Whatever happened to diminishing returns??

You know what I'm talking about. The novelty that is supposed to wear off at some stage, after having the same thing over and over for a long time. The rose-tinted glasses fall off and the feels get taken down a notch. It's what always supposed to happen, right? It's the natural progression of things.

Known this boy for 5 years, have loved him for 4 and we've been exclusive for a little over a year. We've had a few downs, I've walked out on him for 2 weeks and we recently went back to being platonic for a little while, to give each other some breathing room & reassess everything. After all, how does that song go?

They say the light that burns too bright burns half as long

and it's damn true. Ever since my 32nd birthday last year, things between us went from 0 to 100 pretty much overnight. Not that I'm complaining, we're both fire-dominant and we have a hell of a chemistry. On my end, it's like he was magically designed just for me. But the brighter a flame burns, the quicker the burnout. He showed no signs of slowing down this rollercoaster, and me not wanting to make a big deal out of his young age and say he's too immature & impulsive, I went along with the decisions he made including moving in with me without warning & moving me to his own home despite that being what I considered a knee-jerk reaction to a little crisis.

After one too many white lies on his part that brought up old issues of mine, I started putting my foot down. Now we're a proper couple again, but we both made a list for each other of things we individually need to work on. While it's a recipe for comedic gold, the lists consist of real things that need tweaking. My main issue is that I need to get a hold of my emotions. There is such a thing as "too much of a good thing". Too much love can turn ugly and I've certainly had my moments. But getting a hold of those is far easier said than done!!



Even after knowing him for 5 years, and after exploring his body with my tongue on a pretty much daily basis for the past year, I still get instant hard when he takes my hand and rubs it on his chiseled abdomen, and my heart still skips a beat when he kisses me on my cheek or temple.

He took a few new selfies today and in the one he sent to my phone he looks properly demented. His hair is sticking out in all the wrong places as if he's been electrocuted lol, his big face is too close to the camera, his almond-shaped baby blues are bulging and his facial expression is like he's raided someone's medicine cabinet & tried something he shouldn't have.

He expected me to laugh, and even though he was standing next to me when I first saw it, my heart skipped a beat and I blushed. All I could think of was "awwwwwwwwwwww", and then I felt a slight wave of nausea. All I wanted to do was hug him. Even when he's not home and I think about him my heart skips a beat and my gut lurches.

I used to believe that having a guy who makes me drool that bad isn't such a bad thing just because he holds too much power over me - because I'd rather be with someone who makes me feel alive than settling for a guy who doesn't set me on fire. But now I'm not so sure. How am I supposed to tone it down when I share a bed with the man of my dreams??

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just accept it and embrace what you got as long as you have your own things going and don't smother him, you should be fine but to put a restraint on your love cuz he's your dreamboat is dumb

He didn't mean it that way. He knows what I know. He's the first guy I've loved in like a decade. Before he came along, I spent years living like a soulless revenant. I ate, I drank, I slept and I worked but I didn't live. I was completely empty after what happened with my Virgo ex and after my sexual assault. I was a zombie.

Now all of the sudden the most magnificent young man walked into my life and woke me up in every way. And when I love, it's all the way. It overwhelms the hell outta me and it's not a healthy thing to do. Not even my Virgo moon can help with that. He wants me to emotionally pace myself so that I don't end up having another emotional breakdown like the one I had a few years back. Same reason why I've reduced my study load & stopped volunteering at the suicide prevention center, because it all really got to me in recent times. Just because I have who I wanted the most doesn't magically fix everything else.

Normally I'd agree with you



but I'm not intending to go to Hell anytime soon, so I need to stay in tip top shape. Both physically and mentally. Everything in moderation. Except sex.

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Posted by ufo
just accept it and embrace what you got as long as you have your own things going and don't smother him, you should be fine but to put a restraint on your love cuz he's your dreamboat is dumb

He didn't mean it that way. He knows what I know. He's the first guy I've loved in like a decade. Before he came along, I spent years living like a soulless revenant. I ate, I drank, I slept and I worked but I didn't live. I was completely empty after what happened with my Virgo ex and after my sexual assault. I was a zombie.

Now all of the sudden the most magnificent young man walked into my life and woke me up in every way. And when I love, it's all the way. It overwhelms the hell outta me and it's not a healthy thing to do. Not even my Virgo moon can help with that. He wants me to emotionally pace myself so that I don't end up having another emotional breakdown like the one I had a few years back. Same reason why I've reduced my study load & stopped volunteering at the suicide prevention center, because it all really got to me in recent times. Just because I have who I wanted the most doesn't magically fix everything else.

Normally I'd agree with you


but I'm not intending to go to Hell anytime soon, so I need to stay in tip top shape. Both physically and mentally. Everything in moderation. Except sex.

oh okay i see, you probably need a creative outlet to let all those expressions out onto just dabble in some writing or painting or seek a counselor to help you sort out your strong passionate emotions

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A counselor!!!



Yeah they definitely wouldn't help. I'm passionate because it's in my nature. Just like it's in Virgos' nature to be anal about details, and Scorp chicks' nature to be two-faced biatches. And shrinks can't relate to my plight anyway because they don't know Jed. No description does him justice.

I'm like Prometheus, I die of insane cuteness every day. He'd worked out for over an hour this morning, then we cleaned the house top to bottom. We just finished. He was wiped and just collapsed on the new rug on the floor using my jacket as a pillow. Lol took a shot of him on the floor and he was peeking at me. I got him up, he draped himself over my shoulder and I half-carried him to the bed.

He was completely limp so I assumed he was already snoozing, but I turned to him one last time and caught him sleepily staring at me again with one eye open.

Too cute 4 words. Got even worse when he said he thinks I might be an angel in disguise - because apparently I tell him everything he needs to hear when he needs it most. And I'm like awww hell to the naw, I'm too kinky to be sporting a halo. And I don't like harps, though I'm not afraid of heights. With my Aries stellium I'd either be a fallen angel or a warrior angel.



But now that I got less study hours, it's definitely time for healing. Our music will always be there, for starters. I'd send you an orchestral mix I made that includes bass he recorded, but nobody listens to music around here lol.

A lot of work ahead of us. But for right now, a body scrubbing with a hot wet towel & a massage is just what this doctor ordered.