pisces: refelction of others?

im new, hi. on a post calling p angel a witch, imitationoflyfe said something about sensitive pisces being treated unkindly, and other people seeing reflections of faults they dont like in themselves in them. HELP! so many ill people fing PUT their faults into me and i dont get it! already being an fing psychic sponge is hard enough, but when people see their faults reflected in me, which they do, i can feel their 'demons' inside me. the thing is that i know it isnt of me, but you cannot tell someone "hey thats not me, thats you, youre seeing your faults refelcted in me because thats how human relationships work when you are afraid to accept faults in yourself and it just so happens that i am the best fing mirror in town". i dont know anyone who would listen to that, and really hear it.
when i was in junior high i experienced this to the extreme. these people.. boys and girls.. it was like they were all one person and i was their outlet. when i was in high school, it got like reversed. by my sophmore year i was everyone i met's immaculate perception or something. ever since it has been EXTREMELY rare for me to meet someone who looks at me as an equal. its either instantanious |me reflecting every idea of bad| or |me reflecting every idea of good| instead of looking at me and my own amazing and wonderful uniqueness, im like peoples doll. OR someone might get interested in my charcter and analyze me and truly understand one tiny fraction of my character but think thats it. people seem to develop ideas of who i am in their minds and when i act out of that character it is disturbing. i feel like i live in hell. im very influenced by peoples thoughts about me. if there is gossip or negative thoughts floating about me, god it is heavy. and hurts. like running underwater. when people have faith in me and stop trying to put a label on me and just let my soul be a free ever evolving butterfly, or if there is "positive gossip" floating around about me, i am soaring on the hands of god.

i wish people would understand that ITS NOT JUST ME who is affected this way- i am just an extremely sensitive human and i can pick up on these things. its so rude to talk of our fellow man the way we do! its like literally laying down curses! i am so afraid of going bad. there is constantly an internaly battle of 'good' vs 'evil' going on inside me. (plus the existential battle of, "is anything really good or evil?") i am just so afraid of misuing this extreme power i was born w

Welcome to our community, btw 🙂

I have a feeling you are going to bring some much needed and valuable insight, as most people struggle in life with realizing their identity.

actually i felt like that was whining a little bit, but i saw someone talking about it in a few posts back somewhere out there.. and i related. and i thought, if i relate then someone else must as well, and well.. this is anonymous internet so why not take the risk of whining a little for the comforting knowledge of not being alone? i truly believe that some people,not only pisces but mostly, are extremely sensitive, and they will react and form to how they're treated. however EVERYONE will do that over time, its just that a sensitive recognizes whats happening immediately and doesnt want it and tries to fight it and then the battle begins :\

so theoretically treating others with ultimate and infinite kindness and tenderness, along with passion (arguing is like sex really.. an outlet for passion, most fun with someone you love) then they will grow under that. like sunlight for a plant. and by trying to exude that and nothing else, you could help your friends thrive.

but as most of us have learned the hard way, doing that doesnt justify that anyone will treat you kindly back. its hard to stay kind when youre recieving none of it yourself.