Please explain Pisces Man disappearance (Mars in Scorpio, Moon in Aries).

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tptbin
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6 Years

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You know. May be I just want to vent. Just to clarify, I never blocked him. I just said Good Bye. He blocked me.

Coming from a very conservative and strict Asian country, you know we women are exhausted. It is battle every day. From outside my life is fairy tale in my country. I completed my PG from one of the best schools in the country. I work for one of the best companies. Financially I am very good place. If I want to stop working, I can do it. But for what. I am not sure if you can understand me. You can see us ruling big corporates and you must be wondering how it is possible that we do arranged marriages.

I met my husband when I was 19. He is my first crush, we got married. And I accepted the fact that it is all going to be in my life :-). I am the one who prefers peace over other excitements in my life. But it is clear we are different people. I am not saying that my way is superior than his. And he is good person, perfect gentle man. He respects me. An No from me is a No for him what ever is the case. There may be an instance I out of frustration said that I want out. But he never said that. He will just yell " What can I do now. This is what I have endure for life" :-)

My first msg to S, when I say accident may not sound truthful. But that is true. I did not intend to send that msg but it went out of my hand. I still remember sitting in my car as I reached my yoga class early, started writing this mail and when I noticed it is time to go to class, I hit on send instead on save.

I am women at the end of the day. I can notice if some one is showing interest in me. When people started teasing him slightly in the common groups I many times thought he may want that as he wants to send that message. I don't know much about his life except that he is married. And he is from a different caste and this difference is not taken lightly by others. At the end of the day it is the responsibility of everyone to protect a married woman :-). So this teasing irritated some other guys. One of them posted a msg demeaning his religion. That is when I realized that with our body languages we are in the verge of creating scandal.

So after my first mail, I sent him a mail saying how my husband will not take this kind of behaviour from me kindly. I have done this to send a message that this is serious, I know he must be looking for fun and this kind of mail from me will silent him. He also cooled down but there is a change, a change which made his glow. I don't know how else to explain. I may be wrong also. He replied to my second msg with a thumsup symbol. And I thought this is all closed.

When I was in US, teasing again started. Two things happened. In the common group one guy started a discussion on #metoo saying how indirect actions also can be perceived as harassment. In that discussion he said "I just want truth not anything else". And he did not reply to my msg congratulating his deal. I really don't know what to do. I am scared to ask anyone. At the end of the day, his life is also involved. When he did not reply, that's when I sent these mails. I never said in any of the mails that I cannot forget. I asked for apology for leading him on, explained may be because I am little unhappy in my marriage this happened but I don't want to take it forward. But saying all this, a statement can be perceived in many ways. So there is always a possibility that he must be thinking that I am trying to win him ,you know using reverse psychology:-)

But since I don't want him to think like that, I did not go to school after I came back from US. Which means , next time when I saw him it is almost 6 months. In between the incident is that - Some guy posting very nasty msg about S and I sending a msg to S asking to defend himself. How cannot I send that msg. He did not reply. On convocation day, stared in to my eyes (I just melted), and when I asked him how he is doing after 3 months he blocked me.

Now why I am feeling bad. because after all, linked-in profile is important for career. I closed all my social forums except linked-in because I know how important is that. Anyways, I have to either accept to live with this mystery or take the risk everything to figure out exactly what happened.

Just to say, we are 9 very close girl friends. I could not talk to any one of them. What ever they think inwards, outwards the idea is .. it is sin even to look at other guys :-)

I have to add this. I met many people as part of my job. But when this guy looked into my eyes, I just felt so strange that for a mnt I felt like that he is worth throwing my entire life.