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Dear dad,
This is my letter to you in which I express my whole admiration and respect I had,I have and I will have for you. Never I told you big words.Maybe I was scared that you would fell embarrassed or to be touches by my honestly.But now,I tell you that it's very hard without you.You have gone my angel,you wouldn't want to wait to see your beautiful daughter on her home.You have left me prematurely,now it's hard for me to go on the Med School,mom is destroyed with your left and you know how bad is our financial situation but with the help of God and the help from good people we will move on your sudden,painful leaving. I remember the weight of your hand on my shoulder when I was sad and you told me looking in my eyes:??I love you my doughnut,trust and get over it??I love you too daddy.I remember how you teach me to write,to draw,to fish,to swim,to enjoy each and every breath of wind,I??ve learned from you to be a good person to be more confident on my own streghts,I??ve learned to do what I want and not expect it without a little bit of work to make my dream come true,I??ve learned how to respect the people and especially the nature of God.I??ve learned how to love,how to appreciate the smallest gesture,to be sober and quit on me.I??ve learned how to behave with human being and how to make them treat me.I??ve learned to be honest and respectful and what is justice. I??ve learned to have my head up no matter what I do and whatever people say .I??ve learned how to look into your eyes and touches your heart. This is what I had learned from you enough maybe to move on but never to much to learned other things from you. I remember how much I hurt you with my impulsivity because you were different from others I felt you were disappoint on me. I remember how hard it was to fix the mistakes that sometimes were irreparable and the wounds remained on your heart. I'm sorry for all the enormous mistakes that I have caused you and hurt both of us. Forgive me daddy but I know you have forgive me after a few moments after I??ve been wrong. Now I grew up and learn not only to see and feel but love all those things of you. You know now I can sort good people from evil people and good from bad. I had seen what it means to be a good father. And I learned so much from you that seeing me in this big world,I find it very difficult to believe that I would find all I love on you in another man,which will be the father on my children.