moment the reasons we broke up seem fuzzy.

In this very moment I'm thinking of leaving Mr. Cap and returning to the Pisces if he asks though in the next breath I tell myself to not think that as that's too far in advance than reality. Reality is that I have to be true to myself, not get ahead, and know what I want.

A Pisces guy can leave an aqua girl feeling great after an encounter. If we ever do date again though I need to figure out how to get my point across more gently. Like most guys he doesn't get hints. Straight talk, my preference, can be too detach and it aggravates him when I simply try to be honest in my wants and how to compromise. Catching up over ice cream was just so much fun, and it was also a bit of the feeling that we never really broke up. He was still teasing me and making me laugh. And I always liked the easy dreamy nature of the relationship.

If anyone has suggestions on how to get my point across to a pisces guy without hinting but gently and straightforward, then please. Some say Aquas are the emotionally slowest in the zodiac, so I might be missing something obvious.